It’s hot today
People play artificial games
Sunbathing in the plastic Sun
The screen is melting
as they click along

Everyone’s thirsty
They can't quench their thirst
despite drinking
All they want is more and more
What are the needing

And somewhere down the road
It’s raining on the 4tn floor
The water flows down the windows
The river floats through the door

There’s a pond in the middle
of the kitchen
And the water is calm
Nobody’s thirsty here

We’ve got all we need

Here we are discovering
the art of poetry...

Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious
words attached with
each other
Connected together
to start a chain reaction
Step by step taking
the reader higher
Into the unblemished
skies of imagination
Everything’s allowed ;
to laugh, cry,
be happy and sad
A feast for senses
A question without
an answer
An emotion lingering
in the right place
and moment

Here he is
The poet
armed with a pen
His eyes open
Mind focused
Feelings on a leash
Pulling forcefully
Forward, backwards
Hold on Mr Poet!
Stay strong, don’t let go!
Lead...

Take it
where you want it to be
Let it breathe
in the alley of mystery
Drink and feed
on a secret
Allow the reader
to discover for himself

Lay it to rest in the place
of destination
The poem
A riddle to solve
Your creation...

Snap! Perfect selfie
A tick on the bucket list
Another holiday memory
from a trip,
 
to Auschwitz...
 
There are flowers here in Auschwitz
Growing on the blood-soaked ground
 
A flower number 55 is red
Like the blood that had been shed
 
A flower number 129 smells like gas
Like the chambers that took lives
 
A flower number 3 078 smells like pain
Endured, in a torture every day
  
A flower number 20 503 smells like fear
Of living and dying in agony  
 
A flower number 400 076
is too weak to smell like anything

There are 1 300 000 flowers in Auschwitz
Growing on the blood-soaked ground
 
But who will remember that...

Hello Big Shot you killed again
The bullet hit right in the center
The rush feels good
You know it well
You’re holding hands with
the danger

Don’t play with the fire
mama said
But blood addicts once
you taste it
Now all you want is ******
and death
Saving lives isn’t on your agenda

You built an Empire with big guns
Shooting whoever tries to touch you
A mighty King wearing a crown
Sitting on the Golden Throne

Bang, bang goes another round
Bang, bang all you can hear
Bang, bang echoing in your mind
Bang, bang…………….

And I saw beauty
Beyond imagination
When I closed my eyes

Yesterday, I touched the edge
Felt, how sharp it was
Pitch black, on the other side

A tiny speck stayed on my skin
Now it is growing, mutating,
spreading all over me

First, it reached my *******
Changed my attitude

Now all my fingers
are in the middle...

Next, it started to cover my eyes
And all I see becomes black

Soon it will get to the heart
Turning it black inside out

I must admit, I quite like it
Can’t decide if it’s good or bad...

the black heart of stone
pumps black blood into
the blackened veins
tireless day after day

it used to be fiery red
innocent
felt feelings deeply
knew love very well

now transformed
doesn’t want to feel
anything anymore
fills up only on hate

it changed a long time ago
hurt too many times
lost hope
forever petrified

beats in strong rhythm
listening to the whispers
of black shadows
evil spirits from the past
pouring hate into the heart

black heart listens
remembers well
works hard determined
to never get hurt again

Hush now
It’s all right
You will forget
The taste of my blood

It was funny when
you took a bite
I knew you will choke
on my poisoned heart

My vein is still pulsing
I can feel your teeth
piercing through my skin

Look, now our blood is mixed
A creation of a new disease

Hush now, don’t cry
You will forget the pain
in time

Just close your eyes
and count to five

Now, you are mine

It’s
so quiet
Lonely
Miles apart
from the surface
Drowning in herself
Still alive but dead

Cold
So cold

Sinking to the bottom

Held by
the invisible chains
Gasping for air
but breathing something else
She knows what comes next
Another night in the turbid
depths of a nightmare
On her own
All alone
In the darkness

What’s happened to her
She was soaring so high,
but fell so low...

Is there a way out

Which way to go
from the bottom...

