Meditating where darkness and light meet
Its something I long for to feel complete
During the long session
I keep my thoughts discreet
Where my heart sounds like a drumbeat

Finding the thing inside of me
To feel like a whole new being
I suppose it isn't new
It's always been in me
If only society were able to see
The world will probably be less evil
We will all live happily
Or maybe that's just a theory
Ah well
I'm sure we'll get there eventually

I'm not a perfect being for meditating
But it helps me realize that we are something more
Something more then what we see in this reality
I wish I found its true meaning
My true reason for existing
But I haven't found it yet
Surely it isn't to give out my energy
When it comes to poetry
Because I know it won't last
It'll just fade away
Just like a distant memory

I'm sure my purpose in life will be found
I hope it's something for the good of humanity
Raising its vibrations or something like that
Ah well
I'm sure I'll figure it out eventually.

Floating through life
While flopping my arms helplessly
Look at me go
Ain't I lovely?

The light is there
But it's so far away
I don't know what went wrong
Time went so fast
I thought I was strong
But I lost my way
Now I don't know
where I belong

Twisted mind, corrupted soul
Sacred heart
I have a lot to learn
in this life of mine
Which is ever so dark.

I shut my eyes to these trying times
Cover my ears from the numbing silence
And bite my tongue from the those lying
So here I am
Dancing and singing with fallen angels
Turning a blind eye to my problems
It's just that time again
Where I run in circles

Cheering with blood-filled cups
Speaking with many devils
This is the time where I rise above
This is the time to do what I please
A new destiny
A new reality
So mote it be.

Don't talk about going to heaven
There is nobody there
Perhaps that's just an opinion
By those elsewhere
Open your eyes and listen with your ears
Meanings and symbolism are everywhere
You may never know
What you'll see and hear
But it might too little too late for you my dear
Because one day you'll disappear
All alone
With nothing remarkable
On your gravestone

To some, it's a blessing
For others, it's a curse
Perception
Is everything.

Every life comes to an end
such is the life a human soul
which knows no end.

There are so many ways to die
So don't try to hide
And please
Be sure to say goodbye
Because you may never know
When it's your time
It isn't sad, if anything
It's scary
Because you never actually die
What is truly sad is being dead
While still alive
So, please
Help those who are dead on the inside
Because you may never know
What blessings they will bring in your life.

To all my friends whom I haven't seen in so many years
I hope you know that I miss you all so much
I've lost myself through so many doors and hallways
just know I will treasure you all
forever and always.

There goes the sun in the distance
My hope for humanity is long gone
Millions lost
Only silence
Smoke and ash fill my lungs
Couldn't see
Vision struck
And I don't give a ****
It's only me on this road
Feeling hollow
No tomorrow
Only silence echoes.

Quiet tears and silent prayers spoken in the night
Walking through darkness to reach the light
Then back again and the cycle repeats
It's been like that my entire life
And I'm ok, I'm alright
Doing just fine
Alright?

It's been a quick minute since I last wrote a poem
I used to write like it was the end of days
but now I can't seem to find the words to say
I don't know why but the words seem to drift away
it is what it is I suppose but hey, at least I'm back
ready as ever to write till the end of days.

Cast aside the shining light
I am here to win this fight
Bound by blood, soul shrouded in darkness
I've got the strength
Ready as ever to make amends
For the upcoming success
No more nightmares
No more regrets
Just little o'l me
Preparing for a conquest

It's something I've accepted
Something I've embraced
But I'm truly stranded
Just another youth gone to waste
So little thought given
So many souls caged
And too much blood drained
Tell me
Will we ever be saved?

No answers given
No prayers heard
Watch as our mind gets altered
Watch as we spiral downward
You can't save us
You're outnumbered
And I'm sorry..
I'm so, so, sorry
But this is the way it has to be.

Washed up memories, aching body
What has become of me
In this fading reality
Torn out wings, unspoken secrets
Nevermind
This deafening silence
Beware, beware
Demons and puppets everywhere
Up high, down low
Ready to place your heart
Upon the altar

Soul shining bright
Forever shrouded in darkness
So here I'll remain, regardless
Of the pain.

Why do you care about me so **** much?
Why can't you see so clearly?
I'm just a soul who fell from grace
just a stray whos been led away
away to a place with a million empty faces
I don't know who I am anymore
I've learned their ways but keep going back
back to a place without those snakes
to a place where I'm not a disgrace
I can't take this anymore
I should of went through the other door

but its too late. and I'm falling.
a fall that is neverending, a tragedy.
please help me.

