There’s this little person inside me,
who tells me all this
There’s this whispering voice in my head,
which makes me feel like this,
There’s this way unpleasant shiver inside me,
which makes me question all this
They all come from somebody else
But at the same time
I am
This person, this voice, this shiver
I am
All of them
While being
The exact opposition
I try but I don’t
I stay, then I go
I care but I don’t
I scream while being silent
I ***** up to make up
Don’t even know who
Does my mind belong to
Anymore

Laughing together
I’m holding back tears
„This is forever”
Silence in my ears

Arms around my waist
Yet I’m still so cold
Surrounded by you
Yet I’m still alone

Teach me how to breathe
Show me how to stay
Tell me there’s a way
To make me feel again

Sell me some old lies
Tell me „sun will shine”
Even though we know
We’ll both end up gone

see us dancing
the moment I hear
any upbeat melody

Everything hides
Nothing is found
There’s string on me
And I cannot breathe

Mum, I’m not angry, nor sad
I’m not mad
I don’t feel anything
I can’t feel anything

World’s turning around
I’m loosing my mind
Can’t tell apart
What’s wrong, what’s right

It breaks my heart
My light burns out
I’ve tried to fight
Got caught by fright

Brain feels so wired
It doesn’t shut up
I’m just so tired
Of playing the part

Still fear there’s someone
Who’s pulling my strings
Like I’m some puppet
You’ll  see on TV

I exist
But dreams turn into dust
And every breath reminds me of last

I exist
But world is so blurry
Contained of hopes I had to burry

I exist
But there’s only blank space
That’s highlighting every wasted chance

I exist
But time turned into slow motion
I’m drowning in an endless ocean

I exist
Joyful dance, cheerfull smile
Did someone say I was fragile!?

I’m alright
Look at me
So delighted to exist

Why not me?
Was I too much
Or too little
Tell me
Was I bad enough
To just leave
Or were you
Cruel enough
Not to stay

Why not me?
I get it
You don’t miss me
And it doesn’t  matter
That I miss you
Does it?

Why not me?
I was already hurt
So I can’t say that
It was you
Who broke me
But I have to admit
That you leaving
Broke my heart
A little more

I know
World’s not about me
I know
That it was all
My fault
It just felt so good
Now it’s all just wrong

Oh how beauteous
You look when you smile
The cloudy countentance
Shined away by
The sparkle in your eyes
I wish I could behold it
For longer than
The tiny piece of time

My love is repulsive
It will destroy you
My Love
So my Love, please
Don’t trust me
Cause my love
Breaks things apart

Tears falling from her lifeless eyes
Their salty taste

Rain drops falling from silvery sky
Their tiny shape

Tears falling down her alabaster cheeks
In their own rhythm

Rain drops falling from colourless sky
Tapping so evenly

Putting out her shaking hand
Water so delicate

Tears falling down her face
Rain drops falling from the sky

Isn’t it wonderful to have
Such company in despair…

Always puts them above
I will still  play pretend
We tend to accept love
That we think we deserve

There was red on my hands
After i mordered my inner self
All hopes and dreams
Washed away by the salty stream
Saw it altogether
My happy ending gone
Nothing anymore
Nothing forever

Baby would you
Leave me already
Cause I’m getting
Attatched here

Baby would you
Hurt me already
Cause I can’t take
Pure happiness

Honey would you
Kiss me already
I’m getting starved
Of your sweet touch

Baby would you
**** me already
I cannot take
More of the luck