She once lay here,
I didn't say goodbye

Filled with grief,
I barely survived.

She appeared in my dream,
It was almost real

When I woke,
I couldn't breathe.

They asked how She was,
I didn't react

Dazed,
I was empty

She left me her favorite dress,
I wore it

Like a shield,
I felt invincible.

In my memories,
She's alive,

I can breathe.

It is not that I
Can't let you go,darling, it's
that I don't want to.

Tomorrow,
I tell myself,
I'll be a better person tomorrow,
I will wake up,
And breathe in the morning air,
Delighted and happy,
I will look in the mirror,
Pleased by who I am,
I will walk out the door,
And smile at strangers,
I will spend my days,
In a blissful state,
And my nights,
Floating on my happiness high,
That's what I want tomorrow to be,
But it never is,
Because tomorrow is soon today,
And my plans were just dreams,
Forgotten after waking up to reality,
But still I plan,
To be happy tomorrow.

Its easy they tell me,
But that doesn't stop my stutter when asked 'What I would be buying today',

Telling me I'll grow out of it,
Doesn't help,
When I walk home from the shop,
Empty handed,
Because the thought of talking to the cashier scared me away,

Saying I should stop being stupid,
Only makes it worse,
As I lie awake into the early hours of morning,
Ashamed of myself,
For not saying all those things I couldn't say,
And doing all those things I couldn't do,
So you see,

Your words of encouragement,
Aren't really helping,
Are they?

She will sing a dark
song listen and give peace to
those who still suffer.

I don’t understand,
How you can say ’I love you’ but
Still say,’Goodbye’ too.