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3.0k · Sep 2018
If You Could Read My Mind
Blckstr Sep 2018
If you could read my mind,
You’d see a thousand papers
Filled with broken poetries
And deadbeat proses
Full of woeful verses
With mournful pieces
Of unfinished stories
That are yet to be written
And failed to be spoken;
If you could read my mind,
You’d hear horrible screams
And earsplitting weeps
From shattered dreams,
Kept in a nasty notepad,
Scribbled on a bed
Of bloodstained words,
Ringing in my head.
If you could read my mind,
You’d see the shadows
That lurk within me;
You’d hear the bellows,
Screeching the words
“I’m tired,”
“I’m a failure,”
“I’m ****** –”
I know it sounds ******,
It’s pathetically foolish
And seems too *******.
If you could read my mind,
You’d feel the tears
I had ever failed to cry;
You’d see the people
That make the weak weaker;
You’d see the monsters
That consume my head;
You’d hear the hollers
That failed to be freed;
You’d see the heart
That still bleeds and bleeds.
If you could read my mind,
You’d see the face
I’ve failed to show back then,
The face I’ve faked back then.
If you could read my mind,
You’d see a character
I had ever failed to become
If you could read my mind,
You’d be able to read
A book you never wished
To touch and read,
But sometimes I still wish
Someone could read my mind.
1.7k · Sep 2017
You and I
Blckstr Sep 2017
You are the moon in my deepest night,
I’m just a shadow of your light
You are the color of my sight,
But I’m invisible to your eye.

I’m a droplet of your cloud,
You are the rainbow to my shroud
I’m a thunder to your ear,
You are the music I love to hear.

You are the stars, you’re my galaxy,
In your space, I’m a dead energy
You are the sky, you are my universe,
I’m a cluster of hollow matters.

You’re my “everything,” I’m just nothing,
I’m your fall, but you are my wings
You are the blood of my heart,
But in your heart, I have no part.

You are the rhythm of my word,
I’m just a lost line in your board
I’m a poet in my own lost fight
And you’re the poetry I write.
Y
589 · Feb 2018
Sa Ilalim ng Buwan
Blckstr Feb 2018
Sa Ilalim ng Buwan
Nagsimula ang lahat,
Sa ilalim ng kalawakang
Iyong pinagmamasdan.
Sumasayaw ang kinang
Ng mga tala sa kalangitan,
At tayo’y nasa damuhan
Nagkukwentuhan,
Nag-aasaran,
Naglilibang,
Habang ang amihan
Ay dumadampi sa ‘ting katawan.
Sa Ilalim ng Buwan,
Doon kita laging nasisilayan,
Habang ang ‘yong mga mata’y
Naglalakbay sa kalangitan
At ang aking mga mata’y
Naglalakbay sa kagandahan
Ng iyong mga matang
Kasingganda ng buwan…
Sa Ilalim ng Buwan
Ipinagtapat mo ang ‘yong nararamdaman.
Kamay mo’y aking hinawakan,
Yinakap kita at sinabing
“Huwag kang mag-alala.
Mamahalin ka rin niya.”
Kasabay ng luha sa ‘yong mata,
Pumatak din ang aking luha
Mahal kita, pero mahal mo siya,
At ‘di ko kayang makita
Na nasasaktan ka
Dahil sa kaniya.
Sa Ilalim ng Buwan
Luha mo’y aking pinunasan
Doon kita pinatahan,
Doon kita unang nayakap,
Doon ko unang naramdaman
Ang init ng alaapaap
Sa kamay **** aking nahawakan.
Sa Ilalim ng Buwan
Doon ko naramdaman
Ang ‘yong lungkot at saya,
Ngunit ‘di mo nadama
Ang aking pagsinta.
Sa Ilalim ng Buwan
Doon kita nakitang lumigaya
Sa saliw ng musika,
Sa kislap ng mga tala.
Doon ko nakita
Ang pinakamakinang
Na sinag ng ‘yong mata
At ang pinakamalawak
Na ngiti sa ‘yong mukha,
Habang hawak mo ang kaniyang kamay
Sa liwanag na alay
Ng romantikong buwan.
Sa ilalim ng Buwan
Doon ko napagmasdan
Kung pa’no mo siya halikan,
Kung pa’no ka magmahal,
Habang ako ay nasasaktan,
Umiiyak, at nawawalan
Ng pag-asang
Akin ding mararamdaman
Ang ‘yong pagmamahal.
Sa ilalim ng maliwanag na buwan,
Dumilim ang aking buhay.
Sa ilalim ng maliwanag na buwan,
Luha ko ang naging ulan.
Sa ilalim ng buwan,
Nag-abang ako ng bulalakaw
Upang humiling,
Hindi para ika’y maagaw
Mula sa kanyang piling,
Kundi para hilingin
Na ika’y kaniyang mahalin
Kagaya ng pagmamahal
Na aking nararamdaman
At itinago sa ilalim ng buwan…
Sa ilalim ng buwan
Tiniis ko ang sakit,
Ang bawat hinagpis.
Sa ilalim ng buwan
Nagsimula ang lahat.
Sabay nating pinagmasdan
Ang tanglaw ng kalangitan.
At sa ilalim ng buwan,
Tatapusin ko na ang lahat
Ng sakit na aking nararamdaman,
Pagmamasdan ang bituin at buwan,
Ang madilim na kalangitan,
Hanggang sa dumating
Ngayong gabi ang bulalakaw
Upang humiling
Na sana’y dumating para sa ‘kin
Ang pagsibol ng bagong araw.
#NagpapakamakataXD
487 · Oct 2018
Kill Me
Blckstr Oct 2018
Stop the beating of my heart.
End my life and let everything
Be forgotten like a fossil in an ocean.
Cease me from living.
Bar me from breathing.

**** me!
****** a thousand nails into my chest,
Slit my rasping throat, cut my trembling wrist
And let my blood drip on the floor
Until it forms a sea, enough
For my horrible childhood reminiscences
To drown and walk off the shore,
Where I am the fragments of sand,
Trying to create a stone
Just to be whole, firm, and strong.

**** me!
Pour a hundred-gallon of water into my mouth
And let my pain evade and flow out
Of my suffocated body.
Maybe then I can finally say
"I'm fine"
Without trying to extend
My hand above water
Or trying to breathe bit by bit
While my lungs load a river.

**** me!
Pull my eyes out, so I won't feel my tears anymore.
Slice my ears, so I won't hear myself again yowling in mourn.
Break my legs, so I can finally stop myself
From jumping on a deep water like a ****** whelp.
Hook my heart out of my chest.
Bludgeon my head to death.
Maybe then, I won't feel for once
Like I'm a canary underneath
The undertow of an ocean,
Wings ripped off and flight unfound.

**** me
Because I can hardly breathe.
I'm drowning in the thought of being sad
While losing the reason to feel so.
Every day, anxiety drags me to my bed,
But insomnia has this silly prank of hammering my head.
I try to ask anyone for help,
But whenever I see people in my surroundings
All I feel is like eternally drowning.
They make me feel like a terrestrial flower,
Trying to breathe underwater.

