Most people Fear me cause I’m black Because I’m different I stand tall In the indifference
Others, because I’m loud Intense Larger than life Even though in my life Nothing happens; It’s going Nowhere fast
But not you No, You enjoy Basking in my suffering Just the same as You enjoyed watching them suffer Because it make you feel Good No part of you knows Humbleness or guilt For pride and ego Now act as your shield
Funny How without mentioning your name The room is now not as sunny Predictable You’ll shift uncomfortable Act observant Interested Until eventually my words get to you And you’ll roll yourself a cigarette
If this is goodbye Then I’ll speak what’s on my chest I despise you And everything you stand for You use your values and roles As a glue to trap people near you You act like you care Until someone challenges your goals You pull people close Especially if your ego is struck Which I think happens Not-out-of-luck Sometimes I wonder What lies you have told To others about me More concerning though Is what lies you tell yourself Because I can see them
As it turns out We’re 2 sides of the same coin Even though you do all you can To dull my face And turn yourself towards the light And mine to the dark You forget that I like it here You think you’re the first To do this to me? To leave me behind in the dark? To strike me down when I already am? To get so obsessed with themselves Being better than they were yesterday-
No, Finishing that insult Would only motivate you more I still have more power over you Than a ***** With your **** in her mouth -but I will not use it No I will not say it For like my gift Of words and poetry - I refuse to abuse it
Good luck to you Your friends, Family And anyone you see fit To be by your side Me? I’m gone For I known you’d do this For I was warned and my God, They were right; And I own a lot of people An apology
I have sliced This little coin of ours And now you have your wish You have all the light Attention Fame Glory Money Anything you could possibly want Take it!
Because I don’t want it I’m not motivated to be bigger Or better Than the next guy in the room You really think anyone Can intimidate me?
No, instead I’ll wash my side And try my best to remove the grime Because even looking like this Standing alone between Insanity and the zone One day I will return And, regrettably Outshine you
Because that’s the only way To get any Respect from you
I’ve been told by many people That my attitude is my problem That my perspective is flawed And that I’m ****** in the head And I guess they are right Cause after they say this They’re the one that fled Far beyond the mountains
But they’re right My attitude And perspective are flawed I have been through too much To even be or feel Like anyone of you here: Normal
But they are also wrong ****** and naive To think that they’re energy Their vibe Is what I need Because they also never leave They’re little bubble And enforce their perspective Of how they perceive you Onto you And expect you to conform To their view of life And orderliness of their lives
Oh, I pity these friends of mine I truly do Because most of you aren’t even worth The polish on my shoe Which is why I don’t hide What I feel inside Because I still feel I’ll never hide what I feel I’ve been there and done that As silent as the cries of a bat I’ve screamed and shouted But all I got Was mute
Because they will blame you Rather than blame themselves They’ll say it’s your fault That you’re there On the shelf Gathering dust While they’re off making a success And drowning in pointless, ****** **** For power and fame So when they see you again They have something to boast about Something to make them Scream and shout Sadly for this No one delays From seeing this
They won’t wonder If your perspective is flawed They’ll just ***** it into your head That you are really, Mad Not because People made promises That they never kept Or because they’ll happily replace you With someone else Or they’re around for the good time And never for the grind Or they hang and meet up with you Because they need to pass the time Or come begging for advice When they’re backs against a wall Blame you for your life and misery But don’t listen at all Or better yet Plan and promise to meet one day But you never get the text Or call
So no, I think my perspective isn’t flawed I’m an extreme, like my parents A combination of black and white Producing the devils’ offspring If you think what I’ve said before Isn’t true Then don’t say it at all Because honestly, I don’t care And the last I recalled I never asked for your opinion So kindly keep it to yourself Like me, put it on a shelf And wrap it in a nice little ribbon In a way that makes you feel Safe and in control
Because unlike you, I know what it’s like To be used Abused Manipulated Scared Beaten And called upon To replace the now Gaping hole that’s in your life Because ‘they’re gone’ Expecting me to respond Like a dog being called by name
I never wanted fame But I know what it’s like to go insane To feel and be told you’re crazy And yes, I am too much Get to close, and I’ll burn you to a crisp
So I cut you out Like a sore tumor For the better of the host For the better of myself Because I don’t need the help From people like you But this still Doesn't being me piece So instead, I’ll write Instead, I’ll make you weep
I resigned my spirit is now broken my heart torn my will, my drive was once gone, but now must be forced out from deep within myself and my body hurts in places that I did not know possible but then again, do you even care?
