I can only hear
my ears ringing

                                  and guess
                                      what
                ­                         ...

                                                            ­               It’s
                                                            ­         Deafening

I’m up here,
your down there,
and there’s nothing between us,
besides a mile of air.

people never really change, they repeat, people never really change, they repeat, people never really change, they repeat, people never really change, they repeat, people never really change, they repeat, people never really change, they repeat, people never really change, they repeat,

just because something lasts
doesn’t mean it’s beautiful

I try to help others,
because I have no idea
how to help myself

They say to destroy
the things destroying us,

But what do you do
when the thing destroying you
is yourself

Can anyone here even remember
who you were?
Before the world told you,
who you should be?

i feel as though,
life is a tragedy
for those who feel

                                                              and a comedy,
                                                                       for those
                                                                     who think

The Devil said,
“I’m coming for you.”
                                                                       I replied,
                                                                “That’s gay.”

so i did a thing
and then this happened

it’s
weird,
for
once
the
world
is
a
mess,
but
i'm
not

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lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting 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lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting lasting impression.

When I was little
I burnt my thumb
trying to use a lighter

Now I’m bigger
And I have scars
on my knuckles

Birth is innocence
Death is the truth you spent your life lying to achieve

The silly bit in between
...

                                                    ­               You tell me

the silence
hurts more
than the
words that
caused it

if
 everything
  was
   forever,
    if
     we
      managed
       to
        ****
         aging,
          and
           stay
            up
             infinitely
              past
               bedtime,
                would
                 that
                  really
                   change
                    so
                     much
                      ?

Bury me,
On a quiet,
hidden hilltop,

Bury me,
At the roots of a thick cherry blossom tree,
It’s species closer to extinction yet,

Bury me,
Surrounded by autumns metamorphosis,
In the mist of a sunset,

Bury me,
Where nature dices the ground into messy,
Unfair portions,
And a crowded forest clashes with the fields below,

Bury me,
Where my name will no longer serve a legacy,
And my corpse will rot without an audience,

Bury me,
In a shallow grave,
Where no church bells can be heard,

Bury me,
Where the bitter fragrance of the sea salt can be smelled,
And the old fisherman’s stories echo through acres of midnight,

Bury me,
At the peak of Scotland’s emptiness,
With your own two hands,
Brother,

Bury me,
With a smile

This time for real is  real.
                no  
     This time is it,
                                                      father.­
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                                                              ­               did I
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How many  times?
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There.
I ******* said it.

Here goes nothing!






                                                  ­      Oh, there it went.

I have a blister in my mouth.
My braces get caught on it, which stops me from talking sometimes.
It hurts, but less than what I would’ve said.

I want to go to Buffalo Wild Wings, where you need to jog up three black carpet handicap-ramps just to reach your table.
I want to go to Buffalo Wild Wings, where it takes 14 minutes for the waitress to arrive, and 72 minutes for the food to come out.
I want to go to Buffalo Wild Wings, where they change their mac n’ cheese recipe every week just to **** you off.
I want to go to Buffalo Wild Wings, where all 300 TV screens are airing adds simultaneously.
I want to go to Buffalo Wild Wings, where you ask for queso without salsa, but they can’t hear you; over the Flex Seal commercial blasting at full volume.
I want to go to Buffalo Wild Wings, where every wing sauce besides honey-barbecue tastes like Jalapeño Takis drenched in McDonald’s buffalo sauce.
I want to go to Buffalo Wild Wings, where it’s Kids Wednesday, everyday.
I want to go to Buffalo Wild Wings, where the bathrooms have approximately 4 urinals, 2 baby changing stations, and 17 ******* TVs.
I want to go to Buffalo Wild Wings, where desserts always on the menu, but never in your mouth.
I want to go to Buffalo Wild Wings, where the party games consist of a single, rigged, claw machine, full of nothing but green and pink rubber *****.
I want to go to Buffalo Wild Wings, where the bar smells like congealed grease, olive oil, and a rusted frying pan.
I want to go to Buffalo Wild Wings, where the only customers are bald-white-guys and fat-black-women.
I want to go to Buffalo Wild Wings, where the one birthday clown is a 54-year-old Indian *** offender.
I want to go to Buffalo Wild Wings, where dreams die and ****-babies are born.
I want to go to Buffalo Wild Wings, where their iceberg lettuce is grown under black-light.
I want to go to Buffalo Wi-
Wait, are you not in the mood for chicken?

