The hedgehog's dilemma. hedgehog's try and get closer to each other when it’s cold but they can’t get close enough because they end up hurting each other. I had no idea what it was called or that it even had a name for it. At least I know what I’m dealing with now. It explains a lot if I’m being honest.
I’m so happy I left. So I don’t have to deal with anyone from where I came that don’t like me or that I don’t like them. So I don’t have to deal with my past and what ******* lies that you came up with. Its twisted ya know. And you **** well know you lied. You’re not the only one who is scared. You have no right to be scared. Because of the lies you started. I’m living in fear every **** day. Every single ******* time I think about you or home, I have what feels like a small anxiety attack or panic attack. But because of you. My life is going on better direction then you are and a lot of other people. If I’m being honest, all I have to say is *******, and **** PA.
I don’t know why but I just feel like I’m constantly in this ongoing loop. A train that Is going around and around on this track. It won’t let me off. I would just jump, but I’m scared that it’s going to hurt. I don’t know what to do. I don’t even know how I got on the train in the first place. I see people walk in an out, on and off with ease. If they can, why can’t I?
I was generally really happy.
And when it ended,
the happiness just
Se La Vie.
It is very addictive.
When you're all out or you don't have anymore you go insane.
When you loose it, it's just as bad if not worse.
It is very dangerous to start but it can be even more to end.
It's like a drug.
This world is unforgiving.
It's so cruel and unfair.
It makes me disgusted the way people can act,
So selfish and greedy.
Like pigs on a farm.
But there is a small amount of good on it.
It is the people that help others
the ones that try to make others happy,
just because it makes them happy.
I'm disgusted with the human race. but there is a few people that still give me hope for it.