Don't wanna be like the rest
don't wanna listen to the lies
can you see the skies?
we're all gonna die!

Welcome to the hellhole
a world filled with *******
just pull the trigger and disappear
it's the best thing to do
when you're here.

This is goodbye
I won't say why
Because I don't wanna die

Nothing will ever be the same
Not with what's taking place
But it's something we must embrace
However
Don't obey
And don't be enslaved
Not to those snakes

And one last thing
Don't trust Q
Or do
Because it might just be true

Walking through a fantasy
Some lies
Some truths
Seeing what you wanna see
Only to lose your sanity
Ain't
That
Funny.

Dear friends
It's me, Anthony
I took you all for granted
And for that
I'm sorry
Though I have good memories
Things could have been better

I wasn't really there some days
Anxiety filled my mind
I don't know why exactly
But I had to getaway
And stay at home some days
I guess me being traumatized
Is what made me more closed off
I should of went to a therapist
But I was too stubborn
Haha
I guess that isn't too surprising

I haven't seen you guys in years
But when I do
I break into tears
Well, that isn't true
A man crying is weird
So I hold it in
You guys don't know that though
But you do now
...
Nevermind, I have no emotions
But if you do ever see me cry
It's actually because of invisible onions
...
It's true I say!
No laughing!!
...
I've been thinking about you guys recently
Due to the amount of dreams I've been getting
And it has me thinking
Why not make a poem
To write about my current situation
I'm kidding, I just wanted to write about you guys
No specific reason
.....
What I'm trying to say
Is that I love you guys
And I miss you all so much
I've said that so many times
But when we were all together
I never said it enough times
So I'm saying it a billion times
Otherwise
I'll lose my sanity

Anyways
I don't know what hallway I'm in
But I really need to find the exit
I hope to become a millionaire when I do
So I can bring you guys to a big barbecue
Because that's what adults do
Right?
We're so old.. time flies
...
I just wanted to say this
And I'm sorry for all of this
I'm also sorry
For what I'm going to do
After saying all of this
Oh, sorry for the mess too
...
I love you guys
And I miss all of you so ******* much
I'll keep you all in my mind
Forever
And always
So goodbye
And farewell
See you all
On the other side

Sincerely,
Your friend who is sorry
Anthony.

Fading reality in the midsts of a rising fantasy
It's a dream come true
To those who dared to continue

There they walk on a path to nowhere and somewhere
For they are the ones who will save those in despair and anger
An incredible feat to some
An undesirable disaster to others
It matters not to those chosen few
The chosen few who are forever cursed

To sacrifice is to have a light guide your way
Guide your way on a road that is dark, awful, and dreadful
But it's beautiful
To those out there, remember that
Always.

It's almost doomsday
that's alright, that's okay
Life's been pretty gay anyway
I know that's sad, a bit depressing
but I know how things are
and I can't stand living
So goodbye, farewell
you'll see me somewhere
Probably in hell.

Close your eyes
Free your mind
Don't let the light
Pass you by
Just Ignore your scars
And look up to the stars
You're a superstar
But better
You're a god
We all are
Or have you forgotten?

When I was 13 I didn't know what I wanted to be when I grew up
now that I'm 21, I still have no clue on what to do
I've been told to grow up, shows what everyone knows
we're all kids in grown-up bodies and have no idea on what's going on
what is the point to all of this
wake up, work, home, sleep, repeat?
I understand there's some fun to be made with friends, games, hobbies and such
but seriously? anything else? hello? this can't be it
this isn't how it's supposed to be, right?
it seems as if everyone has lost their sight
all is lost and we are doomed
we can't win this fight
says those who are truly doomed
I have my sight, all is not lost
have faith, we will win this fight.

I've got a thousand words to say
But when you come near me
They become unclear
And drift away

My mind becomes unstable
It's uncontrollable
And I go on and on
In a ramble

I'm sorry for it
But I can't help it
It's your presence
It does something to me
It's an unstoppable force
Which I find
Absolutely wonderful

I'm over here while you're over there
I wish things were different
But it isn't
Not in my world
My crazy, magical world
Filled with so many twists and turns

It is what it is in this life
And I hope things are different
In the next life.

We all die
and when we do
we will open our eyes
and see that everything we knew
was one big lie.