I write these words from boredom.
Where they lead to, I know not.
All I know, is that I write from boredom.
Some say boredom is an opportunity to be creative.
Others find that statement manipulative.

Boredom finds a way to make me yawn, and strikes when I least expect.
I always wonder when it will hit next.
I'm lucky when it leaves, and pray that is does not return.

Boredom isn’t what we think it is, not an opportunity, not a cage, not an adventure, not a fading bruise.
It’s an unexplainable phenomenon.

Boredom is what keeps me from leaving bed, on a cloudy, Monday afternoon.
Boredom makes me blindly stare, and makes me whisper even when I’m alone.
Boredom isn’t something, nor the lack of it.

It’s a grey canvas.
Theres something different about the nothingness, it’s not like it used to be.
Yet, it’s not much different, is it?

When the nut was plentiful, when the nut was tender.
Because I’m passing from the nut I go outside to clear my mind, but I see a nut tree, I see nuts of every kind.
I begin to wonder, if passing from the nut is a blunder.
Shall I just go crazy? Shall I release the thunder?
But oh-no, I made a bet that I could resist the nut; and I am not a baller, so you’d best believe, I ain’t paying that ten dollar.
A week left for my journey, for the nut I am yearning.
The nut will not bug me, for I am not a Rolly-Polly, thereafter I am a man, the nut will not control me.
December comes blooming, blooming like a daisy, so you’d best believe, your boy’s going crazy.

Whose painting is that? I think I know.
Its owner is quite happy.
Full of joy like a vivid rainbow, I watch her laugh.
I cry hello.

She gives her brush a shake, laughs until her belly aches.
The only other sounds that break, of distant steps and birds awake.
The stories she tells are delightful, amazing and deep, but she has promises to keep.

After cake and lots of sleep, sweet dreams come to her cheap.
She rises from her gentle bed, with thoughts of kittens in her head.
She eats her jam with lots of bread.
Ready for the day ahead.

Only so long till I see her face.
And tell her to shut the **** up so I can take a nap in class you *****.

Your a house cat, Prince.
You can’t just be a house cat your whole life, knocking **** over and hissing at birds.
Only the next day to be a big, sturdy elephant.
Quit all this “elephant” *******.
Take a good look in the mirror; at your little cat ears.
Your thin, adorable little whiskers, and fluffy tail.
Do elephants have have little ears?
Do they have cute little whiskers or fluffy tails?
No, they don’t.
People don’t change, no matter how much they think otherwise.
You can’t just wake up one day and be an elephant, Prince.
The world doesn’t work like that.
Those are the rules, and you want to stomp all over them with your big, nonexistent elephant feet.
So next time you wake up, take a good look in the mirror and hiss at yourself.
Why? Because your a ******* house cat, and can’t recognize your own reflection.
Get over yourself.

You’re nothing special.

You create life from your ****, and it destroys everything that you love.
It goes in a straight path, and you know where it's gonna go, but not exactly where it's gonna end up.

I never thought I'd matter to anyone, until you came along.
And changed my perspective of the universe.
All those sad nights, talking sense into your wounded heart.
You made me feel like I mattered.
Years later, you kept calling his name.
Yet he never answered, did he?
So I told him, instead.
I know he loves you, he’s just scared of the spotlight.
I know he’s grateful for you.
And so am I.
Let’s hope one day we’ll reconnect.
Thank you, mom.