It’s comfortable here
In this place without windows
Safe and warm

Away from the demons
grinning their fangs
From the eyes of sleepless spies

Watching every move
Wishing for the nightmare
to come true

Don’t pull
Do not grab my hand
Don’t tell me to get out there

Let me stay here, blind and deaf
I don’t want to heal
Don’t pray for a miracle

I want to be ill
This needle you are holding will **** me
You can’t help me

Let me shut down
Levitate in my bubble
Far, far away into space...

The caravel is sailing today
Bored with the shore
Takes the course of a new
challenge
Setting the compass on
nautical adventure

The land left behind
watches with sadness
Sees the sails set high
Hears the excitement
of preparations

It doesn’t want to break up
But understands
The caravel is made
to navigate the sea,
to search unwaveringly
for new islands on the horizon

Such is its nature
To be free in the element
of wind and water
Go through storms
Dance with lightnings
Play with dolphins in the waves

The land knows very well

That at the end of the journey
The caravel will return
A prodigal son
Coming back home

It's time for sleep
Paralysis of the senses
Eyes shut don’t want to see
Ears closed refuse to hear
anything

Misty tomorrow will come drunk
Sleepwalking among the shadows
There is no me, no you, no us
There is no more

What remains is time
Ticking in the silence of the night
Slowly counting ends
Watching The End nearing by

There are no more beginnings
Buried there on the cemetery of dreams
In the land of hopelessness
Buried deep

So many tombstones
Nobody remembers anymore
Rest in peace never born
Embryos of hope killed in the womb

Now what counts is sleep
Let it come
Numb the pain
Closed eyes and closed ears
Keeping away from living

There is only one left
The stubborn heart
Still open
Still looking for a dream to be born
Stupid

You are soooooo stupid!
Said the head to the bleeding heart
You let yourself get hurt

Look at me!
I don’t feel anything! I think!
I’m never broken! Always happy!

I can’t do that said the heart
If I won’t feel
I’ll freeze and die

I’d rather hurt, break, bleed
a thousand times
but feel alive!

Cry me a river little girl
He whispered softly in her ear
Don’t worry it won’t really hurt
You will endure it

Cry me a river, my sweet child
Let me collect your crystal tears
You’ve always been the chosen one
To give me what I need

Cry me a river pure of heart
I want to touch so deep inside
And even if you’re torn apart
I will not stop

Cry me a river little one
I have my plan to follow up
You’ll understand it in your time
Now, let me work.

The dark, dark times had come

Their shadow long
Swallowing up us whole
They’re hungry
Starving for more
They’ll take it all

The dark, dark times had come

Sleepless spies
grinning their fangs
Their faces lurking
in the crowd
Ready to bite, eat us alive

The dark, dark times had come

It’s our turn
It's time to hurt
Pour never-ending tears
Fill up the bottomless seas
Give what is left to give


The dark, dark times are here

Don’t let them in...

We are empty
Our feelings spilled all over
the floor
A reflection of dark moon in
the puddles
There is nothing left
All the memories of the sun,
shine no more
Buried, deep down in the shadows

Our fortified walls,
built persistently over the years
Grew resistant and sturdy
A lost echo, of a thousand
love messages
Rings quietly in the dark
Never reaching our hearts

We are so far away
Even when we are together
The reflection of dark moon
locked in our eyes
And we feel its power, every
time we look at each other

All I hope for
Is a glimpse of the sun shining
through our hearts
Filling us up, with rays of love
To remember again what we
used to have
And to crumble down our walls

Death sits on the edge
Contemplating suicide
She hates life so much

It’s enough
already…

Hurting,
over ribs
of starved love
protruding from the sand

With just one sentence
you started detox
in my poisoned by hope
tissues

Is it time
to bury my personal god
with a substitute for a funeral ?

No point to begin
the resurrection prayer

I'm here
with emptiness in my heart
which burns more
than hydrochloric acid
of rejection

Wind of renewal
is humming a song
of new opportunities

But I can’t hear it

It’s raining with shattered glass
from a broken window…

I’ve been drinking…

Way too much of pain lately
Letting myself get drunk
on misery
Sleepwalking through life
Balancing on the edge
Self destructing

I’ve been eating…

Too much fear for a while
Letting negativity slip
under my skin
Poisoning me
Blurring my vision
Filling me up

I’ve been sick…

So sick and tired
Of self medicating
Using drugs prescribed by evil
Being addicted to self harming
Doubting

I’ve been living…

In my own private little hell
Build with my own hands
Suffocating me with
the power of hate
Force feeding with meals
of neglect

It’s time…

The time has come
to start a new diet

It’s time to love myself.