Every night, I write poems,
Not to **** boredom
But to **** something that kills me -
Ceaselessly.
Every letter I write on a paper
Feels like the water
Inside an aquarium where
I keep on suffering
And drowning forever.

I'm in the abyssal zone,
Too deep that even light can't *******.
Darkness engulfs me,
And light easily burns me
Take me from this depth.
Take me from this kind of death.
This depth makes me lose my breath.

**** me
Because living already feels like dying.
**** me
Not becase I'm tired of living,
But because I'm tired of dying!
**** me
Because it's suffocating.
It's asphyxiating me.
This darkness makes me
Hardly see
Myself.
It feels like I'm dying forever,
And I don't want to die anymore,
I'm drowning.
I can never reach the shore.
Save me!
427 · Oct 2017
Transparent Heart
Blckstr Oct 2017
My love is conspicuous – visible
Yours is so fanciful and so subtle
Like a sun, you are shining so bright
Like a cloud, I am raining with plight.

You’re supposed to be my light
And I’m supposed to be your might,
But darkness is our clear sky
And you can’t see me nigh.

We’re supposed to be the lullaby
At sweet night as we vie
But your voice bid a farewell
And your love slept with a knell.

I’m supposed to be a mellow bell
And you’re supposed to be my well
But your love just sank without my sound
And just let me fall underground.

Visible pain can now be found
Subtle rest, with me, is bound
You’re opaque, my light can’t pass through
You’re obscure, and I’m a useless hue.

I can see your blue, you can’t see my blue
I’m in falling pain but you don’t have to rue
Your heart is bubbly with a sparkle
My Heart is Transparent like a popped bubble.
T
412 · Sep 2017
ALAALA
Blckstr Sep 2017
Naaalala ko pa kung paano nagsimula ang ating tula...
Naaalala ko pa ang mga panahong pinapangarap lang kita.
Naaalala ko pa kung paano nagsimula ang ating pagkakaibigan na naging pag-iibigan.
Klaradong-klarado pa sa aking isipan kung paano tayo nagsimula.
Ngunit ngayon, hindi ko na alam kung paano ulit ako magsisimula at mag-uumpisa,
Ngayong hindi ko pa makalimutan ang bawat alaala
Na itinanim mo sa aking puso't isipan.

Alaala na lang ang lahat!

Oo, alaala na lang ang lahat!
Hindi ko na pwede pang ibalik pa ang bawat detalye ng ating pagmamahalan.
Hindi na natin pwede pang ayusin ang lamat ng nakaraan.
Hindi na pwedeng maging TAYO pang muli.
Sapagkat alaala na lang ang lahat.

Alaala na lang!

Pero malinaw pa sa'king isipan ang mga senaryo't pangyayaring ibinaon na ng panahon...
Ang bawat salitang binitawan mo sa aking bawat kahapon,
Ang bawat pangakong tinangay na ng bawat alon,
Ang bawat paglalakbay nating hindi mo na matunton,
Ang bawat pagdampi ng aking mga labi sa iyong noo,
Ang bawat yakap **** nagpapabagal sa'king bawat segundo.
Naaalala ko pa ang bawat alaalang nilikha ng ating mga puso.
At sa bawat araw, oras, at minuto
Na sumasagi sa aking isipan ang ginawa nating musika at ritmo,
Pumapatak ang aking mga luhang hindi nagsasawa sa pagtulo,
Sapagkat hanggang ngayon, ikaw pa rin aking pinipintuho.

Mahal, alaala na lang ang lahat!

Ngunit bakit gano'n pa rin kasakit?
Bakit sa puso ko'y pangalan mo pa rin ang nakaukit?
Bakit lasap na lasap ko pa rin ang tamis ng iyong halik,
Ang init ng pagmamahalang kailan ma'y hindi na pwedeng ibalik?
Bakit ikaw pa rin ang laman ng aking isipan?
Kung pwede ko lang gawin, kung kaya ko lang kalimutan,
Siguro'y matagal ko na ring nagawang ibaon ang bawat lumipas,
Katulad ng iyong pagmamahal na bigla na lang kumupas.
Sana'y kaya kong burahin ang bawat nagdaan,
Sana'y kaya kong pigilan ang aking nararamdaman,
Sana'y panaginip na lang ang lahat ng alaalang iyong iniwan.
Sana panaginip na lang...
Ngunit kahit anong gawin ko, hindi ko mababagong ito ay ang reyalidad.
Isa kang panaginip, isang alaala.
Isa kang bangungot sa matamis kong nakaraan.
Isa kang trahedyang kayhirap pigilin.
Isa kang alaalang kayhirap limutin. Sana'y kaya kong baguhin ang aking memorya
Upang mawala ang sakit na aking nadarama.
Sana'y kaya kong pahiran ang aking mga luha
At ilibing sa'yong puso ang aking pagsinta,
Dahil hindi ko na kayang mabuhay pa sa'yong alaala...

Alaalang pinapatay ang aking naghihingalong puso,
Alaalang hindi ko alam kung saan patungo,
Alaalang nagpapagunaw sa aking mundo.
Sa oras na 'to malungkot kong masasabing

"Alaala na lang kita"

Ngunit umaasa akong balang araw, mabibigkas ko nang may ngiti sa aking labi at maihahampas ko sa iyong mukha, puso, mata, at tainga ang mga salitang

"Alaala na lang kita!"
Balintataw
394 · Sep 2017
Broken Temple
Blckstr Sep 2017
I can see the people kneeling,
Learned prayers they are uttering
I can hear the hymns, the sacred songs
The shattered faith, the faith so wrong.

They kneel and close their very eyes
But cannot feel the warmth from highs,
Instead they see the darkest depth,
They choose to live the life of death.

They cannot see the elated hearts
But they can see the darkened marts
They cannot feel the prize of love
They choose to find the price of love.

I wander how they can breathe
In the air with a smile so blithe
Although it’s filled with lies,
Anger, envy, greed, havoc and cries.

I can see their blatant eyes
With a sight that vaguely flies
While the music of their psalm
Can’t hear the soul of the Father’s lamb.

The sound of their golden trumpets
Flies into the high firmaments
But the harmony turns into frets
The harmony turns into fragments.

They sing the praise of holiness
But their fight is an impious mess
The heads kiss the floor of faith
But their minds are darkness’ mate.

They listen to the words of enlightenment
But they verbally harm the other men
The guns… the bullets roam in the air
The infectious blood for them is fair.

They lost their lives, their hallowed lives
They release their hearts and hold their knives
They enter the abode of sacred light
But their hearts still reflect the shady night.

They broke their faith in their own temple
And forgot the sound of the righteous treble
They are strangers in their own realm
And I’m sorry, ‘cause I’m one of them.
285 · Sep 2017
Homonyms of Hearts
Blckstr Sep 2017
Tell me you won’t ever leave
And I will be dying to live,
Tell me you will stay right here
And my heartbeat you can hear.

Tell me you still love this site
And I will brighten my sight,
Tell me you can feel my beat;
I’ll revive every dead bit.

