you were
a girlfriend
a lover
a woman
the perfect couple
to the outside world

but in my arms
you were a child
anxious fearful
of being alone
for even a moment

i held
reassured
whispered
in your ear
that I loved you
like a man loves a woman
like a father loves a child

i miss you
i miss us
the look in your eyes
the love in your touch
sharing dreams
of raising kids
growing old
being together
for eternity

Gently in your hand
My heart
Softly in my mind
Your will
Forever

Deep within your love
My own
You and I and He
Who made us one
Forever
        Ls

I feel lonesome hands approaching mine
to walk me through the desert.
I tense my arms against the open night sky
which cannot be pushed away.

I want you to love my grey skies,
my pensivity that rolls across mountain ranges -
the same to me as sunshine igniting streams.
Just a different lens
through which my creature plays with light.
She is elemental
and sloughs skin off the earth like lava flowing
into the ocean to close its eyes.
I'll eat my own tail
to discover what I already know.

you're a woman now
now longer a child
but in my eyes
you are still
my little girl
twirling
dancing
in her pink
disney
princess gown

i miss
the intimacy
of when you were little
hugging
cuddling with daddy
under the blankets
watching sesame street
and eating
peanut butter
and jelly sandwiches

I don't wanna be a party of one
But I do like William Blake
Chicago in the winter
Lady of the Lake

I pray for the animals
Please do not forsake
She and I in Istanbul
Nothin' but love to make

                 Sophia!