My body is being pulled in two different directions
Do I go left and feel gods wrath
Or go right and have the wolves eat me on the overpass
I don't know which path but either way
it's going to be a bloodbath.

One ambition, one direction
A new dawn
While in front of me stands Babylon
There it stands
Ripe with perfection.
The place of sin, filled with corruption
The true place
For salvation.

Dear heavenly father above
I hope you know it's 11:11
I'll make a wish and go to heaven
find Jesus christ and take his heart
build my throne on top of his corpse,
and call it art with no remorse
Amen.

Take me away, lead me astray
I obey
I bend the knee
Can't see, please
Get away from those that be

Poetry and Solitary
Help me, I'm stuck in purgatory
Save me, I'm lost in glory
It was just a hobby
Now I'm feeling lonely, empty
I can't escape my destiny

It's just a neverending downpour filled with stress
Then there's me who's fallen in the abyss
Poetry, why'd you do this to me?
I wanted more but you gave me less
Lost my soul and lost my friends
I thought you were bliss but that wasn't reality
You were just another step towards death
Another step in losing my humanity
Why'd this have to be?
Why me?

Don't be silly and wrap your ***** said a hippy named Billy
who was ***** for a gypsy who was clearly into whiskey
and was ready for a ****** even after feeling ******.

when all I am
Is a man with a thousand faces
Do I take the ****
And just end it?
Or do I continue
And commit more sins?
The road to hell is paved with good intentions
And the ones you love
Little the roadside
I've seen it all, I've done it all
And yet
I still have more questions
All of which will never be answered
Not with my current existence

My mind has been all over the place lately
And it's driving me crazy
I think it's because I'm meat-rotting at home
Been doing nothing but writing
It's bringing me nowhere
But I can't stop writing
Even though I want to
Because I want to go somewhere - anywhere
But here

Guess I'll just have to deal with it
Like I always have
I am infinite after all
Sure, the state of my soul
Is a bit complicated
And I might be a bit corrupted
But I still won't let my light fade

I'll keep it burning because of a promise
A promise I made before coming into existence
Its what I must bear
And I hope it'll bring me somewhere - anywhere
But here.

Can't tell you what went wrong
I've tried so hard, but in the end
The darkness was too strong
Now here I am
Sitting in a thunderstorm
I don't mind it
And honestly
I think it's where I belong
Or maybe not
Maybe I really like both
The sun in all its glory
And the rain with its melody

Balance
Duality
What a wonderful thing
Wouldn't you agree?

I've got no clue on what to do
Guess I'll make due
By talking to those who are doomed

Hey there person who is surely doomed
I hope you're feeling okay today
If not, then that's alright
Sometimes I wish I can fly away
But I look at what good I can bring on those days
And I hope you can too
Or at least give it a good o'l college try
Anyways, I hope you have a wonderful week
And please
Keep your head held high
I'm positive you'll succeed
Maybe not today
But someday.

"Do you remember that time when you did that thing,
that thing you did when you were king?"
"Of course I remember that thing I did when I was king,
but please, let's speak of anything but that thing."

"Ok, do you know that I know that my father knows about a king,
a king who died long ago by a slow buffalo with a nose like Pinocchio?"
"no, I didn't know that you know about your father knowing a king,
a king who died long ago by a slow buffalo with a nose like Pinocchios."
"Now you know!"
"now I know."

"How about-"
"No more, please."
"Aw, you're a cold sore like Louise."

Here I am again
With another poem
Yeah, it's a snooze-fest
But I can't stop writing
Because I'm obsessed
Will I ever stop?
...
Hell if I know
I'm sure I'll figure it out
Whenever my body decides to checkout
Who knows, I might suddenly **** myself
For speaking out the truth
Will that really happen though?
...
Probably not, I'm not in the mainstream
But if I was
Then I'd probably sell out
...
Nah, nevermind - I don't like being controlled
Depends on the situation of course (wink, wink)
I've seen those who sold their souls
And I've gotta say, what a bunch of fools
I don't blame them though
I'd be down to receive a billion dollars
For wearing a blindfold
But I'd also be down to join a revolt
A revolt against those who are in control

Metaphors and symbology
Which go round and round the world
**** all those one-eyed clowns
And glory to the people
Who wants to cast them
Out of this world.

I have no clue on what to write
I wish I was something bright.

Maybe I'll write about my life's story
or about an imaginary friend named Cory
that seems kinda dumb actually
I'm sure he's a good fit for a story.