Tell me you still love me too;
I’ll be counting four, three, two;
The last one will be for you
If you still love our love’s hue.

Please tell me that our own hearts
Are still having the same arts.
Please tell me that our own beats
Still sound for the same heartbeats.
285 · Sep 2017
Can You Hear My Love?
Blckstr Sep 2017
Can you hear the voice
Of the rustling wind
That plays with the toys
Of the dark night’s grin?

Can you hear the hoarse
Of the floating wave
At the cosmic shores
At the broken grave?

Can you hear the cry,
Sobbing, and weeping,
The yelling of sigh,
The tears of mourning?

Can you hear the sound
Of the twilight’s light
And the darkened mound
Of the howling blight?

Can you hear the tune,
The musical blues,
The tone’s plenilune
For the fading hues?

Can you hear my beat,
My one dead heartbeat?
Can you hear my love?
I can’t hear your love.
You can't. You don't. You're deaf.
I can. I do. Yet... I'm deaf.
281 · Jul 2018
Love is Not a Poem
Blckstr Jul 2018
Love is not a piece of writing
that comes from a heart;
It is not a flowerful verse;
It is a flowerless vase
that holds no decoration,
no rhythmical motion,
no verbose potion;
Love is not a poem.
It does not bear a stanza
full of melodic metaphors
that attract the cores
of one’s eyes and ears,
because love has no rhymes
that make two heartbeats
sound as one.
It is an offbeat
kind of sound
like two metals
clanking with a hard,
earsplitting clang.
Love is not a poem.
It bears no hyperbolic
kind of feelings.
It is a catastrophic
kind of rain.
It bears no onomatopoeia
like a thump-thump–
beat of a heart.
It is just a thunder
with a destructive art.
Love is a storm.
Love is not a poem.
It has no alliteration
in a tiny tinkling tone.
It is not a poetic notion
in a simile or an oxymoron.
It is not a set of written words
which provide a colorful world.
Love is not a poem.
.
.
These were the things
I used to say before…
But then, you happened…
.
.
Love became a poem.
It turned into a free verse –
no patterned rhyme
no regular rhythm.
It just flowed
through a beautiful heartbeat
with an ineffable heartbeat.
Love turned to be the skeleton
of my poetry.
Love became the pedestal
of my words,
creating a series
of lines and stanzas
with touch
of fragrant language.
Love became a poem
because my poetry
turned to be you…
You are
my poem –
my love…
Love
is
a
Poem.
Blckstr Sep 2017
Ako ang bagong mamamayang
Magtatangkang makialam,
Makisabayan sa mayayamang
Sa pamumuno’y walang alam
Ang gagawa ng hakbang
Upang mabawi ang kabang
Ibinulsa ng mga mangmang,
Ipinakian sa bitukang
Ganid at halang.
“Ako ang Susunod na Presidente!”
Tatakbo rito sa landas
Na nawalan ng batas
Kung saan ang “patas”
Na salita ay butas.
At sa aking pagmasid
Sa kabataang sumisisid
Sa dagat ng hapis,
Sa ilog ng paglilitis,
Unti-unting luluha
Ang ulap sa’king mata
Habang ang mga hunghang
Ay bulag na sa kasamaan
At ang tanging kasiyahan
Ng ligaw na lipunan
Ay ang pagpapaulan
Ng bala sa karimlan.
Ang bawat baril,
Ang bawat buhay na kinitil
Ay katumbas ng kaunlaran
At bayad sa kapayapaan.
“Ako ang Susunod na Presidente”
Ako ang susunod na pinunong
Gagawa ng bagong talukbong
Na magsisilbing bubong
Sa bawat hapong pusong
Naghahanap ng katarungan
Sa loob ng kulungan –
Sa rehas ng kasinungalingan.
Ako ang Susunod na Presidenteng
Magsisilid ng liham sa sobreng
Iaabot sa langit
Upang ang bawat pait,
Ang bawat pighati
Sa lupa’y magapi.
“Ako ang Susunod na Presidente”
Ako ang susunod na pangulo
Na gagawa ng tuwid na landas,
Ang landas na tapat at totoo
Para sa bawat isipang kupas.
“Ako ang Susunod na Presidente”
Ang gagawa ng solusyon
Sa dilim ng ilusyon.
At sa aking pagbaba
Mula sa’king templong payapa,
Susulpot ang mga bagong buwaya,
At ang bawat alaala
Ng aking pag-unlad,
Ng Ating Pag-unlad
Ay lilimutan na lamang
Ng bawat kasalukyan.
Sa aking pagpapahinga,
Babalik ang bawat bala
Na nakakalat sa daan.
Ang kabataan,
Ang matatanda,
Ang buong lipunan
Ay muling magbubulag-bulagan.
Sa aking pag-alis
Mula sa pamumuno,
Mapagmamasdan ang kwitis
Ng mga bagong pinuno.
At sa kanilang pagtayo
Sa kanilang entablado,
Maririnig ko ang bawat salita
Na nakasulat dito sa pahina
Kasabay ng mga pangako
Ng sinungaling na puso.
“Ako ang Susunod na Presidente”
Ang bagong mamamayang
Iiyak para sa bayan,
Habang ang lipunan
Ay bulag sa’king salitaan,
Magududa sa’king tinta,
Magpaparatang ng kasalanang
Hindi ko ginawa
At kailanma’y ‘di maniniwala
Sa katapatan ng aking Salita.
259 · Jan 2018
Little Blue Eyes
Blckstr Jan 2018
Little Blue Eyes
On a wall of reflection
Such spheres of perfection
Create colorful fiction.

Little Blue Eyes
You give sight to my life
You bewitch me with your light
And, with dark, create strife.

Little Blue Eyes
By your hue, I am enticed
Such iris reflects skies
Wherein sea of clearness lies.

Little Blue Eyes
Portray sparkling stars
Create rainbow in the night
You open the morning bars.

Little Blue Eyes
Stay with me all the time
Please keep the evening rhyme
And the morning’s shine.

Little Blue Eyes
Don’t go, don’t ever leave me,
For I’ll be lonely when you flee
And my world will be empty.

Little Blue Eyes
Sing with me; dance with me
I’ll make you smile like a baby
Just don’t leave me in this reality.

Little Blue Eyes
Don’t take away my light
Stay always by my side
‘Cause you’re my only sight.

Little Blue Eyes
Now, you’re making me cry
You’re making my world dry
You’re giving me lonely sigh.

Little by little, I’m losing my way
Little by little, you’re fading away
And little by little, I’m losing my sight
‘Cause you’re blinking away, Little Blue Eyes.
237 · Oct 2017
Broken Ring
Blckstr Oct 2017
Have you forgotten our love back then?
Have you forgotten that my ring finger’s for you?
But now that you’re just my heart’s pain,
This ring finger has no already use.

I’m lost in the mark of my questions
I’m lost in the bivouac of solitude
As lost as the broken heart of mine
Lost like a worthless rambling feud.

The intertwining love of past
Had traveled in the moon of dusk
The beat which states a love to last
Now gives an infinite blurred mask.