I can withstand a collar,
that hurts when you pull
I can bear a hard bed
And no water to drink

I will bark if you order
And I will protect you
I’ll wait, as long as it takes
Until your return

I will take a tell off
Even if, I don’t deserve it
I don’t mind frozen paws
I don’t care, if I’ll get hungry

I will always love you
And I’ll be forever loyal
Till the end, by your side
My beloved human

It’s time for a ******
A perfect crime committed
in cold blood
Cooled down a long time ago
Solidified and black

Aroused razor sharp
grins with its beguiling
seductive smile
Ready for the ****** cut

Deadly poison winks
with its rotten eye
Inviting for a toxic drink

A gun shoots right in the
center of attention
Promising quick exit

Thick rope hangs
sadly from a tree
Begging for this
one and only kiss

Waiting

For you and your move

Do it!
Before it’s to late
Before someone else
will do it to you

**** what is already dead
in the world deprived of
feelings
Where love suffocates
without air
Truth declined moves out
Warmth freezes
And faith defeated leaves

In this world so cynical,
ruthless and cruel

Do it now!

****** your heart..

Oh no, don’t
Don’t tell me to go
Don’t tell me to leave you alone

Don’t tell me I’m to messed up
to fit in your world
I might not be what you think
I’m not one of the dolls you saw on tv
I’m so much more
Flesh and blood

Dont tell me to shut up
To change my mind
To stop
I will not

Don’t

Don’t tell me to do my hair
Change my clothes
Fix my attitude

I am a burning piece of art

Don’t even start

Don’t tell me what you’d like me to be

Let me be me

Just close your mouth and
listen

"It takes two years to learn to speak,
and all life to learn when to be quiet "
-Ernest Hemingway-


Shhhhh...
Don’t say a thing

We don’t need to talk right now
A single whisper will be too much
It’s time to end this altercation,
we’ve got be careful

Let’s put this fight away
Our tongues are so sharp
today
Stabbing open wounds
with two-edged sword,
over and over again

Don’t underestimate the power
Words can be hotter than fire
So easy to hurt with just one
of them
The damage done, so great

We know how to speak, shout,
scream
Words like bullets hit the target
perfectly
But to stay quiet... challenging

Close your eyes and count to ten
Shut down what you want to say
Now it’s time to let go of anger
driving frantically our temper

Let’s put our egos down to sleep
Sing sweet lullaby
Tomorrow we’ll look at the world
with brand new eyes

In the morning the storm will
be gone
Let the silence work
its magic touch
Untangling our feelings
and clearing up our thoughts


Stop, just say no more.

Open me, please
Let me unravel my content
Layer by layer, please strip
me naked

Prepare yourself, be careful
There are lots of sharp
objects in here
Ready to strike, out of fear

Stay calm
Open me slow
Disarm all the pins and needles
Put away the scissors

Gently handle the knives
and razors
Give it time, don’t rush
Be cautious

I don’t want to hurt you
Push you away
Sometimes I act in self defense
Please understand

Don’t stop
Dig deep, to the bottom
Be patient
Please, find my secret...

You shine in the moonlight
Like a sparkling beacon of promise
Worth every drop of sweat and tears
Worth everything

The prize
A reward for years of miserable life
A well-deserved meal after a famine
The most divine taste of glory

It’s been so long
I watch you glittering in the dark
Listen to your enchanting song
Dream of you, day and night

Lost myself on the way
Bruised and cut millions of times
Bleeding hurt left behind
Never gave up

Followed the golden trail
One step at a time
falling down-climbing high
Reaching to where you are

The day is breaking
I can smell you
You’re so close
I can almost touch you...

We fell drunk in love
Broke some dishes and bottles
We woke up sober...

