it's approaching
closer
closer
closer
it forever draws nearer
and it never stops
and it never will
more constant than the moon on a clear night
more familiar than the touch of a lifelong love
chilling to the bones
constantly
more you than not
you will never escape
nothing helps
god never seemed more silent
maybe it's just you're too loud
you plea and beg for semblance
silence
peace
but it never comes
and it never will
hell is a place on earth
and it's right here in my head

you left me alone
to experience the world
by myself
instead of living in your
embrace
getting high off  your
aftertaste
that clung to you
as i clung to you

I’m trapped in a box
But that box is my vessel
And my vessel is my body
And my body is me

Trapped within myself
My thoughts contorted
Into grotesque thoughts  
I once believed were only visible in nightmares

My body no longer feels like my own
I feel as if this is just an out-of-body experience
As I gaze upon the shell of who I once was
Confused by what I have become

I’m perpetually confused
Forever in a daze
Aimlessly drifting
As my past and present selves conflict

If I am who I once was
And not who I currently am
Then who exactly is the person
Staring at me in the mirror

I wait for you, night
I wait for you all day
For in those briefest moments we touch
I wish we could just stay
Stay like this forever
With your blue intertwining my red
and create a beautiful masterpiece
A canvas in the sky, they said
For when we meet
It feels as if your lips graze mine
Brief and obsolete
In that moment you are thine
I wish we could stay in this limbo forever
Where the day met the night
But alas it has to end
We separate in plight
But when tomorrow comes
I can always count on you
Your darkness meeting my light
As day and night must do
And we partake in this game forever
Never a day complete
Without this dance we play
Like children on the street
I wait for you, night
I wait for you all day
I wish for you forever in the moments
But you can never stay

as i crash into my stiff bed
and my demons haunt me
i just think of your smile
or the way your eyes sparkle
and my fears are put to rest

That mundane drip is so torturous.
The end is inevitable,
each second,
each breath
each drip.
Is it not beautiful?
With death comes life.
After ever winter
comes a spring.
Our expiration is approaching.

Drip drop goes the clock,
slowly ebbing away at our existence.
As humanity slowly wears away into nothingness,
we pray to any available deity,
for more wind-chill,
for one drip longer.

We are all destined to die.
We just hope
To leave more of an impression
on society
than an inevitable puddle
destined to wash away
when tomorrow comes.

Muted color
On darkest day                                          
There was a light
to show the way

In dreary towns
My eyes were bound
To the misty lights
Up on the cloud

What is that phenomenon?
Where did it go?
The place we are seeking
We shall never know.

As our eyes droop down
And our smiles go flat,
It is easy to see
That we shall never go back

To that muted color
On that darkest day
Where that light to guide us
Showed the way

Immortality is over
We are now doomed
To succumb to our future
As our destinies loomed.

As we were shot down
To the pits of Tartarus
My fate was no longer
Ambiguous

We were forgone
Forever to roam
The pitch black world
Always to moan

That muted color
On darkest day
Was unfortunately one
To never stay