Cameron

Cameron Aug 2019

It seems the madness has truly intertwined with my soul.
My face is no longer my own.
My persona is out in full force.
Each day I question my own reason for being.
My own reason for living.

My mind is a maze I can no longer traverse alone.
I often get lost in those grand hallways of my cruel imagination,
and I fear that soon I may get led astray and never find my way back.

What is this feeling?

This painful longing.

This imposing dread.

This endless terror.

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I am afraid.

So very afraid.

I do not know what to do.

Sometimes I feel as if I am not even human.

I cry, but no tears fall from my face.

I weep, but no sound leaves my mouth.

What is this feeling?

What have I become, but a walking carcass where a man once was.

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Cameron Apr 2019

Sad lofi boi

Recently I've been trying to think thoughts that I like the sound of.

Instead of letting my head been the roaming ground of nihilism and self-doubt, I'm trying to take life one step at a time.

Treat people with no prior prejudices, act in a way that makes me proud, and appreciate the fact, that everyone around me finds life just as hard as I do.

We all bear the burden that is life, and we each have a responsibility to ourselves to not let it go to waste.

All those cat poster sayings really are true...

Cameron Apr 2019

A - Flat- D

A phoenix from the ashes
Once again struck down,
by the darkness.
It's hopes and dreams ripped from its chest.

Leaving only an empty cavity.
Its life goes on though.

In a semi-conscious kind of way -
it's alive.

Although it thinks it died years ago.
Only to realize on its deathbed that it's too late.
The time has gone.

Cameron Mar 2019

Untitled

Sometimes I feel a sense of overwhelming beauty in the world,
So much so that it brings a tear to my eye.
Is this what God is?
Or is God long dead?

Cameron Mar 2019

Wake up

Realize that your actions, affect those around you.
Realize that suffering, pain, and loneliness are all parts of life,
But they do not define who you are.
Realize you have the potential for greatness.

W A K E U P

Cameron Mar 2019

Untitled

As the river flows by
I stop to look in your eyes.
I see a life
worth living.

Cameron Mar 2019

Untitled

Being aware of how little you know.
Is a truly smart thing.