I keep on searching
But my pocket is empty
There’s a hole at the bottom

What a mess

Words all over the floor
Letters spilled in the kitchen sink
Thoughts in the bathtub playing
hide and seek

Nothing left

Today I won’t write anything

I need words to soothe my soul
Nurture my heart
Heal my wounds

I want to write to thank you

Soon

I’ll try again

But, not today

He got used to it

Keeping his heart
in the fridge

Sometimes he opens
the door to look at it

He stands there
in the doorway
and watches it

Beating

In a calm
and steady rhythm

He feels tempted
to take it out

Warm it up

But he never does

He leaves it there
on a special shelve

Safe

In the emergency
he knows what to do

He simply turns the
temperature down

When it gets too warm

…

The playroom is locked
A shadow plays with the toys
The children are gone...

Ha ha ha!
I did it again
I made you laugh
It is like a sneeze
Disease
Infection
It is contagious
Be careful run away or you will be happy again...

You will find me there
Sitting comfortably on the sofa
Drinking wine from a plastic
cup

We can chat, have a great laugh
You might be surprised that
I can swear from time to time

Sometimes I’m smart
Very often stupid
I’ll make you sad than happy

I’ll misunderstand you
Fiercely argue with you
Then, apologize with tears
in my eyes

I’ll shower you with affection
and love
Plenty of that in my heart

Don’t look for me among angels
Don’t search among demons too
I am right there, in the middle

A human

There it is
Consuming on me
Taking ****** bites
Eating me alive

I’ve tried so hard to feed it
Gave it whatever it wanted
But it’s never satisfied
Forever hungry

I’ve been searching
Praying for answers
But the hunger doesn’t stop
Never leaves my heart

It always wants more
of Something
To fill up the hole
that’s empty

Hidden deep inside
it never sleeps
Doesn’t close its eyes
Ready to eat

What does it need
I don’t know
This ravenous hunger
of my heart…

If you will leave

Time will stop in shock
The World will collapse in despair
Stars sad will switch off
And the Sun
will simply burn away
Life will die
Lay, in the dark grave,
and close its eyes forever
Nothing will become
And even it will cry real tears,
cause it will never see
your face

If you will stay

Time will flow, steady and calm
The World will beam with joy
Stars will shine dancing in the sky
And the Sun will glow forever
Life will be born, brand new,
full of hope
It will smile at the thought
that we share it
Emptiness will fill up on
happiness and love
All of this, just for you,
cause
you’re staying!

If I could turn back time
I would wake up with you
Sit together, on your
favorite bench in the garden,
and be silent
I would look into your eyes,
and see how tired they really are
Touch your hands,
to understand the weight
they carry every day
I would listen to you
Hear the words coming
from your heart
Learn your fears, your hopes
and dreams
We would talk about your childhood
The scars you got growing up
About us...
How to fix what’s broken
Find the missing piece of a puzzle
How much we truly love each other
I would open up my heart
Show you what’s inside
Let you in...
We would joke,
and laugh until it hurts
Together,
Dad with his little girl
We would hug and cry
and it all would be all right

If I could only turn back time...

It is pouring
The raindrops are flowing
in the stream of tears
Heaven torn to shreds,
doesn’t want to stitch
back together again
I am weak
Hidden in my shell
Waiting for it to finally 
crack open
 
I look through the window
The world so empty and cold
My eyes hungry
Searching for the glimmer of hope
I see one, tiny,
floating right towards me
 
I squint my eyes
 
You're there...
Summery meadow
gently rocked by the wind
Trembling hands picking flowers
Smell of happiness
 
I quickly catch 
the leftovers of light
I’ll hide them deep 
In the place, where the
tentacles of darkness,
can’t reach
 
I pray
Repeat the words
over and over...
 
It's raining and raining
The rivers of sorrow are
flowing incessantly
Is it my fault
What have I done
Have I sinned
Please give me a sign
I don’t want to cry
 
I close my eyes
 
You’re here...
A spark growing stronger
Your loving eyes so warm
Shining bright like a star 
in the blackness of the night
 
And
 
I am weak, hidden in my shell
But I know

You will split it wide open…

It came in the post
In a pink envelope

Who would’ve thought...

It said; You’re invited to a party
You are the main meal
so
wear nothing
It will be worth it

It starts at midnight
In the underground bar
Called “Hell”
Remember, come naked

Oh, temptation
To be in the centre of attention
Wanted, desired

I went
And never returned the same

In pieces, blooded and bitten
Torn apart

Got what I needed to
grow up...

