I feel motivated to say
That nothing bad in life
Ever stays.
It gets washed away
Like the rain.
I'll be your steady boat
On rocky shores
Holding you together
Like the many times
You've done for me
Before.
I'll help guide you
To the mountain tops,
And navigate through
The valleys of shadows
That linger in the dark
Corners of your mind.
Just stay the night.
Fight.
Fight this feeling of lost hope.
Fight this feeling of choking
From the inside out.
Fight with everything good inside you.
I know you can.
I'll be here to hold your hand.
Everything is temporary,
But my love will last a lifetime.

Up all night thinking
I've been thinking
Maybe we've been at this too long.
Maybe the feeling is gone.
I don't like the feeling
Of you
Anymore.
The pasts steady grip
Takes hold once again.
Again
Again
This is the begining of the end.
Your steady ******* boat.
Hitting rocks
And waves.
My minds astray.
I ******* hate this feeling.
Like the feeling after a one night stand
When you're just waiting for the other person to leave your bed.
Only, 10 years doesn't make you just a one night stand.
I can't stand this.
I can't stand.
I was over the mountain
Walking through woods
Then you back tracked the process
I'll never meet the wizard at this pace.
There is no end goal.
There is no end
We have yet to begin again.
There's a foundation
You see
That's built upon trust.
Once you lose that
All hope is lost.
Unless you're her.
See
I've been around this block before.
Over mountains
Through doors.
Hopes just a four letter word.
Like love.
You can't pack concrete into cracks
And expect **** to last.
The foundation is cracked
The foundation is cracked.
This love won't surpass.

Tongues twisted again.
You're still my best friend.
I've missed the comfortability.
Skin on skin.
Naked again.
Emotions stripped
Bare to the surface.
I feel my pupils widen
When I see you.
It's electricity.
The currents of two souls
Colliding.
Entwining again.
The almost extinguished Flame
Once again ignited
on full blast.
You may very well be
My addiction.
Still struggling to see the reality.
Still struggling to fight the thoughts that you don't love me.
Still struggling to just be.
Maybe this is the begining of the begining again.
Maybe this is the begining of the end.
Closure sometimes comes when you least expect it.
Finishing the last chapter in our book.
Everything is written in the stars.
Our love will forever be eternal.

Every word pulls me in.
Closer.
Deeper.
To
Stardust
And oblivion.
Intelligence is appealing
To all senses.
Especially the nerves
Between my legs.
Your voice flutters
Into my ******* chest.
And though it rips it to shreds,
I love the pain.
Please hurt me some more.
Speak your volumes
With your muted silence.
Let's ******* scream.
Hand in hand
On mountain tops.
From the miles
That separate our skin.
Skin on skin
Hands tied in knots
Around my throat
Suffocating my lungs
Gasping for breath.
Feel me.
Feel my depths
Feel my soul.
**** me from the inside.

You were lucky to escape me.
Disregarding that four letter word
You always said so easily.
Seeing is believing.
You no longer exist to me.
Free falling into new feelings.
Old lovers.
New flings.
Disrupted bed sheets.
Freezing.
Fleeing.
He ******* feels me.
I'm fine
I'm fine
The ultimate line.
The darkness comes
The thoughts rush
Destroying you inside
Free your mind.
Always stuck talking
About time.
Last drop
Your mind can't get me off.
Everything else is irrelevant.
Like your presence.
Gone.
Gone
So now the smiles back on my face.

A fluttering light is pulling me back inside.
My mind.
Soaring towards that great white light.
I'm dead inside.
I can't breathe.
I can't see.
Come inside me.
Dangerous cycle of a downward spiral.
No care in the world.
Running in circles.
Arms length,
Always.
Stay away.
Stray cat.
Birds of prey.
Soar high until you touch the light.
Try to free your mind.
Don't leave tonight.
This isn't right.
These codependent issues
Won't last in life.
Abandon your vice.
Use your voice
To say enough.
Used up.
Advances of people you don't even want to touch.
Wanting is a rush.
Always searching for that euphoric real love.
A word made up.
Body going numb.
Breathe deep.
Just keep breathing.
Sometimes I forget how to breathe.
Emotions taking leave.
Flightless bird,
Just sing me to sleep.
Pain killers to confine my endless dreams.
You're still all I see.
I don't want to know
I want to ******* grow.
Drink bleach to whiten the tainted dark presence your name has on my teeth.
I want to see rainbows when you suffocate me.
I want to glow.
Fly.
Soar.
I don't speak muted volumes.
I ******* roar.
I've earned my stripes.
I'm a lioness.
I prey on my own soul.
I have no heart.
These words are my art.
Making sense to the brain in my own head.
Disguising lines filled with dread.
Dispair disrupts duality.
Normality.
There's no such thing.
Life is but a dream.
It's a ******* dream.
Sometimes nightmares.
Seeing stars.
But we breathe because we have to.

I wanna use the words you wrote
To describe how I feel.
So ******* empty.
Useless.
Depeche Mode is relevant.
I'm a bursting baloon
Helium.
Read between the lines.
You'll never find
The answers that define me.
My definition is lost.
I'm floating in space.
Never found
No trace
Resistance of everything
With a ******* straight face.
We own the sky.
Created from stardust,
Time goes by.
And by.
This is goodbye.
This is goodbye.