Cory, a man with one eye and 33 fingers
who happens to like cheese-burgers
better not laugh at him
you might just end up murdered.

yeah, no, I don't know
it seemed great at first
but what do I know
I'm a highschool dropout who never came first
guess I'll just keep writing and babbling
because that's what this is, pure nonsense
a bunch of words that mean nothing
ok, that was kinda harsh on myself
this really does make me feel something.

there was once a boy named Anthony
and he was the epitome of blasphemy
wow, so edgy, so scary
spaghetti is tasty
I bet you weren't expecting me saying that
spaghetti is pretty great though
not as great as a Kit-Kat.

I'm getting bored now, farewell
see you in hell.

I'm falling and will continue to fall forevermore
So please, hold my hand and take me to wonderland
My soul may be gone but I'll hold on, I'll stay strong
anything for you, whom I adore.

I broke free from being empty so I can see the real me
I can't think properly now that I've seen my full potential
I've got so much to learn
So much to see on this journey
I can't believe the things that are to come
It makes me rethink my decision to hang myself for being apart of humanity
Good job guys, I guess this isn't goodbye!
Finally got my energy to continue into the future filled with glory

There's so much that I've gotta do in this world
The underworld seems so far in the distance
Glad I'm not going there
Glad I'm away from the silence
Just need to shine the light on millions of victims
Show everyone that they've got a mission on this planet
And become more successful than the men who invented religions
I might not make a difference
But I sure as hell will wake up millions

This is my story and this meat suit will expire eventually
But I'll come around time and time again
To help humanity fulfill their destiny
To hell with secret societies
They will wither away as if they never existed
Not today, nor tomorrow
But eventually
Humanity will live on exactly as planned
While the industry becomes nothing more than a fantasy
A long lost dream
A memory.

Sleepnights nights drowning my thoughts
What has become of me
In these nightly storms

I hold all these secrets
All of which I accepted
So I beg of you, bring me my casket
I'm a total basket case
And I'm tired of it

Just a poet
Writing and writing
Only for it to bring nothing
Just wicked beings demanding worship
I thought I was gifted
But it got complicated
So here I lay
Watching my blood
And my tears drip

I was told I was an infinite being with talent
And the nightmares became vivid
It left me twisted, It left me corrupted
So here I am
Addicted to the darkness

All this poetry Is heavenly
But not to me
I'm stuck in a cage
And losing my sanity
I beg of you
Please help me
I-I'll be in your debt forever and always
That isn't true, but I'll be thankful
Always.

Walking through smoke and ashes
This is what I've become
No purpose, no conscious
Just pure madness

There are too many emotions honestly
I don't know what happened exactly
But deep sadness fills my body
Nevermind the anger in my mind
It's hard to figure it out, but it's making me crazy

I've been working out on how to fix this
But nothing has seemed to work
I've been devoured
So here I am, in the abyss
But I'll try my best
To keep positive because bliss
Bliss Is something I cherish.

If things were normal
We'd still be in the trees
That truth is remarkable
If only society would see
Though they are ignorant, sometimes filled with judgment
I'm sure there will come a spark
For them to open their hearts
Darkness replaced by unconditional love
Happiness for all that be, a higher consciousness for all to see
What a wonderful existence
That would be

Normality, the downfall
Of humanity.

Those in the shadows
Are doomed to hollow
Existing with nothing inside
And no tomorrow in sight
Freedom and Money are fallacies
Society too shall follow
Society, blinded by those that be
Mind and spirit closed
Look in the mirror society
You are nothing but a joke

Billions of tragedies always following
Never questioning
Stay in your little safe bubble
While I explore the unforgivable - the terrible
So I can be alongside those knowledgeable
The ones who lurk within...
The shadows.

Breathe in slow, let the mind start flowing
You are one of a kind
A one in a gazillion as it's known
So cheer up, do not cry
Listen to life's lullaby
And keep your head held high
Your future may just blow your mind
So please, continue on - seize the day
Become the master of your own mind

And don't just survive in hell
THRIVE!

I think it's time for me to let go of yesterdays worries
Throw away all those awful memories
And journey on into tomorrows fantasy

I can see it now
No more empty me
No more misery
Just the new me
Filled with heavenly energy

I was once suffering
But now I'm smiling
Because tomorrow
Tomorrow is a new beginning.