Do you remember how you held my hand?
Do you remember our passionate kisses?
Do you remember our love story
That was carved in the ring of bliss?

We were flying with a halo of love
We were living in the sphere of affection
We were once a streak of gold
In a purest heart of passion.

We were once a perfect light
From a firm diamond of love
But now I can’t see a flash of heart
In my own sight’s crystal dove.

My world has stopped revolving
Since I lost my source of drive
My heart has stopped beating
I can’t tell myself I’m still alive.

Your promise, our promises,
Your vow, our vow of love,
Everything about us was gone
So I just let our Broken Ring shine above.
236 · Oct 2017
Ctrl+Z
Blckstr Oct 2017
I wish I could go back in time,
Delete our broken rhymes,
And change the fatal fate of mine.

I wish I could nullify
The havoc in my mind
And my heart’s heavy sigh.

I wish I could erase
The time for our break-up
And our love’s sudden stop.

I wish I could change
Everything we’ve done
So that your love might not have gone.

I want to undo the parts
We’ve input to our hearts
So we could make a new art.

I want to redo the things
That I felt when my wings
Were still on our promised rings.

I want to Undo the bitter ending,
And redo our sweet beginning;
I want you to be mine again.

I can’t undo the break
I can’t escape my fate
It’s already too late…

Well, I guess it’s time
For me to accept
that…


"Just because we loved each other
Doesn’t mean we’re meant to be."





*We can’t make the wrong right.
We can’t undo the past light.
C
234 · Sep 2017
Her Lullaby: My Lullaby
Blckstr Sep 2017
She sang a lullaby
To help me sleep at night,
She sang a lullaby
To help me sleep so tight.

She played her dateless piano
With the rhythm in her hands
She played the tone of high and low,
I played with vague demands.

She sang a vivacious song
With a greatly tired voice,
She gave me beat when I felt alone
But I just gave her an eerie noise.

She sang a lullaby
And danced with my fearful night,
I sang a destructive sigh
And took away her light.

She sang a lullaby
But I just ignored her light,
She gave me light at home,
Yet I gave her the darkest sight.

She sang a lullaby
‘til the demise of her sound,
She sang with my cries
On this devouring ground.

She sang a lullaby
‘til her throat gave up
She kept on singing with might
But now I’ve seen her stop.

She has stopped the lullaby,
For her life is now gone;
And now I’ve seen her light,
But it’s fading with my dreadful town.

She’s now lying on the ground
And I can’t do anything but cry
I lost her melodious sound,
So I just sing her a lullaby.

She sang a lullaby
To help me sleep at night
Now, I sing her lullaby
To wake her up this night.
233 · Sep 2017
HAHAYAAN
Blckstr Sep 2017
Mahal kita, at saksi ang kalangitan sa aking nadarama
Mahal kita, kaya't 'di ko hahayaang pumatak ang iyong luha
Hindi ko hahayaang masaktan ka nang lubusan
Hindi ko hahayaang ikaw ay mahirapan
Hangad ko'y hindi ang aking kasiyahan
Hangad ko'y walang iba kundi ang 'yong kaligayahan
Ang ngiti sayong mukhang nakaaakit pagmasdan
Ang ngiti ng mga labi **** kaysarap halikan
Nais kong matupad ang iyong bawat kahilingan,
Ang iyong mga pangarap, ang iyong kasaganaan
Mahal kita, kaya't di ko hahayaang malugmok ka sa kalungkutan
Hindi ko hahayaang manakaw ang iyong kasiyahan
Hindi ko hahayaang ikaw ay hadlangan pa
Kaya mula ngayon, papakawalan na kita
Hahayaan kong maranasan mo ang saya
Hahayaan kong ikaw ay bumitaw na
Sa pagkakakapit sa pag-ibig nating dalawa
Dahil 'di ko hahayaaang ikaw ay masaktan pa.
Hahayaan na kitang humanap ng iba
At hahayaan ko ang sarili kong hanapin ang pag-asa.
Hahayaan na kitang talikuran ang ating kahapon
At hahayaan ko ang sarili kong danasin ang pighati ng panahon.
Hahayaan na kitang maranasan ang kalayaan
At hahayaan ko na lang na makulong ako sa kalungkutan.
Hahayaan na kitang magmahal ng iba
At hahayaan ko ang sarili kong mahalin kang mag-isa.
Dahil alam kong nagsawa ka na
Alam kong ang pag-ibig mo'y wala na
Alam kong wala na tayong pag-asa
At alam kong kailanma'y hindi ka na babalik pa
Kaya, hahayaan na kitang sumaya sa piling ng iba
At hahayaan ko na lang ang sarili kong lumuha mag-isa.
HAHA... Lol
212 · Oct 2017
Rest and Peace
Blckstr Oct 2017
I’m at rest but not in peace,
My heart stopped beating
For every broken piece
But my mind is still trembling.

I’m at rest but not in peace,
My heart is already dead
My soul is lost in torment’s kiss
Your memory’s still in my head.

I’m at rest but in peace,
My heart cannot even move
My heart rests in deceased lease
But my mind is in chaotic groove.

I’m at rest but not in peace,
For you’re still stuck in my head
My heart feels numb and distressed
But I can’t forget the words you’ve said.

My heart’s at rest, my mind is not
I’m at rest but not in peace
I want to escape this confusing knot
I want to rest and live with peace.
R
211 · Sep 2017
Fallen Sword
Blckstr Sep 2017
I’ve had fought for too long
But I’m not that too strong
I’ve conquered too much pain
But I couldn’t clean our stain.

I’ve been a dumb warrior
But I couldn’t be a victor
In this game we called “love”
In this tragic game we have.

I still want to fight for you
But you’ve given up with blue
I am still willing to fight
But my heart lost its might.

Tears are running down my shield
Blood is flooding in my field
My armor’s breaking and collapsing
As my heart is slowly shattering.

I can feel the defeat inside me
I’m devastating physically,
Mentally and emotionally,
Just because of your memory.

The spears and arrows of yours
Are passing through my heart’s doors
Maybe this is the last time
I should love your very kingdom.

I’m tired, I’m swiftly dying,
I’m failing, I’m greatly falling,
If standing up will result to nothing,
I’ll just let myself lose in fighting.

Maybe it’s time for me to stop
I won’t ever pick my sword up
Since my hand is already tired
And our love runs out of fire.

There’s no use to hold my sword
When I’ll just bleed in this tragic cord
The sharpness of our love
Might just **** a breaking dove.

Your sword stabs my heart
And my sword’s breaking apart
My sword is falling with a failed art
Like my heart in this awful chart.

I’m giving up, I’ll stop this fight
I’ll set you free from this game of plight
Because my one love’s Fallen Sword
Can never lift up our broken words.
210 · Sep 2017
I'm Not Going to Love Again
Blckstr Sep 2017
My heart broke into pieces because of you
My life lost its light when I found your hue
After falling into throbbing love’s pain
I’ve promised that I’m not going to love again

Love has always been so hard to me
Life has always been lived painfully,
My heart has been tired of loving,
That’s why I’m going to stop this feeling.

