Three minutes was all it took.
My opposition halted.
My voice shriveled,
My muscles tensed,
And I stood still.

Poor me.
Weak me.
But I’m so strong, I thought.
I’m so outspoken, I thought.
But no, I just waited.
Patiently.

I apologized.
I APOLOGIZED.
For how uncomfortable it felt.
How inconvenient it was.

Three minutes.
Three. Minutes.
Most would laugh that that’s how long it’d last,
But for me,
Oh, for me,
It was a ******* eternity.

Dot, dot.
Line, line.
Spiders crawling up your spine.

Line, line.
Dot, dot.
Try to have a happy thought.

The market's crashed.
I've gone bankrupt,
no matter what I have to scan.

I decided my worth a long time ago.
Let the barcodes reflect that.

How do you justify keeping something alive,
that will then keep you alive?

Is it so selfish to want to cling on to
And depend on something so tightly.

Beats having to cling onto that blade,
or those pills you've saved for a rainy day;
A box of smokes you'd sworn against,
The "liquid courage", as others call it,
but you simply refer to it as potential poison.

I can't let you go, I won't let you go.
Not when you're my ticket out of depression.

You said, "Don't hate me",
But I hate you so much now.
I ******* loathe you.


Downright pitiful
For robbing me of the chance
To say I Love You.

Every time you kiss me, you leave me
And keep me waiting, waiting
Months, years until the next sweet brush of lips.

The hands halt and the sweet ticking of my watch goes silent.
Nothing to be done.

I won't wait for you anymore.
If you ever show up, you'll arrive to a lonely company.
Every time you kissed me, you left me.

The nail biting evolves into a psychosis well hidden behind closed teeth
Those gentle wrestler arms no longer cradle your giggling form
And the woman who gave you life is now fighting death.