I could daydream about a better life.
Where you are not anywhere near me.
I could scream myself to sleep at night.
Find a way to be somewhere else.
Don't want to be where you are anymore.
You are at the lowest low.
You've got a twisted plan.
To take with you as many people as you can.
And you plea for salvation.
With your fingers crossed.
And try to explain.
That you aren't willing to change.
A man can if he wants to.
I remember when i used to look up to you.
That everything you said was true.
Is that not what little girls are supposed to do?
Who the hell made you in charge?
I have these horrible thoughts.
That you'll smoke till cancer kills.
Or that you'd swallow a bottle of pills.
Just so you could disappear...
Its horrible to think these things of someone you love.
Even more that your my blood.

It's not okay,
To push people away.
But that's what I seem to do.
Every single day.
I can't let anyone get to close.
Even though I wanted you the most.
I can't let anyone in,
Because then, I'll get attached to them.

Fight for what you want.
Even when others give up.
You are your most important person.
Its all on you.
To push through.
You know what you have to do.

Things aren't always as they appear.
You never truly know the ones that you hold dear.
It's painful, that the truth always comes at the point of a knife.
And the fears we have, come to life.
When the knife went in your chest.
You had to lie down to rest.
But it was a farce.
The pain wasn't anything too harsh.
They assure you, you will recover.
Aren't we suppose to love one another?
And these feelings that we hoard.
Small things that can easily be ignored.
And it's such a shame.
That we always know who to blame.
Cause I never saw this coming.
You would think it unbecoming.
I've always known what to do.
To put myself in a better mood.
And it hurt, everyone could see.
It just wasn't enough to **** me.

Darkness, silence
I hear them trying to break in.
Forcing my will to bend.
It was silent there was nothing.
I would have loved to hear something.
But there was nothing.
You were gone and so was my sight.
And you had my light.
It was my guide.
Now there is no one by my side.
I can't seem to walk without stepping on glass.
Can't manage to see what I pass.
And they saw my weakness.
I felt so helpless.
And I needed to stop, for that way lies madness.
I have nothing a can salvage.
So tell me where are you now.
And what happened to your vow.
These ragged roads caused me to stumble.
My armor began to crumble.
I'm scared of pain, hurt and loss.
I'm scared of what it cost.
With you is where I felt safe.
And now I wonder if I could go on without you holding me up.
And it's funny because I thought I would never have to depend on anyone.