It feels hard to love an inconsistent one,
It feels so hard to still hold on like a man
With a weakening heart and a frozen soul,
Thus, I tell myself “Loving is not my role.”

I’m Not Going to Love Again –
These are the words I carved in my brain,
But every time I see you at any queue
I can’t help myself loving you.

It feels so hard to be fallen for you,
But it’s much harder to still fall for you
Knowing the fact that you won’t be mine again
And loving me can’t be reached by your ken.

I’m Not Going to Love Again –
The greatest lie in my memories’ glen
Because no matter how I try to stop my heart,
I’m still falling in love with your art.

I’m Not Going to Love Again –
Indeed, I’ve not fallen for anyone or a friend
But I can’t deny that my own heart
Repeatedly loves your painful chart.

I hope someday, I can stop myself
From loving and hurting in my own shelf
I hope someday I won’t ever lie when saying
“I’m Not Going to Love Again.”
192 · Sep 2017
He is Just a Poet
Blckstr Sep 2017
He is just a poet,
Lost in the world of words
He can’t traverse the path
Of the harmonious chords.

He is just a poet,
Lost in the beat of life
He can’t turn the stanza
Into a lively sigh.

He is just a poet
In his own wordless world
He can’t make his story
Finally unfurled

He is just a poet,
Alone in his own lines
He can’t find the right rhyme
For the words with lost signs.

He is just a poet,
Drowned in his own tears
Bleeding is his tired hand
But still writes with his fears.

He is just a poet
With mournful imagery
He makes a shade of grey
In his dead poetry.

He is just a poet
With a devastated pen
He holds a flimsy paper
That serves as a pain’s den.

Indeed, he is a POET
But he can’t make a poem
That reflects his own smile
And a colorful dome.
192 · Sep 2017
Love Myself
Blckstr Sep 2017
I was so busy taking care of you,
I forgot to care about myself
I tried my best for you to stay,
But I was still left alone in the shelf.

I was thinking ‘bout your happiness,
While myself suffered from loneliness
I’ve always tried to make you smile,
While I couldn’t validate mine.

I wiped your tears and ceased your pain,
While my eyes were drowning on rain
I held your hand as tightly as I could,
But you still let go for your own good.

You uttered “I love you” without love
You made a promise without a heart
You stabbed the fragile heart I have
I was already broken from the start.

I was so busy fixing your heart,
While mine was already breaking apart
I was so busy loving you
I forgot to Love Myself anew.
192 · Oct 2017
My Beautiful Sun
Blckstr Oct 2017
You were the sun who gave shine to my life
You were the light in my darkest season
You gave me reason to widely smile
Just like a brilliant celestial icon.

Indeed, you were the sun to my eye
Your beautiful rays had infected my sight
You heated up my frozen life
But such heat had burnt my tranquil site.

You’re supposed to lighten my heavy sigh
But you just always leave me when I cry
You’re not there when my saddened rain falls
You’re not by my side when my heart calls.

You’re just always present at a clear day
And you always forget to extend your ray
When teardrops fall from a starry cloud
When the winds carry a knell so loud.

Your absence is always present
When my heart is in a gambling state
The beautiful cite you had once sent
Now torments my melancholic fate.

I know, your presence is just for show
Thus, I don’t want to feel you anymore
The flame of my heart, I want to blow
I want to lock myself up in a dead core.

I’ll blind my eyes, I’ll throw my sight
Just to be oblivious of your shining light
I’ll end my very life this very time
‘Cause I’m giving up on your lustrous chime.

I cannot take the pain any longer
Next time that you will rise, my beautiful sun,
I’ll bar my light and set a farewell
Goodbye, I’ll end my day with a woeful dun.
M
182 · Sep 2017
It's Hard To Say Goodbye
Blckstr Sep 2017
Falling in love is a an easy process
Breaking a heart is much easier
Saying “I love you” may be hard to do
But bidding a farewell is much harder.

It’s far easier to say “I’m fine”
Than to cry in front of your love
It’s much easier to laugh and smile
Than to explain the reason why you’re sad.

It’s not easy to hide the truth,
It’s not easy to take the pain inside,
It’s not easy to feel like you’ll lose,
It’s not easy to take a dreadful ride.

No one likes to be hurt repeatedly
No one likes to feel always lonely
No one likes be left alone awfully
No one likes to say goodbye painfully.

I know you’ll be happy when you’re not mine
I know you want to be free from my heart
I’m not the one who can give you lifeline
So, I’ll bid farewell, though it breaks me apart.

Farewell to you my love, and please be safe
I’ll let you free while I’m crying inside
I’ll let you leave me with a smile
Even if It’s Hard to Say Goodbye.
181 · Feb 2018
ALAALA II
Blckstr Feb 2018
Ipaalala mo sa ‘kin kung paano kita minahal,
At ipapaalala ko sa ‘yo kung paano mo ‘ko sinaktan.
Ipaalala mo sa ‘kin kung paano tayo nagsimula
At ipapaalala ko sa ‘yo kung pa’no mo ‘to tinapos na lang bigla.
Ipaalala mo sa akin kung paano kita pinasaya,
At ipapaalala ko sa ‘yo kung paano mo ‘ko pinaluha.
Ipaalala mo sa ‘kin kung paano ko pinakitang MAHAL KITA,
At ipapaalala ko sa ‘yo kung paano mo sinabing AYAW MO NA.
Mahal, naaalala mo pa ba ang lahat?
Sabihin mo sa ‘king limot mo na ang ating nakaraan,
At sasabihin ko sa ‘yong nasasaktan
Pa rin ako sa kasalukuyan.
Ipapaalala ko sa ‘yo kung pa’no ako kumapit
Sa ating relasyon,
At alalahanin mo kung pa’no ka bumitiw
Sa paglipas ng panahon.
Ipapaalala ko sa ‘yo ang ating mga pangako,
At alalahanin mo kung paano mo pinako ang mga ito.
Ipapaalala ko sa’yo kung paano ako lumaban
At alalahanin mo kung paano ka sumuko sa pagmamahal.
Ipapaalala ko sa ‘yo ang pagtanong kong
“Mahal mo pa ba ako?
At alalahanin mo ang sinagot ****
“Hindi ko alam, pero ayaw ko na.”
Mahal, bakit gano’n na lang kadali para sa ‘yo
Na limutin ang ating pinagsamahan
Mahal, kung babalik ka at sasabihing
Mahal mo pa ako,
Sasabihin ko sayong
“Mahal kita, pero ayaw ko na.”
Alalahanin mo ang iyong paglayo
At ipapaalala ko sa ‘yo ang sakit na naramdaman ko
Alalahanin mo kung pa’no mo kinalimutan
ang nakaraan
At sasabihin ko sa ‘yo kung pa’no ako pinapapatay
Ng kasalukuyan.
Alalahanin mo ang bawat salitang iyong binitiwan
At sasabihin ko sa ‘yong gusto ko nang bitawan ang nakaraan!
Hahahaassfghjkl
178 · Oct 2017
I'm a Murderer
Blckstr Oct 2017
With this dagger in my hand,
I killed an innocent man.
I took away the life, the world, and everything
From this one lonely being.
Because I’m a malefactor,
A villain, an evil, an exterminator,
I made him suffer from a delicate pain,
A suffering worse than death so plain.
Well, indeed, I’m an evil without pity
But I just helped him to escape the reality.
I healed his pain with this one great pain.
But of course he should have been slain.
A malicious laugh roamed inside this room,
While I was slicing his beautiful ears,
I never did want him to dolefully hear
The tragic music in his surroundings,
So I just annihilated his sense of hearing.
I’m a very sympathetic evil.
I always think about my victim.
The world is not a world anymore,
The beautiful scenes from the folklores,
The comely vision of reality
That were once in this home of humanity
Were now gone, like my benevolent heart.
So, for this man to see a wonderful art,
For him not to see the falling earth,
I took away the eyes he has been holding since birth.
I’m a killer, a compassionate killer
I’m a destroyer, a munificent destroyer,
I was slaying an entity, but I couldn’t hear a complain.
Maybe this man was relishing my artistic way of killing.
I couldn’t hear him cry, no sounds, no voice,
But the heart still beat with a noise.
So, I just seized the moment of bliss,
With my hand, I held a beautiful killing piece,
A sharp artistic instrument of death,
And with this piece, I made an aesthetic set,
Canvas was his body, and this piece was my brush.
Blood was my paint; I didn’t need to rush.
I passionately made a set of lines
All over his body of perfect strokes and styles.
And as finale of my art, I aimed for his heart,
It was my board and dagger was my dart.
My eyes sparked for my masterpiece,
A masterpiece like a sweet divine kiss.
I’m a murderer. Indeed, I’m a murderer!
But as I’ve heard the last beat of my victim,
I also heard an ending beat of my heart’s hymn.
I could hear nothing, and I could see darkness.
The dagger I used now tells me I’m a mess.
I’m a murderer, I’m a victim of myself.
This is my art – silence in my shelf.
172 · Sep 2017
Cosmic Demise
Blckstr Sep 2017
I sat upon the ground
Which holds the amber grains
And looked upon the sky
With crystal porcelains.