I resigned because I had enough because I hated what I was being turned into because I disserve better because I am better and will not allow myself to be grinded down and moulded to your liking to suit your cause
I resigned for my life and mental health are worth so much more than your apologies or your pity; neither serve me any purpose I saw how you change people what promises you simply state but you only tease from high above our goals, through you simply dangling from a string, toying with us to ***** us bare to make us mouldable for by losing, sacrificing, abandoning what makes us, 'us' we jump higher for you to reach your expectations of us and lose ourselves in the process
I resigned I think I've said this before I still feel that it's a dream, all the years of hard work now really account to nothing for I was eluded that I could be something more ..... ..... the saddest part? I was and still am already something just not your 'thing'
I resigned the only downside is knowing that I could have made it for I have supported so many others and I now watch them go far floating on the horizon without a second glace back but sadly, my good nature has not been returned It's a shame that a tank that supports others doesn't get the support back for they simply assume all is well because he's a tank
But I also blame you for I remember a time when my friends were my friends were we laughed at how pointless things were the simple things brought us the most joy and time was simply something to be used wisely for it is in short supply so you spend it all on your friends ..... ..... but you broke most of my friends they are now self-absorbed in themselves like horses with shades on oblivious to the world around them they walk over anyone and anything to get their way and if you're not part of their agenda, not someone they can use to gain from or a hand to ****** that ego well.....
I'll be alright I may have lost the fight but believe me I'm built for this kind of war I'm just glad to be out
Before I could no longer recognise myself.
** "She has left port!" at first, thought was "This is a dream" but on closer inspection, it was not she had been commandeered by the one everyone keep never-near and was sailing fast towards the horizon and all that could be done was watch as a Baldboy sailed off laughing his voice booming across the sea...
I am the Invisible Man you don't see me around my head hangs low and I'm always glaring
I am the Invisible Man in my ears music is always blaring drowning out the unrelating noises, who's voices bring curses released in all my verses
I am the Invisible Man deep inside, the sun is always shining, it's blinding but to be constantly outshone in the shadows of the vastness the curses of the masses to degrade beyond regression your soul can't regenerate
I'm the Invisible Man the man that blends in even with the colour of my skin an uneventful circumstance of an unchanging tide that abides by forces far beyond the reach of our control being lost and oppressed is all we know the confines of a dark corner trapping us in both space and time
And yet in our minds oh, the universes we hold the billons of thoughts we see the hopes of life that we bring the virtues of love and kindness that abides us to the care of humanity sadly, it drives us to insanity
I'm in a place I never thought I'd be in surrounded in darkness but inside, I'm still glowing now shine a light in this darkness abolishing of what's yet to come I found me broken and alone engaged by chains that were my own enforced by you to be a socially acceptable individual how comical to think imprisonment offers freedom just tighten me down making me susceptible to get some I had fun I won't lie, I had a blast getting ****** up the *** by side-walkers using my chains to being about the carnage you knew my limitations of how far these chains would go you drew a calk line on the ground so you'd know stopping by from time to time to get your fix 'cause while I'm held back in chains you float above the chiasm....
It was my own weakness to think that's how to beat this but it was all for nothing sticking around with fine line of who I was and what I'd do what even made me think I should follow you? I hoped things would get better instead, they got wetter and the water rose there's an ocean between us and no one knows most are unaware others don't care that we've lost this pieces to the puzzle that's incomplete
I think to myself what is the price of greatness? and how have others already figured this out, yet it is worth the price to break ties in search of your own light the shine brighter than the rest? is it worth to invest in you to fine tune through which the process all you're left with is you?
