Deep inside the pain can hide
lingers & thrives.
My heart unbinds, my mind unwinds.
Wishing I could go back
make you mine.
Hold you till the end of time.
My life's outta line as my heart unbinds.
Burn my corpse underneath the sunset.
Sail my ashes down the stream.
Release my soul into the wind.
Set me free, set me free
Let my mind finally ease.
Revenge is on my mind.
Running a knife deep through your spine.
Father I hope you know I've lost my mind.
If the needles don't get to you in time.
I'll be taking your life along with mine.
I'm B U R N T
I cannot spell
I cannot read
I cannot think
I cannot breath
I'm free as a pothead should be.
I may be slow
I may be burnt
I may be ******
but I'm a pothead
Do I really love you?
Or am I desperate for attention.
I fear to be alone
Yet I fear too leave you.
I want you to be mine
But at the same time...
when I have you
I forget how to love you,
I crave your affection
I really do.
I just can't love you, like I used too love you.
No matter how long I stare the
mirror seems craked.
But when I walk away
The cracks seem to stay...
On my body they lay.
Spreading scars each and every day.
My mirror is not broken,
but my body's surely cut.
Oh why, oh why do we all have to die?
Accident's and suicide is it really all that better on the other side?
Car crashes and burning buildings, now we are all dead;
Jumping from not so safe buildings and playing with not so toy guns;
Chalk outlines and splatters on the walls.
My oh my, what has happened to us all?
I see my death before I die with my very own eyes.
I'm just so done with watching my death a thousand different times on rewind.
And ever night I scream inside and in these dreams my skin is bleeding and my face is pale.
The water's flowing and sirens are going.
I'm hanging there with rope tied around my throat.
And in these dreams I replay a thousand times in my mind I always end up dying.
In reality I'm only sitting there crying.
A wish to come true after I'm through with high school because a pact was made to save my life,
But now I've been slowly dying.
Oh Mary Jane
how you whisper my name.
**** away my pain
make me feel sane.
Oh Mary Jane..
Whisper my name.
P lease reply...
I don't understand
P lease I want to be your guy
E nding it but why?
R eally I wish I knew why
My brain was clouded with all of the smoke.
I took another **** laughing at the stupid jokes.
Forgetting the promisees that we had once spoke.
I felt as if something was broke...
So I took another ****.
To forget we ever spoke
I loved her but I loved Mary Jane a bit to much she kept me sane
Only if they knew the pain I've gone through. I could be me without all the lies, no more worries not a tear in my eyes.
Ear to ear my smile appears... The unseen stitches that have held together my smile and all my tears. Wishing away all those painful dreams; I slay them.
You may see colors and a world that is free. When I open my eyes everyone is expecting good things from me. I struggle to breath in this cage without a window or door. Black and white, white and black-I feel as if to be under attack. Do I wait for one more year to pass or attack back? I want to be me but then all of a sudden there's something wrong with me? I seem so sad, I look so depressed. I'm okay, I'm not under any stress! Laughing in the back of my head because being me rather than the person I set up in their heads make them all think I've lost my sanity instead!
NoT yet hAVe i GonE mAD!
I have not ripped my memory's to shreds! I don't need more meds. Am I really seeing all these things or is it just in my head? Attack! Attack! Knock down the cage walls white and black! Black and white! Depressed in stress I wear a bullet proof vest; they strap me tight in the jacket without care, lock me up and watch me disappear.
I Wish I may
I wish I might
I wish upon every candle stick tonight.
I wish I was happy,
I wish I was bright,
I wish I was normal,
I wish I could put up this fight.
I wish I was able to have my mother hold me tight.
I wish I may
I wish I might
I wish to much in this fight.
— The End —