The breeze of cold zephyr
Roaming around this night
Has frozen as my heart
Has lost in my star-light.

I can’t let go of the pain
I’ve had inside my heart
I can’t forget the terror
Of my memories’ art.

The shadow of my love
Is still a darkened light
And I can’t find the star
That will brighten my sight.

Sometimes, I want my heart
To explode like a star,
Sometimes, I want to end
My life with a light bar.

Sometimes, I want to go
To the vast cosmic space
I know I won’t survive
In this murky place.

Sometimes, I want to fly
Higher than the clouds
And then just be fallen
Upon the firing crowds.

I know I cannot do
Everything that I want
But when I lose my life,
I may reach my one wished land.

Drops of tears had fallen
When a meteor faded in
I came back to reality
Where reality can’t be seen.

I placed my solemn hand
On my fast beating heart
And held a rusty dagger
To see the new start.

In a blink of mournful eye,
Drops of red had fallen
My heart beat slowly
As black light caved in.

I lay upon the ground
Which holds the amber grains
And looked upon the sky
As my heart forgot the rains.
171 · Sep 2017
Bring Me Back to Hell
Blckstr Sep 2017
Bring me back to fiery,
Burning rocks of glee
And hold my very hand
In a comely filthy land.

Bring me back to dark,
Solaced lascivious park
And give me a devilish
Kiss that I’ll relish.

Bring me back to greedy
Home of sensuality
Where touching each other’s body
Is the only food of psyche.

Bring me back to you
Bring me back to dim hue
Bring me back to forbidden well
Please, Bring Me Back to ****.
B
169 · Sep 2017
Heedless Love
Blckstr Sep 2017
Your heart was drug of mine
My heart, for you, was a wine
We were so drunk and high
We were enthralled by the sky.

Your blood ran through my veins
My love was your heart’s grains
But our love produced a rain
Of very addictive pain.

The smoke of our limerence
Went down the grey fence,
While the light of our wine
Devoured the dark mine.

Our hearts beat so fast
With a tranquilizing rust
We thought that love was love
But now it’s the wound we have.

We let the pain of pleasure
Flow with a risky pressure
Knowing that our hands
Did not fit to create a bond.

We smiled, laughed, and rejoiced
But now we burn as a choice
We were lifting each other up
But our souls fell down without stop.

We drank too much poison
We thought it was love potion
You were numb; I was careless
We were senseless; we were restless.

We fell in love, we fell apart
We’re now missing our broken parts
Because we were thoughtless
Of this sole Love so Heedless.
H
167 · Apr 2018
Sorry, I Can't Wait For You
Blckstr Apr 2018
Sorry, because I’m giving up.
Sorry, for I’ll already stop.
I know, we’ve been waiting
For too long.
But now, you better start finding
For new man.
It’s not because I’m tired of this love,
But because love’s already tired of me.
It’s not because I’ve found a new love,
But because my own love can’t find me.
Maybe it’s because of the people around me,
Or maybe because of the misery inside me.
I know you’ve been waiting
For our future wedding.
But, sorry I can never wait,
So we have to separate.
Sorry, I’ve tried to wait for you,
But my mind is invaded by tragic hue
Sorry, because I’ll already stop.
Sorry, because I’m giving up…
I’m giving up –
I’m not giving up on this love,
But I’m giving up on my life.
So, sorry, I can’t wait for you,
For I will end my life tonight
166 · Sep 2017
Syzygy of Hearts
Blckstr Sep 2017
Like a moon and a sun at darkened space,
We were shining with great luminescence,
A sweet epoch for our aligned solace
Had happened with a cosmic limerence.

It was a transited love for the two of us,
An ineffable love that’s promised to last
Like a comely stars’ constellated class,
Attached with heaven’s genuine blast.

Gravity of the doughty firmament
Opposed our shining lights’ keen blend,
But our worlds defied the revolving cent
Of the nature’s primordial trend.

It was an iridescent light of love
We created when our own spheres met
Like a supernova in a kiss of dove…
But our times are not linked kismet.

Like a sun and a moon, we just passed by
Our transited hearts were just ephemeral
We’ve met in just a rise of moonlight
But never did stay at zenith’s portal.

Like a sun and a moon, we are not destined
To be with each other at infinite line,
Our converged worlds are celestial fiend
Our promised world is a nefarious sign.

