deep as the ocean
soft and warm like mornings

sweet tones like chocolate
wrap me up and pull me in

these tones and octaves
how beautiful, these sounds

im in love with your voice

i sip this peppermint tea
and i remember yours lips

warm and minty
making me feel soft and tingly

a feeling i wish would never end
feeling so lovely with the time that we spend

i sip this peppermint tea and i remember you
its gone cold now

my poems
they weren't enough
to make you stay

it's fine, you'll come back
your feelings will boomerang

maybe not now
but perhaps someday

my insides are rotting
my teeth have fallen out
my head is balding
im ugly, no one would love me

yet theres always that one person
who thinks your beautiful
despite being so flawed
be that person to someone

and both of you might find love

im free
im free from your chains and demands

but why do i feel hallow
what did you do to me?

everyone is a blur
and my mind works mechanically like clockwork

i end up reading our messages
i end up conjuring your scent

my mind draws places we've been on sketchpads
and my eyes look for the shade of your eyes

i wake up to the illusion of your arms around mine
and my lips tickle from lips that aren't there anymore

my mind is racing because there's no one to talk to
there's no one as interesting as you

what have you done to me?
why do i want to be your victim again?

come take my hand
lets try this again

i cant dance this waltz without you
who knows maybe its worth a try?

we were young and rushed things
can we have a re-do?

can you let me stare into those obsidian eyes
and you stare back at mine

can we have those late night talks
and sip those drinks at the cafè we always go to?

can we try and reconnect our souls
put the spark back to where it left?

even if its just tonight
can we fall in love again?

can we?

inhale the deadly dark purple fumes
that make my head spin

lure with those chocolate eyes
the very ones i love looking in

plant a kiss on my lips
the very ones that make that sly grin

you make me plunge into your twisted sludge
your deadly concotions cause me to sin

im dancing with the devil
but i love the moves too much to cease

i am dazed by your deadly loveliness
this is making me sick

i should stop
but i dont

give me your toxic
the sweet spell you have me under

i like pink

soft as a baby
delicate and precious
smiles so warm like the setting sun
a rose in a thorny garden

i like yellow

oh how fun are their quirks
a mix and match of many things
oh the joy yellow brings
a symphony in my ears when they sing

i like blue

like the oceans and the seas
a calm sky and deep tones
calm and mysterious
endless tranquility and ferocity that sets the skin on flames

i like pink yellow and blue
i like all the colors
i like all the hues

i like pink yellow and blue
how about you?

can we talk?
no, you're busy

you need a favor?
course, i'll be there in a jiffy

pushing and pulling me
like you're waves dragging me everywhere

i love you
but i can't keep up with you doing me like this

can we talk?
can we?

i am but a human
can you love me as i am?

i have these demons, vile and viscious
can you handle them?

if i lay myself down
would you admire the scars and imperfections that my body bares?

if i pour out by heart and unleash my soul
would you cherish it all?

if i was miles away
would my words and my best be enough to make you stay?

will you accompany me
on my crazy antics

will you hold me
in my times of sorrowful blue?

will you stand with me, side by side
as i watch the world turn from each beautiful hue?

will you forgive me for the pain i may cause?
or for the burdens i may accidentally give?

i am only human
viscious yet kind

can you still love me as i am
no matter what may be my state of mind?

There are so many things I wish for
Its a very long list

I wish I had more time
But time is not anyone's friend

I wish I was taller
But I always fall short

I wish I had more
But I always lack

I wish for a smile on my face
But all thats there are tears

I wish I didn't have to leave
But you know it was for the better

I wish I could reach out to you
But will you take my hand?

I wish I could be there
But I am oceans away

I wish, I wish
I can only wish

I wish you the happiest of happiness
The kind where you don't have to tear me apart

My yellow my yellow
So calm and mellow
Like the sunflowers in the meadow

My yellow my yellow
So safe and warm
My haven is my yellow, it keeps me from harm

My yellow my yellow
They took away my yellow
I feel bruised and broken, where is my yellow?

My yellow my yellow
Where is my yellow?
I'll bring back my own yellow soon

A good morning to my night, how is everthing?

Lets talk?
Maybe not, you're busy now
Why else would you ignore me?

You've left me with the feelings we swore to protect
So precious, so fragile
Or are all these just mine?

Conceal all these unsaid words
Because all I get are more questions
Piecing together someone who cant piece themselves

You're unfair
Speaking when youre in the mood
Pulling my strings, like its just fine

You caused me to feel these
You promised and you broke it
Yet i understood

You've left me in confusion
Resorting to facades to hide the pain
Do you not want me to experience happiness?

Do you not care?
I cant even ask you myself
Because I'll get more confused

I love you, its true
But i cant keep loving you when youre in that state
You'll **** us both with the stunts you're pulling

Are you insane?
Or is it me?
Or are we both mad, thinking we're okay

Yes, I miss when you were mine.

But letting you go is my way of saying i love you
Because its whats best
Have you ever thought of that for me?

How very lucky
For you to have someone who you can break twice
Its me, right?

But am i fortunate enough?
Im not calling out to you anymore
I need to heal from all the wounds you never tended to


Good night to your morning, please let me rest from the havoc that is you.