"I don't tend to use the phrase 'in love'" he said.

I sighed.

"Well, I do." I said sadly. "I'm not anymore, but I was. I really, really was."

He was silent.

"It's so weird to see all this." I gestured to the slideshow of pictures on the screen in front of me.
"This was all only a year ago, and my life is so different now. I thought that this-" I pointed to a picture of myself sitting very close to a chesnut haired boy "- would last forever."

More silence.

"I wonder if he thinks about this. I do. A lot. I don't think I have feelings for him anymore but I still always think about this. We were together from what. . . September 23rd-"

"That's oddly specific."

"To New Year's exactly. And I was still in love with him for four months after that."

"I don't tend to use the phrase 'in love'" he said.

I sighed.

"Well, I do." I said sadly.

If you read this
Let me know
If you're hurting
Let it show
If you read this
Let me know
If you're anxious
Let it go

Time slips from my fingers like sand as the weary sun finally sets in it's hidden place.
... Looking up I see the stars, and I memorize their patterns, and idolize their beauty, wondering if they will always be as incredible as I have viewed them today...
As I ponder my day dreaming, my eyes finally got their rest.
I wake up in a meadow where green grass and roses only lie..
City lights were no where to be seen... Rose pedals peeled off the sun  to fall frOm the sky and lined a rocky path that lead to crystal clear water where swans Swayed  their wings as they danced across the water and rabbits played with mice who scurried up the ridged rocks of once so hidden valleys... I stand there studying the suns reflection hitting off the water....
Will it always be this incredible?

A girl with a big broken family
A boy with a big broken heart
Once they are thrown together
They can never be torn apart

A necklace lies upon her breast
A deck of cards in her hands
Creating a perfect illusion of attractiveness
In the eyes of another man
She creates doubts in those with confidence
An image of desire
Held only for a night
Once given and received
Her presence is no longer needed
Worth nothing but dust
She holds a new deck

Around every corner, they lurk
They jab their fingers in my sides
"I knew it was you, I knew it was you"
"You're an idiot"
"I'm ashamed of you"
"You will never be that clever"
My bruises have bruises
And my cuts have been cut
They lurk around every corner
Inside every rut
"You're stupid"
"Too young"
and
"You haven't much sense"
Though it will be forgotten
Less than a year hence

How come so many are ignored?
How is it that so many are pushed aside like their animals...
Why are certain people not allowed in your life?
It's *******..
You shouldn't cast out others because they look different...
You shouldn't ignore them just cause they don't have perfect skin or don't have the newest cloths,
.... Just cause they have hard situations pulling on their life...
I bet you don't face abuse every time you go home... Give her some grace!
Isn't that what lifes about?...
It's wrong... It's so wrong...

If I was a clock
I think I would stop ticking
I think I would stop singing
Without warning
I'd just stop

If I was a dog
I think I would stop barking
I think I would stop yelping
Without warning
I'd just stop

If I was a ***
I think I would just snap in two
I think I would just crack in two
Without warning
I'd just break

If I was heart
I think I would stop beating
I think I would stop loving
Without warning'
I'd just stop