Your suffocating in your emotions
Stuck in time with no motion
Your head full of challenges you just cannot face  
While the world around you goes at its own pace
You get lost in the emptiness that occupies your mind
Answers your desperately trying to find
With you shoulders hunched and your eyes to the ground
Going to the beat of your own sound
Forgetting about those who love you
Isolation has become you

I've been hurt too many times before
Too many times I've picked myself up off the floor
My ego battered and bruised by your words
Your treatment left me blurred

How can I find the strength to carry on
When I'm lost, empty and alone
From the moment you walked out the door
I can no longer pick myself up from this floor

Is this who I am now?
Emotionally dead?
I cried so much there are no more tears left

No longer will anyone feel my love or hear me roar
I just lay here
On the floor

A butterfly from my window i see
I take no notice, it's you I need
But you are gone now, resting in your grave
People think what you did was selfish but I think your brave
Dragging myself from my pit
I sigh, breathe and think about what I've got to live
Another day of guilt, another day of sorrow
Another day of living with no hope of you tomorrow
A butterfly landed on my chest, right where my heart is laid to rest
It's wings so beautiful and delicate
This butterfly can't speak but yet so eloquent
A gentle reminder that you are near
A reminder that I need not fear
But I still need your touch
Your voice I miss so much

My eyes glistening a crystal blue
No one sees the darkness in me except you
My body shakes at your touch
This feeling I feel is too much
No one has herd my cries or seen my
trauma
Walking day to day as if he was watching from the corner

But no one sees that darkness in me except you

Why have you been sent to me, what is your goal?
Is it to reignite the fire in my soul?
Your whole being so perfect and pure
Me on the other hand so bitter and raw

Two spiritual warriors battling through this life
You take way my stress and my strife
The love you send to me I can't muster up
This feeling I feel is too much

Take me by the hand
Look into my eyes and see who I am
I can't offer you what you need
That darkness that grows inside of me
Is the only thing you will ever see

I paint a pretty picture
I paint it on my wrist
I paint the first time we kissed

A tsunami running through my blood
Changing me to hate from love
With every punch you threw
the darkness inside me grew
For every bone broken, my pain went unspoken

The fire in my soul the only thing keeping me alive
Even at times when I thought I might die
Your beatings didn't **** me
But your words almost did

My heart blackened and angry

You took my friends, life, my sanity

With fire being the only thing left inside of me
I burn and scold those who come close to me
But the fight must go on
Now I live only for my son

You've had a hard day
Let me rub your shoulders and take the tension away

Let me run my hands over your body
Your mind is a haze, blurry and foggy
Let me  give you some of my light
Let me take your worries from sight

For the power that runs through my blood
Past down through generations of love
Will heal and guide you, will rejuvenate and ignite you

Light-worker by no choice of my own
Only by blood alone

So come now and sit
Watch me as I conjure the spirit
I'll let you in on this, my secret

As I walk lucidly through my dreams
I go back to the time I was your queen
Every time I saw you, working at the stable
My body aching, willing and able

Able to handle the way that you love
Being able to tell you when it's too much

Your cold hungry and wet
But my smile made you forget
For hours we would laugh and talk
I'd help you with your work so we didn't get caught

Long black hair flowing against my face
My heart pounding under the lace
Your lips soft upon my skin
Kissing me where no one had been

Your body connected to mine
Found again through like of mind
Two souls who once loved but separated by time
Back together through the power of the divine