Jimmy, Jimmy, Jimmy boy

You are a darling
Mama’s pride and joy
So what you’re grown, you
don’t work, don’t have a girl
Mama loves you and you love her

You live with your mama
On the second floor
You’ve got a room
all on your own
Mama’s there with you
sleeping right next door

She takes care of you
like you deserve
Always doing whatever
you want
Mama knows your needs
like no one in the world

Nobody can replace your mama
No other girl can be like her
Whatever she does
to earn your love
It will never be enough

Don’t ever forget
your mama’s love
You’ll always be mama’s boy
Remember that Jimmy
When your mama’s gone

And you, are all alone…

Here again
You came
Quickly in the blink of an eye
you disarm my armor without
any resistance
You always know what to do
How to fool me
Now I’m waiting for my sentence
I kneel before you
I can see you pulling out a knife
You will strike
Stabbing my heart
And I will do nothing
Close my eyes and hold my breath
When you’ll be done
you will slowly walk away

I don’t understand

Your infinite cruelty
is making me lose my mind
I’m begging you to stop
but you don’t hear me
You don’t care

I do not understand

But I know what will come next

I know...

Tell me how to understand ?

I am loosing faith...

You broke me
I am in pieces
Like a shattered vase I lie on the ground
When you walk by you strike again and step on my heart
Stomping on it hard
Enough to squeeze out the last drop
of tears
I'm surprised there is some left
The remains
You collect them all and when you
leave you watch closely
searching for flaws

A collector feeding on drops of pain
I stand up
Count the time
before your return

The almighty King of Tears
always hungry for more

A piece of paper
Creased, yellow, old
Nothing special 
but so much more
 
On it, words holding 
a key to a secret
An answer to unsolved mystery 
A missing puzzle of a story
poured onto the paper
Each sentence, paragraph 
so important 
 
Memories, planted long time ago
Growing roots strong and raw 
Locked in a special room 
with doors tightly closed 
 
Thoughts  
Desperately wanting to be heard
Sacred, forbidden 
Untouched 
 
A confession in the envelope 
Sealed and hidden
Never sent, but written
for a reason
 
Now in the drawer
Waiting
Locked behind in
the cupboard of memories
Kept away in the prison
of the dark
 
Just a letter, a paper
Simple
But so much more...

We are dead
Love is drained from our veins
Hearts of stone feel no more
Eyes empty blind
Seeing just what they like

We used to live
Spark connected our lives together
Each day was a pleasure found new
Every moment had a meaning
We were breathing

In time days gained weight
Unbearable
To heavy to carry
Hard work overtook our love
We were gone

The day we died was quiet
Nothing unusual happened
We woke up in the morning
Didn’t even notice our dead bodies

No heartbeat, no pulse
No blood flowing in our veins
A corpse of a once-living home
What’s left

Who killed us
Did this... to us
Where did we go wrong
We don’t know
All we have are the memories
Lost

Look what I found
A piece of a broken heart
Someone lost it
I found it on the ground
Looking hopeless
I’ll pick it up and take care of it
I will put it in the pocket of my soul
I will plant it in the garden of feelings
I will water it with hope
Maybe one sunny day it will grow
Maybe again it will be whole.

The Sun is shining
The day is beautiful
Today, i will meet your
expectations

i’ll be, who you want me to be
Do, whatever you desire
i can do it
Just have to work harder

i know
i haven’t been perfect
Far from it...
But i can do better
i promise

i’ll put more effort
Be smarter, exciting, bright
Say the right thing, at the right time
Look my best, just as you like

You’ve been waiting,
so patiently for so long
i am grateful for every minute
you wasted on me
Being useless and weak

Today i will meet your expectations
Like you deserve
And maybe then you will love me

i hope…

I’m still here
Where you left me 
Behind the closed door
Going through the memories
of us
It’s been so long
I know I should move on
But I can’t 
I don’t want to let go
It’s been two years since we broke up
Two years of sleepwalking 
in the dark
And every day of not having 
you here feels like a lifetime wasted
Empty and meaningless
I’ve heard rumors
that you found someone
That you’re in love
I’ve heard that I am a fool 
waiting for you
But I don’t care
I can be a fool for you
I’ll do whatever it takes
to have your love again
Just tell me I have a chance
and I’ll wait forever
Behind the closed door
With hope that maybe one day
I’ll hear the key in the lock again…

