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I was in a good mood and thought you were cute
You asked for my number and I just approved
Everything was going smooth and I felt unlike I had in years
Until you disappeared ...
And I hadn’t felt like that in a long time either, I fear

Inside my mind, I was finally feeling alright  
Now loneliness and regret are back in sight
I knew better and this one couldn’t be true, too perfect
Anyway, who was I to even think I deserved this?
I bet him he’d be gone by now and congrats to me, looks like I win

He said all the right things
Leading up to ensure getting his way
Until, I guess, he got bored and no longer wanted to play
How come they never seem to stay?
The good things always eventually fade

Inside my mind, I was finally feeling alright  
Now loneliness and regret are back in sight
I knew better and this one couldn’t be true, too perfect
Anyway, who was I to even think I deserved this?
I bet him he’d be gone by now and congrats to me, looks like I win

I promise I will learn this time, to protect my heart and mind
Go back to my heart being lazy, what’s your favorite - I don’t care, baby
I rather be alone forever and look crazy

Inside my mind, I was finally feeling alright  
Now loneliness and regret are back in sight
I knew better and this one couldn’t be true, too perfect
Anyway, who was I to even think I deserved this?
I bet him he’d be gone by now and congrats to me, looks like I win
Jenni Littzi Sep 2020
If you only knew,
What I put up with for you
If you could only see,
What it all meant to me

I thought I had kept the best of all
Until you turned out to be a follower
I guess the joke is out now to laugh
Only,  I’m too exhausted from all the crap

I’m just the biggest fool
I continuously was used
(And you’re just like them now, too)
Thought it was a worthy cause
But I’m left now with an epitome to it all
I was the biggest fool there ever was
They saw me coming for miles and miles
Nobody is grateful, nah, just lost it all

The world is so crazy today
Maybe I shouldn’t be shocked
I just promise this is the last straw
I’m wiser with age, again I will never fall

I thought I had kept the best of all
Until you turned out to be a follower
I guess the joke is out now to laugh
Only, I’m too exhausted from all the crap

I’m just the biggest fool
I continuously was used
(And you’re just like them now, too)
Thought it was a worthy cause
But I’m left now with an epitome to it all
I was the biggest fool there ever was
They saw me coming for miles and miles
Nobody is grateful, nah, just lost it all

Now I promise you I’m number one
When it comes to whom matters
I’ll fight until I’ve finally won
A right to be just me and happy

I thought I had kept the best of all
Until you turned out to be a follower
I guess the joke is out now to laugh
Only, I’m too exhausted from all the crap

I’m just the biggest fool
I continuously was used
(And you’re just like them now, too)
Thought it was a worthy cause
But I’m left now with an epitome to it all
I was the biggest fool there ever was
They saw me coming for miles and miles
Nobody is grateful, nah, just lost it all
I’m honestly letting go. This is goodbye.
Jenni Littzi Jul 2020
The most innocent pure hearts put on earth
A peaceful afterlife, it’s what they deserve
The time comes to follow Rainbow Bridge
You know how it works, but they’re missed
More than words can express at a time like this  
They are wise and strong and understand
But our senses leave and letting go, we can’t
The thought without them, you can’t stand
Wondering what you did right and wrong, especially the ending
Gave them enough love? Were you a good pet parent?
Would they feel betrayed over a new baby?
They watch over us closely, Angels in the sky
Happily wagging those tails, when we rescue another life
Not to worry, they know they can’t be replaced, but love to give their friends a safe place
A home, to do it again and dream
If they stay at Rainbow Bridge we again meet
Until then, new journeys begin, because it’s not the end
Jenni Littzi Apr 2020
💜💎 Gypsy, a kind and courageous soul
Gives so much out, it must take its toll
Empathy, carrying her own weight
And then the weight of the world, too
Wearing many hats as mom, friend, and counselor
Patience that no degree can spur
An unique soul, you can’t hold down
No matter how some try to make her drown
Colorful and hiding many talents
She won’t show you everything, she keeps her balance
Free spirit and magic in the making
She gives much while life is taking
Caring for each individual, no matter how seemingly small
She is there to answer your call
Just a spec on others radars, but she knows
You matter, we are all equal with our own woes  
A sensitive soul, nothing but beyond cool
Gypsy, a kind and courageous jewel 💎💜
Jenni Littzi Jan 2020
I’ve always taken care of everybody
I was always put in charge of situations
I played “mommy” on every occasion
But when you’re down and out ...
They forgot

For every nice deed I’m treated like I was no longer needed
Like they don’t care because now they don’t need me there
So I’m left alone while my own troubles grow
Don’t ever expect me again to lend a helping hand
I’m now focusing on the most worthy, that’s me
I never put her first, but now she can blossom from the hurt
One day I’ll bloom brand new and say to all, ***** you

I used to be sad about losing each one of you
But I don’t cry anymore like a past life and I’m now new
I’m angry that I was clearly always used
20/20 vision looking back but I’ll pretend we never met
No more feelings left in me much longer to show and shed
I forget...

For every nice deed I’m treated like I was no longer needed
Like they don’t care because now they don’t need me there
So I’m left alone while my own troubles grow
Don’t ever expect me again to lend a helping hand
I’m now focusing on the most worthy, that’s me
I never put her first, but now she can blossom from the hurt
One day I’ll bloom brand new and say to all, ***** you

***** you for taking me for granted
***** you, making me second think
And ***** your for making me care

For every nice deed I’m treated like I was no longer needed
Like they don’t care because now they don’t need me there
So I’m left alone while my own troubles grow
Don’t ever expect me again to lend a helping hand
I’m now focusing on the most worthy, that’s me
I never put her first, but now she can blossom from the hurt
One day I’ll bloom brand new and say to all, ***** you
Most personal in awhile!!!
Jenni Littzi Jan 2020
I know you’re lying when so frustrated
Still I kept trying, leaving me in desperation
Everyone says let it go, she’s still just a kid
Having a lot to learn in this great, big world
But I’ve really been through most of it
Yet, even so, with a sincere apology
You seem to just want to fight with me
I give up, after I’ve been put through hell
But I’ll never forget the version of you I knew so well
I’ll hold on to my ladybug and the memories
It’s just an ending that’s bittersweet to me
I just can’t even cry this time, I sigh
Wishing for the best, but nothing I can do
Maybe we’ll rekindle, maybe we’ll become strangers
Like we never knew, I must accept the truth
Jenni Littzi Jan 2020
The waves crash and the children laugh
Yet all you can hear is your inner fear
You hold on tightly to your past
You apologize, it just couldn’t last
And you can’t let go of how things are
Compared to how your memory sparks

Gasping and drowned by memories
That are taking you under real deep
On my knees, pleading for a case of
Amnesia so I can no longer overthink
Please free me from the past memories
I can’t live there anymore, I need freed
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