Over nine thousand miles in distance
Yet my mind can’t escape
Still plaguing my thoughts
Pain brought by your mere existence
The distance will never be enough
Because I can still remember
And I always probably will
What it felt like to be right against you

You were the girl of my dreams,
only you weren't exactly what you had seemed.
One of these days I will finally listen,
everyone and the stars told me it was too good to be true.

You’re on my mind less and less
It’s taken time but I’m finally no longer a mess
I know now that I just wanted to feel
Thinking our romance would be unreal
All of the pressure broke the dream
Something I hope will not become my life’s theme

Say it over and over again
I repeat to myself
In hopes I will heed my own warning

I tell myself to let go
But my heart is the one behind the reins
And it’s dragging me into the swamp

She wears a fake smile
Bearing her perfect white teeth
An illusion i'm only just starting to see past

Because reality is not as pretty as the pictures you paint
Or as your voice when you sing me lies
Ugly is my denial of reality that kept me coming back for more

There is significant weight resting upon her shoulders.
Nothing I can do, can really console her.
She is a single worker ant carrying fifty times her body weight.
Just one of her many completely selfless traits.
So piece by piece, she gave it all away.
Never complains or whines, lining the words she may say.

You've been hurt before, along with it the closing of doors.                                                        
  ­              I try to open you up,
but you're closed so tightly welded shut.                                  
With time brick turns to glass, despite just meeting, it feels at last.                        
         In your green house of flowers, my hearts been buried for hours.                                
    It needs somewhere to grow,
but for now it's just stowed.