Lucky, lucky, lucky me
Growing on a wealthy golden tree
On juicy branches living peacefully
Oh lucky, lucky me

Lucky, lucky, lucky me
Picking sweet fruits of prosperity
Each day luxurious as can be
Oh lucky, lucky me

Lucky, lucky, lucky me
Green leaves of money surrounding me
Buying me things, fulfilling me
Oh lucky, lucky me

Lucky, lucky, lucky me
Riches replace true love for me
I have it all, my fortune and me
Oh lucky, lucky me

Lucky, lucky, lucky me
Dying, on a wealthy golden tree
Diamonds and treasures hugging me
Oh lucky... lucky me...

Sleep, sleep, sleep little one
Dream the sweetest dreams
 
In your dreams
everything’s possible
Close your eyes, little one
Go to sleep
 
Soon love and hope will
come through the door 
Give you presents 
tied with a ribbon
 
Unwrap each one with 
joy in your heart
Dream little one,
dreams from heaven 
 
Sleep, sleep, sleep little one
Fall asleep already
 
May Angels hold you
gently in their arms
Protect you from harm
when you’re sleeping
 
Close your eyes, 
close your ears little one
Keep away from the monsters 
while dreaming

Your daddy’s high and
your mama’s drunk
Stay asleep little one, 
don’t listen
 
Sleep, sleep, sleep little one
Dream the sweetest dreams 
In your sleep you are safe
and loved
 
Dream little one, dream...

My tank is empty
I am running on low
Mary Jane, please fix me up
Breathe in some fresh air
in my lungs

Mary Jane,
I want to play your game
Darling, you put a spell on me
I need your magic touch
Hit me up with your punch
Let’s fly, together on cloud nine

Mary Jane, you are so *****
Filthy, outrageous, smoking hot
You’re so bad but so good
Honey I love, every inch of you

It’s simple, you are the one
When you come I come
My Sweet Miss Misbehaviour
Give me just one more blow
Baby kiss me until we’re done

Help! Cried the money
I am looking for my worth
I feel so empty

Nocturnal creature
A daughter of darkness
Gray, inconspicuous, small
Flies through the night
with a broken wing

She’s cold, so tired
Carrying heavy stones
from the past
Damaged by the weight of
secrets from the other side

Stayed for so long in
the underworld
Hurt more than enough
Fed up with blackness
she flows between tears
searching for exit

A way out from mourning
and despair
Light at the end of the tunnel
A warm glimmer of promise

She sees it now
A tiny speck on the horizon
Distant ray of hope for the future
A spark of a dream bright
and beautiful

Mesmerized flies right to it
Encouraged by the power
of the feeling
She’s ready

Prepared
to sacrifice everything
She knows
The light is worth it all...

Mama, do you remember?

You keep the photographs
under your pillow
Each night still kiss us
goodnight
All those memories of us
you treasure deep
in your heart

Mama, do you understand?

Life rushes away, runs so fast
It’s hard to keep up
Each second lost
cost more

Mama, why are you so sad?

You sit here by your window
All alone
Waiting for someone
you love to come home

Mama, why are you crying?

There are tears streaming
down your face
Your eyes filled with
pools of lonely sadness

Mama, is there still hope?

Can we go back
Is there still time for us
Can we fix what’s broken
in our lives

Mama, what is it?

Today is your day
to celebrate
So, mama smile
Cause today
is Mother’s Day…

This climb is tough
Days of pushing up,
take its toll
Hands tired of pulling higher
Legs heavy and slow
But the promise of reaching
summit,
is enough to go on

The roughness of the surface,
cuts the skin deep
It’s hardened now
Doesn’t feel anything
Cold wind mixed with ice
blows fiercely, blinding eyes
Taking breath away
Freezing the lungs almost
to death

Darkness is taking over
It’s so scary in those moments
Doubt creeps in
Whispering
Wouldn’t it be easier to simply
let go
Fly freely in the air, like a bird
It’s ok to give up…

Time to make the choice
Right now
It’s time to move on
To push on
Forward against all odds

The only way is up

High,
to the top of this mountain
of mine…