For the first time in a long time
I had to admit that I was scared
I could feel a dark cloud hovering over my head
Like its going to rain tar on me

Out of nowhere I saw your face
I saw that smile again
And I though for a second
That all would be well
But the very smile that once brought me joy
Caused me more pain

Use a cupful of hallucinations
A handful of flight of ideas
12 table spoons of euphoria
And mix evenly.
Add a half cup of pure paranoia
10 slices of negativism
A sprinkle of disorientation
And a flavor of indifference to taste
Allow to cook for an hour
And you have for yourself
A perfect dish of crazy

I made a deal with the devil
People say its a risky thing to do
But I think its a bold move
Because I plan to outsmart him
Heard he's the smartest guy around
I beg to differ
I'm on a highway to hell
And nothing can stop me
No backward glance
No checkpoints or speed limits
Just me and my smug smile
I'm going to beat the Devil
At his own game

We are a family of friends
Related by mutual respect
The kind that can take a bullet for you
Not with words of mouth
But with their body
They go through hell
To ensure you make heaven
There are not many of them
But there is Lawrencia

I remember my first time
Like it was just yesterday
I keep reliving the experience
I was so anxious
I could hear my own heart
Beat in my shirt
I had heard so much about this
I didn't know what to expect
Then she walked into the room
Gave me a good look and said
Calm your nerves, I don't bite
lie down, I'll take care of you
This must be your first time?
Take a deep breath
It will be over before you know it

We all are selfish
We deny it all the time
Only a few are brave to admit this
Just as we get delusional about our looks
About love and how we're always right.
Its easy to lie to yourself
A make-believe
We sometimes refer to as hope
In times of despair
I do like to lie to myself a lot
Just to feel good about everything
But one thing is for sure
For as long as angels can't lie
I can never die