She was in love with some one who made her happy
But constantly hurt her unknowingly

                                           *The question of 'when' always brought up
                                                                ­  on the cruelest game of nature
                                                                ­                                        Waiting,
                ­                           To sit idle for the inevitable was the torture
                                                     And I didn't want to wait in patience,
                                                                ­         for the pain to seep inside
                                                          ­                                  Love was great,
                                                          ­                                          It was nice,
                                                           ­                 But nothing lasts forever
                                         Though he never asked for forever from her,
                                                            ­            Only time and the present

*Looking down at her phone,
She began to type a short response,
A lie
She typed with a heavy heart, "I'm fine"

And i knew
i was completely ruined
when the sight of your
eyes started to make me
weak at the knees.
i started to memorize
each curl at the
nape of your neck.
i promised myself
i wouldn't let this happen,
but we all know i'm weak for
the things that don't need me.

I wonder how many times you have climbed into a tub and thought,
"Wow maybe I could drown in hopes of escaping my life."
I dont know how many of you have thought that but let's just say a few.
One: I step into the tub with my left foot and the water is immensely warm.
Downing pills couldn't be that bad right now.
Maybe I could grab the bottle without anybody noticing.
I wonder if I could make my own concoction of medicine would suffice.
Concoction is a funny word.
Two: I step in with my right foot and everything is tingling from the heat.
If I charge my phone from the plug over there by the sink,
Could I electrocute myself?
I wonder how bad electrocution hurts.
Deep fried food would be nice right now.
Three: I sink into the tub and pull my knees to my chest.
if I lay back now and fight myself from breathing,
Could I do it?
I wonder how long it takes somebody to drown themselves in a tub while fighting their instinct to survive.
I could adapt and grow gills.
Four: I lay back into my tub and watch the water rise.
The water is warm and my body is heavy.
I can't **** myself because my headstone will be something sad,
My funeral will play music I'll hate listening to as a ghost,
People I don't even know will show up.
What if my ex shows up?
Five: I sink lower into the water until I can no longer hear clearly and it tickles the side of my eyes.
What's the point in breathing.
Breathing is so weird.
Why do I have to maintain a body that's going to die anyways?
I wonder what dying feels like.
Six: I've been in here for an hour. Maybe I should get out.
This water has turned mildly lukewarm.
I'd like to stay but I'm getting kinda cold and I like the warmth.
Could I just empty half and add more hot water?
I am sitting in a pool of my own dirt.
Great.
Seven: I'm climbing out while simultaneously pulling the stopper.
Theres so many different ways to say that you or somebody is dying;
Kick the bucket.
Pull the plug.
One foot in the grave.
Bite the dust.
Croak.
Some of them are kinda funny.
Eight: Realizing that I love baths but hate the thoughts that come with the quiet bathroom.
I'm exhausted.
The mental kind of exhausted.
Can I stop now?
Can I just lay down and close my eyes?
My anxiety is overworking me.
Nine: I open my door with a stiff towel and a cold room.
I love the quiet but the quiet kills.
I love my mind yet the way it works is poisonous to me.
Ten: Nothing.
Sitting.
Alone.
In my empty bedroom.

I had coffee at my lips
And good intentions with you

You had passion as fingertips
And a slow withering heart

I'm falling in love with you
Life is setting the punchline

Please be my Disney
My happy ending to my ever after
My Cinderella to my Kingdom
Your voice reminds me of a certain little mermaid
Your hair golden but not so tangled
Your kiss breaks me from the curse of the witch
Your love reminds that I'm more human than beast
I'd go bananaswhenever I hear your name
I swore that I will never lie lest my nose gets longer
I have found my Ohana
You have stolen my being
I feel like flying with happy thoughts when I am with you
I'd give up my three wishes  to be with you
I'd travel through space and time just to meet you
And even as we grow older, when we have wrinkles and white hair
I'd still love you inside this big balloon house happily forever ever after.

I’m not everyone’s
cup of tea
My special blend of
crazy a bit too
bitter to the tongue
for some
But if you can
get beyond
the dark thoughts
and
scarred parts
I could be the
sweetest thing
you
ever tasted