If I hold on tightly I think I might lose my grip
I fill my emotional holes with people because being alone makes my heart eat its way out of my throat
My brain rots itself away and my hands start reaching for things that will only haunt me
I teach you that the aftermath of learning too much loss looks a lot like me trying to keep myself busy
I tell you that my eyes are straws and after I drink you up with one glance I can be full for the whole day
I wait for the next one
I tell my reflection I love her and she does not reciprocate
She only tells me to hold my food down
She tells me you will not come back
She tells me I can only receive the waves from what tremors I create in our water
She tells me she does not love me because I do not deserve her yet
The world is my oyster, but I'm allergic to shellfish.
Why are we confident
In the sea of people
In the drops of intimacy
i feel like i
float in space
creating a new earth.
i wish you felt the same
Like a rose sheds its pedals,
Or a bird loses its wings,
We are all just parts
Of little broken things.
My wildest dream is this
That I would mean to you
What you have always been to me
she's a song
you'll never hear
because you never listened.