I don’t know why you think that you were the only one that got hurt. Do you think that I wanted to break your heart? Don’t forget that I loved you more then anything. I did what I did because you deserve much better than me. You deserve the world. And I don't deserve you.
I don’t really know what to think anymore. I feel lost and confused and like I am never going to be happy again. I just have this feeling that everything I do or even try to do backfires and blows up in my face. Every time that I have the smallest chance to even talk to someone but the thought of you keeps me from getting anywhere close to saying “Hi”. The fact that I miss you still hurts. I know what happened between us and I can’t put you through that again much less myself. I need to move on. I have love for a lot of people and things but the one thing that I can’t love is myself. But to be honest I really don’t care about not loving myself. I would prefer to make someone happy and help them fix all their problems and take all their pain, so they don’t have any. And that’s the one thing I hate about myself. Making other people happy and making sure the ones I love are doing okay and are happy. And if that means sacrificing my happiness then I guess I’m okay with it. I wish I could take your pain so you wouldn’t have to feel it anymore I would in a heartbeat.
About a year ago I was happy. About a year ago I could smile. About a year ago I was in love. About a year ago I learned something About a year ago I lost it all. About a year ago I started to lose hope. About a year ago I Lost You.
I never wanted to hurt you and that's all I did. And every day I regret it. To the point where I don't feel much of anything. I know that there is nothing I can do to fix what happened. There have been so many tears. Tears of laughter. Tears of happiness. Tears of sadness. Tears of pain. And there’s nothing I can do other then hope that one day I won’t be feeling broken. My heart, it hurts. I feel like I’m never going to be the same again.
I’m sorry. I’m sorry that I couldn’t be there I’m sorry that I couldn’t help you. I’m sorry that I hurt you. I’m sorry that You thought I didn’t love you. I’m sorry that I wasn’t enough. I’m sorry that I broke your heart. I’m sorry that I kept my mouth shut. I’m sorry that I didn’t say anything. I’m sorry that I put you through ****. I’m sorry that I gave you a second chance. I’m sorry that I trusted you. I’m sorry that I loved you.