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Mar 2018 Cedric D'Cruz

gay

Mar 2018 Cedric D'Cruz

A Mareship

gay

The English vice,
Some Etonian curse –
Set down in grass
And purple verse,

Lavatory bred
With ransacked blood,
Skin slapping and
With a falling thud –

Takes boys at childhood,
Wishes them away,
With promises of popper fuelled buffets,

And poisons them with
Vice and virus red,
And sees them unmarried
Giving head.

I don’t regret a single thing I am,
I’ve tried it out
And can’t abide the sham –

I’ll **** men
And make them beg for more,
I’ll scrabble for their love upon the floor,

I’ll love men
And love will love me too,
I’ll love for love’s own sake
And when I’m through

I’ll die and I’ll be thankful that your hate
Never made me beg that I was straight.

I don't generally write on the topic of being gay, although I write a lot about boyfriends etc. Being gay is not really an issue for me, but every now and then someone will make a comment that will ******* enrage me, hence this poem. Let's stick together, doesn't matter who we fall in love with, let's not be ashamed of anything. x

#love #gay #pride #fuckyou

Oct 2017 Cedric D'Cruz

My best friend (suicide) part 1

Oct 2017 Cedric D'Cruz

Brandon Cotter

My best friend (suicide) part 1

You want to know the truth?

I lost a part of me that day
My body shutting down
As the convulsions started
I guess that's what happens Right?
Eighty two capsules of Tylenol
Dissolving rapidly in my stomach

As the seizures started
I broke my little brothers lamp
Crashing to the floor
muscle spasms kept me awake
Just long enough to think...

Think of my mistakes
And the reasons I wanted out
The flashes of your face
And the shades of your smiles

But till this day, I'll never forget
Not once was I afraid
Not once did I regret
I truly believed I was going to die
And I had accepted it

Sometimes I wonder
If a part of me did die that day
Left behind to wither away
Haunting me from time to time
Calling me to come back

And to be honest
I miss you old friend
But I still have things to do
So you'll have to wait a little longer
Before we can hold hands once more

#suicide

Oct 2017 Cedric D'Cruz

When the darkness stole you

Oct 2017 Cedric D'Cruz

ML Otto

When the darkness stole you

I don't know what the darkness told you
When you touch it with your toe
Carefully testing out its feeling
Hesitant and slow

I didn't know how scared you were
Until I saw the fear
Buried in your soul so deep
When you touch the darkness near

I will never know the reason
You feared the darkness so much
For the darkness that you feared
Was just life's messy touch

I know now that I couldn't save you
When darkness stole you away
Just a touch if its great fear
Was enough to make you stray

#suicide #pain #darkness #helplessness #lonely #sad #missing #love

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