Now that the light of our serendipity
Is totally faded and lost in the space,
My time stopped in the obscurity,
My orbit was defenestrated beyond trace

The plenilune of our broken parts
Forever will be wry at galactic den,
For the Syzygy of our cosmic Hearts
Is now completely forgotten.
S
162 · Oct 2017
...
Blckstr Oct 2017
...
Loving you
is my
own sweetest
way of
killing myself.
10 words Lol~
Blckstr Feb 2018
Nakangiti ang kaniyang mukha,
Hanggang langit ang tuwa,
Tumitingkad ang mga mata,
Na parang kumikinang na tala –
Kumikislap, walang pagkurap,
At lumilipad-lipad sa alapaap…
‘Yan ang nakikita,
‘Yan ang nakapinta
Sa kaniyang larawan…
Sa larawan lamang
Makulay ang kaniyang mundo;
Walang dilim; hindi malabo;
Walang problema; walang pagguho;
Walang sakit at hapdi sa puso…
Dahil dinadaya
Ng mapaglarong tinta
Na naglalaro sa mga mata,
Nilalaro ng kaniyang mukha…
Sa larawang buhay na buhay
Habang ang kaniyang sariling buhay
Ay namamatay, nahihimlay
Sa luha at lumbay.
Sa larawan lamang…
Sa larawan lamang mapagmamasdan
Ang ngiti niyang hanggang langit
Ang mata niyang walang pait
Ang buhay niyang walang sakit.
Sa larawan lamang makikita
Ang mga tala sa kaniyang mata
Ang mundo niyang maligaya.
Sa larawan lang siya
Nakakatawa
Natutuwa
(Dahil kailangan – kailangang magpanggap).
Sa larawan lang niya
Naipipinta ang kaniyang saya
Sa larawan lang niya
Nadadaya ang kaniyang mukha
Sa larawan lang siya nagmumukhang masaya
Pero, hanggang larawan na lang ba?
Lol
135 · Sep 2017
Eccentric Clock
Blckstr Sep 2017
It was an eccentric clock
On the wall of a stable block,
Holding a pair of hands
With a speed of unknown brand.

It was an eccentric clock,
A cryptic piece of lock
When a light hit its glass
Change has seen from its class.

I touched such eccentric clock
To explore its eccentric hock
But in a glimpse of a sight,
Time had passed faster than light.

I removed my hand from the clock,
And its hands stopped like a rock
But time was still passing by
And enigma’s hour still made a flight.

I touched the clock for the second time
With a minute sigh in my rhyme,
Those hands of clock still were still,
Then, my eyesight had lost its will.

I closed my eyes and felt the darkness,
But my heart became so lifeless
I opened my eyes and devoured the light,
Then I lost my day and night.

I stepped towards the steady wall
And looked at the clock’s glass’ call
I’ve seen my heart’s reflected beat
The eccentric clock ran for a bit.
Man is the ruler of his time.
Blckstr Jan 2018
Roses are red;
Violets are blue
But nothing is bluer
Than my heart without “You."

Roses are red;
Violets are blue
The tears I shed
Were because of you.

Roses are red;
Violets are blue
My heart had bled
With a tragic hue.

Roses are red;
Violets are blue
My love was sacred
And I gave it to you.

Roses are red;
Violets are blue
And you just wasted
My love so true.

Roses are red;
Violets are blue
Leaving me wrecked
Did not make you rue.

Roses are red;
Violets are blue
All of our flowers
Lost its hue.

Roses are red;
Violets are blue
My life is gone
And so are you.

Roses are red;
Violets are blue
You are the sin
That I love to do.

Roses are red;
Violets are blue
I can now see nothing
But the bluest blue.

Roses are red;
Violets are blue
I hope I can find
The way back to you.

Roses are red;
Violets are blue
I hope I can see again
Your beautiful hue.

Because roses are red
And violets are blue
But nothing is bluer
Than my heart without “You.”
Lol
128 · Sep 2017
Ephemeral Love
Blckstr Sep 2017
Oh Butterfly that dwells in paradise!
Thou give my eyes a clear reflected life,
Thy wings that fly upon the endless highs
Exterminate the shade of cloud so rife,
Oh Butterfly! So sweet, so amiable,
My eyes are so attracted to thy light,
Such site of thy flight’s inevitable,
Such site of cite is a distracting sight,
Oh Butterfly! I’ve been with thee this day,
But I can say, my love’s a year of thine,
Though love of thine’s a night with hasty ray
As I have touched thy wings of sweetest line,
Oh Butterfly! Thou vanished like a gust,
Or must I say my dream’s a nightmare’s dust?
E
125 · Sep 2017
Kiss of the Dawn
Blckstr Sep 2017
As sun set and fell at twilight
Our hearts also fell with light
We fell in love like a sun
And rose up like the night’s dun.

I laid you down on bed of love
And tore apart the clothes you had,
Gently touched your hallowed soul
As heat flowed through the pole.

Lips were caressing each other –
Like a hot sensation of zephyr
Traversed through our bodies,
A hard electrical kiss.

Your body was so close to mine,
It was just like a tasty wine –
So sweet, and I was getting drunk,
To your deep core I was getting sunk.

My tongue took an ardent trip
From head to heel, from tip to tip.
Heartbeat became a vagarious line
When our tongues got intertwined.

I could feel the fire on my face,
My chest, my skin, like a burning race
I let my hands discover your soul
And you let me feel a flying goal.

My hands were wrapped around you
In this warm room of shaded blue
I sent electricity; you sent to me too
Like the moon and sun’s colliding hue.

We shared love on a precious night,
We shared hearts in a darkened light,
The moon watched our lovely love
But the sun had to quell the tempted dove.

We shared love on a precious night,
We shared kisses with all our might
But as the light came up the sky,
Love had vanished and had to fly.

We shared our love on a precious night,
We gave all of our hidden light,
But everything with you have gone
In just a sudden Kiss of the Dawn.
K
115 · Sep 2017
Love is a Beautiful Pain
Blckstr Sep 2017
Love hurts whether it is right or wrong
Love creates a tone of broken song
Love will make you happy for so long
Love can sometimes make you weak or strong.

Love is pain wearing a dress of pleasure
Love can make a wound you cannot cure
Love is a horrible adventure
Love is grief with a great stature.

Love can make you fall into heartbreak
Love can offer you a certain ache
Love can make you lose your great life's stake
Love can make you smile and laugh so fake.

Love can make you forget your own self
Love may leave you in a broken shelf
Love is so mischievous like an elf
Love will teach you how to lose yourself.

Love itself is a beautiful pain
Love can give a distracting bloodstain
Thus, you must get ready, learn and train
How to dance with the Love's mournful rain.
113 · Oct 2017
Fall
Blckstr Oct 2017
I’m so addicted to you
I won’t find someone new
I can’t find how to smile again
My heart’s still stuck in falling.

You held my hand and I held yours
We well rocked the forbidden floors
Our love was wrong but it felt so right
And until now, I’m falling for that sight.

Your delightful lips, your warm body
Your hands that held mine tightly,
Everything about you makes me cry
Every night, my fragile heart slowly dies.

My heart used to beat fast when you were mine
But now, it gets so slow and needs a lifeline
This foolish heart that I stupidly have
Is now breaking but still falling in love.

I know it is wrong and it will always be
I fell in love with you inadvertently
I know you are not already mine
But falling in love with you is still fine.

I did not really want to let go
But you just decided to do so
You said it was for you and me
You said you’re still not ready.

The best writer in my life,
The lullaby in my sleepless night,
Your highness, I’ll wait patiently
Until you’re ready to be with me.

Even if the stars fell out of shine,
I would never fall out of love
Even if the world fell out of life,
My love would still be clear and loud.