I won't lie I still lie awake at night think of what was and what could have been this hunger within to make something out of nothing to make sense of the insensible it's a thirst that's unquenchable drives you up the walls though insanity makes you think you've lost it all
I am now chainless you won't touch this too scared to stand at my level this is my plain of existence my kingdom if you want to step down to me come and get some I may be incomplete for I cannot fly but I'm ok with that and that's not a lie
For I remember what the view is from up there and I don't want it instead I'll wait down here and grow for one by one you will all fall from grace and the King will raise you up once more
...unless you chose to stay here that's fine with me too
'Look at them those idiotic fools down below grinding their spirits away. That will never be us, we have a plan, a dream and together we will succeed.'
And I thought what you spoke was true I believed we'd do great things together but then you twisted words, ideas because you're so desperate to stand out to leave your mark in the dark before the light stamps you out.
That's why every time the light shines our way you believe everyone around you is fine because we all look *** and you're happy, satisfied so you turn your back towards the darkness and run towards the light and any friend that's left behind watches you run in flight how sad it is for me to think that you'd be here for me the same way I was there for you to think you'd help me rebuild but you leave me there fiddling in pieces on the floor in a much worse state then an extremely-cheap *****
I don't believe you anymore you have lied to me broken the cardinal rule and worse is you think that I believe you I blame myself for letting my guard down yet, I'm left here thinking how?
You have left me in the dark how dare you say I'm lying I've watch the moon rise from my window 4 times, while I was trying to lift the weight of the world off shoulders your excuse was 'I was busy' and that struck a cord because you would have chased me if I promised I'd **** you more to feed that ego; the highest of statuses you believe that you diverse and anyone who dismisses that you break with your words
I don't believe a word you say did you think I'm ***? do you think of me lower than you? than shoo away with you you've been gone for 4 months you've been so 'busy' that you've run out of luck yet, you still had time to play, write and ****
We're not friends anymore I can feel you blocking me out we don't talk anymore, so you don't want me to know whilst I've previously seen your tears flow and you don't want in on my darkness that's within even with my door always wide open in this day and age trust is worth the fuss but it's a shame that once your shackles came lose you only set yourself free
This disrespect is wiped across my face while you boast about all your ****** successes and riches and any question about your short-comings you're dismissing hide yourself in your protective cocoon that facade you work so hard to maintain for I already know it will be in vain because the voices in your head will still drive you insane
I don't think I can trust you now that you can lie to my face and spoken behind my back you always think I'm distracted but I'm cautiously listening feeling, dreaming my mind buzzes to words I find appealing out of concern, out of love I eves-drop on conversations but I can't do that anymore when you're *****' doing all the thinking
So this is how it is now? I call a foul on myself and my own senses for it's them dissing them because love blinds us all I blame myself for this fall my senses warned me that something had ****** up and even previously I was cautioned about a potential **** up and it happened unexpectedly how blind and ****** I can be while you're out there running you broke the promise that we would both be free you used me like a doll for you've had many like me in reserve so for you to leave was easy you didn't even say a word.
I honestly loved you like a brother but now I don't know if I can any more.
To make yourself insignificant is simple; make your voice even quitter than the squeaks of a mouse lower your gaze from the heavens to the ground and focus on the black soil staining your boots hunch your shoulders and arch your back as you carry the hidden weight of your intelligence
Slower your pace to that of boredom rather than purpose wear cloths that fit you too big to hide your size and strength shoes too small if you can afford any at all pull your hoodie up to hide your face from passerby and face down, not forward gaze fixed, lost, broken.
Do not ****** the ego of your friends offer little to no support for in their recompense, they will not save you.
Don't reach out to those you need for your need will become a drug to them and don't accept the help of those who offer for that will become a tally of re-payment turn your back on any proposal of aid no matter how enticing they may be
Withdraw within yourself, within your own thoughts do not show weakness, even when you're forgotten hide behind pride, ego immaturity; a soul not stained by life's lessons keep the mask on as you slowly become insignificant, unfazed and follow others like sheep to their death and yours
But if you ever wish to lead it is simple turn your back on your gods for they never cared for you and they will never follow you
Instead, simply say 'I will no longer chase it is time that I switched pace instead I will lead who dares to follow me and my steed?'