Just tell me when you will be ready,
Ready to love me undoubtedly
Just remind me when, ‘cause I have no clue,
But, I’m ready to fall in love with you.

Even if it hurts to feel this way
I won’t stop feeling this love so true
Even if it just makes my heart break
I’m always willing to fall in love with you.
Blckstr Sep 2017
He lives in a vicious world.
He just wants his life be hurled.
He’s just a child but he wants to die.
His eyes won’t lie, his eyes won’t cry.
His parents have a war of hearts.
And his heart is breaking apart.
Loud atrocious voices,
Home with stormy noises,
Thunder rings around his head,
And to stop these dreadful threads…

“Mom, Dad… I can’t breathe.”

Yes, he pretends to stop his parents’ tiff.
He lies and does a playful riff.
He hates the sound of heartless talks.
He hates the scream of mournful folks.

“Mom, Dad… I can’t breathe – ”

The repeated lie he always says.
He’s a great liar at a young age.
He has money, foods and everything,
Though love and care are always missing.

“Mom, Dad… I can’t breathe.”

He wants to feel a worthy life.
He wants to pull out the knife,
Infiltrating his fragile heart.
Catching attention is his art,
But his loved ones do not care.
They can’t give a love so fair.

“Mom, Dad… I can’t breathe.”

They are tired of his voice.
And he is tired of their noise.
His play’s not already working.
His heart is literally breaking.

“Mom, Dad… I can’t breathe.”

But instead of giving medication,
They give him words of destruction.

“Quit playing like a ****** child!”

Then, he lets his somber tears be wild.

“Mom, Dad… I can’t breathe.”

His heart gets weak and weak.
His lungs are tired of his sick.

“Mom, Dad… I can’t breathe.”

This time, he doesn’t play pretend,
But his parents think he’s a burden.

“Mom, Dad… I can’t breathe.”

Little by little, his heart weakens,
But no one tries to listen.

“Mom, Dad… I can’t breathe.”

Still no one gives attention,
He lies at his bed of woeful notion,
Since they don’t lend their ears…

“Mom, Dad… I can’t breathe.”

He just utters with lifeless tears.

“Mom, Dad… I can’t breathe!”

*He tells himself with frosty feet.
110 · Sep 2017
Confusing Love
Blckstr Sep 2017
Shall I believe in Cupid Fate...
The bow and arrow of Love's Faith...
The strike of destined limerence...
The eyes with Beating Heart at lens...
The sudden Flash of Colored Dime...
The sudden stop of crossing Time?

Shall I believe in Cupid Fate...
The Poisoned arrow of Pain's Faith...
The strike of fading limerence...
The eyes with tearing heart at lens...
The sudden flash of Grayish Dime...
The continuous Parting Time?

Was it the love of Cupid Faith...
Or the Bullet of Painful Fate...
The Strike of dark at Destined Lens...
The eyes with Blurry Limerence...
The sudden flash of Playful Time...
The sudden Loss of our Gold Dime?
oroghovefetanltvew
109 · Jul 2018
I Met Someone Like You
Blckstr Jul 2018
One night, as I gazed
The stars above,
I met a girl
And she looks like you, my love.
She talks like you.
She laughs like you.
She smiles like you.
Her eyes glitter like yours.
She has this kind of force
That makes my time stop -
That makes me fall
The way I fell for you.

I met a girl, my love
And because of her,
I remembered everything -
Everything about us
In the past.
I remembered
How you held my hand -
How I kissed you -
How we watched the sun
Fall...
Like we did -
'Like I did'

I met someone like you,
My love.
Her words are also filled
With flowers' fields -
With butterflies -
With stars in the night.
Her words are as colorful
As yours.
They're beautiful
To hear.
She's beautiful
Like you, my dear.

I met someone like you,
My love.
She dances like you.
She goes with the music
Of the mellifluous wind.
She sings and speaks
The way your lips
And voice create
A honey-flavored trip
In my tickled ears -
Iniside my head -
Inside my heart -
A romantic art.

I met someone like you,
My dear.
I found someone like you.
I met her.
I found her
While my heart
Was crying,
Breaking,
Shattering,
And losing
A billion beats
Because of the memories
You left with me.

I met someone like you.
She looks like you.
She smiles like you.
She talks like you.
And even though
She never hurts me
The way you did,
My heart still beats
And beats
And beats for you.
And it still hurts me.
You still break me.
Though you've already left me.

I met someone like you.
I have a choice to fall for her
But my heart still chooses
To fall for you.
108 · Sep 2017
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41
I sing a love song
I sing a rock song
I play a happy song
But tears flow and flow
No matter what I do
No matter what I sing
I still remember you.
Forgotten Song
104 · Jan 2018
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Blckstr Jan 2018
Close your eyes to the sight that makes you cry
103 · Sep 2017
29
Blckstr Sep 2017
29
We’re traveling with a ship,
Sharing love on a deck
But as the waves came in,
Our love turned to a shipwreck.
103 · Sep 2017
54
Blckstr Sep 2017
54
My room knows my feeling
My room saw me crying
The still ceiling,
The wall of mourning,
The darkness and lighting
The echoes with lightning,
Everthing inside my room
Witnesses my life of gloom
When everything is so messed up
When I am so messed up,
From my bed, I just look up
And let my tears don't stop.
Ask my room, if you want to know my life
It is the storage of my shadowed knife.
102 · Sep 2018
Not yet, Little Canary
Blckstr Sep 2018
Not yet, little canary!
The world is too dark for you;
Spread not your golden wings;
You’ll break them if you do.

Not yet, little canary!
Lay still on your hidden nest,
The hunters are still watching;
You must stay still and just rest.

Not yet, little canary!
Chirp not a single sound,
Sing not your frail heart out,
Your sole life will be shot down.

Danger is in the woods;
Stray not out of the woods;
Fly not, little canary!
Not yet, little canary!
101 · Jan 2018
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Blckstr Jan 2018
Stop falling in love with someone you can never have
K XD
100 · Sep 2017
I'm Sorry
Blckstr Sep 2017
I fixed your heart and I broke mine.
I feel so down, you feel so fine.
My own heart bleeds, yours beats finely.
My tears flow, your eyes glow brightly.

Sorry, I fell in love with you.
I thought you were the light in blue.
I thought you’re going to be mine
Until my heart lost its lifeline.

Sorry, I want to say sorry
For breaking my heart foolishly.
Sorry for expecting too much
For our own forbidden love’s clutch.

Sorry, I have held so tightly.
I cannot let go my own heart’s plea.
I can’t stop my heart from beating
And feeling my hindered feeling.

Sorry, I can’t move on and heal.
Sorry, I still love you for real.
Sorry, I’m still hurting badly.
Sorry, I am really sorry.
99 · Sep 2017
42
Blckstr Sep 2017
42
Forget? Forgive? For what?
You already broke me apart
For taking away the “ever”
From our ended “forever”
Lol Ha ha ha
99 · Sep 2017
33
Blckstr Sep 2017
33
Love is a puppet of past,
Wanting to cut the string
To free the memory it has,
To free the pain within.
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