Walking through this deserted land
Feeling ever so weak
I just want to get home
Back to wonderland

My hearts bleeding
Hands shaking
Don't you see
I'm dying here
But there you are smiling happily
Even as I lose my sanity

My reality is dissolving
A problem that cannot be solved
It's funny
I was once a superstar
But all I have to show for it
Is a bunch of scars

So many scars
And so much tears.

The road to hell is paved with good intentions
And the ones you love
Litter the roadside
That may sound sad
But please, do not cry
Just stay positive on the inside and outside
Because in the end
You'll be alright

Who am I kidding
That's just a lie
I don't know if you'll ever be alright
But I hope you won't think about suicide
I've been through that
And won't ever go back
Because it got better
As I got older
Those memories will stick with me wherever I go
In this life and the next
Forever and ever
And that's okay.

My mind has been scarred
Soul laying in the dark
Nevermind my heart
Which is nothing
But a tragic piece of art

I've lost all sense of direction
But I'm still here and aware
Even while looking in my reflection
He's got a grin
But I can tell
He's wearing thin

The world at large is falling apart
And I've done my part
So I guess it's time to get dressed
For the upcoming end

I took it all for granted
Including my friends
But I'm glad life was good
While it lasted.

The things we do
The things we must
Has come at a cost
Now we're among those
Who love drinking blood

We have a long way to go
So keep on screaming
Ignore the bleeding
And numb the feelings
We can do it
Just keep on believing.

Keep your head held high and your heart strong
You'll make it to where your belong
You know, a world where you are happy
And not stuck in a world as a negative nancy

Sounds kinda cringe but it's true
You'll make it out like all others
So don't act all blue
Become a master of the universe
Defeat all challengers, you'll get there
It's something you deserve.

Climbing up the mountain
To who knows where
It's been tough
But I'm getting there

It's been ages since I last saw hope
I thought the darkness swallowed me whole
But I'm finally there
And I feel like a millionaire
I'm not afraid anymore
Nothing is going to stop me
Not even those who are in control
I'm not going waste my time with that rabbit hole
But you understand what I'm saying
At least I hope so

I'm on top of the world
But I've still got much to learn
Much to see
Guess my next stop
Is the galaxy
Where I'll be filled with light
And everything in-between
Pay no mind
I'm outta my mind
Just like those
Who are hopeful
In their sad, pathetic
Lives

I said I climbed the mountain  
When in reality
I was only halfway there
Not a millionaire
But I'm sure I'll get there.

I've been told that I'm an old soul
trusting my intuition, seeking spiritual growth
I've also been told that I'm an *******
guess it's the way I roll.

In these dark times, I cry
Though the dream has come at a close
I keep my head held high
Because I will not surrender, not to my foes

I have the courage to fight for what I love
The knowledge to see through the darkness
In these times I will heal those empty
No matter how black their soul is
I will raise their consciousness, Bring out their happiness
Because this world is twisted, utterly infected
But I hereby give out my own energy
So the world might be mended...
So the world might be mended...

Angels asking for help
And begin to cry
Society too braindead
So they give no reply
Demons running rampant
Where is God? He is absent
Who can save us? He who gives no judgment
Who?
The replacement

Earth shrouded in darkness
Promises never kept
No solace
In a world so clueless

The world as we know it is burning
But it's not a terrible ending
Because in its ashes
Will come a new beginning
A new world filled with laughter, interesting characters
And bloodsuckers
A world we all deserve

Cheers
To all sinners.

Hello there person who is reading this
I don't know if you know, but I'm ******
that isn't entirely true but what I feel isn't bliss
if I'm being honest, I don't know how I feel
just living day to day without a way to heal
don't worry though, I'm not depressed
I got out of that mindset awhile ago and I've got the scars to show
took 5 years from fourteen to nineteen
such is the life of a teen I suppose.

I'm twenty one now and all I do is sigh
I miss being a kid, I wanna skip this life
I know that isn't wise by why even try?
my death would be a blessing in disguise
*******, that sounds pretty ******
if my mom found this then she would probably cry
Jesus, I never meant this to be a sad poem
the old me kinda just came through
so much for being wholesome
I guess I'll write another poem.

Missed opportunities
Endless tragedies
Why is my life filled with such misery
I don't know who I am
Don't know what to be
I write poetry
But it isn't bringing me to victory

I'm meat-rotting at home
And can't wait to die alone
No more stress
No more worries
Just me
and the unknown
What a perfect existence
That would be.

Dancing and singing, laughing and crying
Its the way it goes
From within the shadows

Sounds of all kinds going way up into the sky
But pay no mind
For the blind and those deprived
Will climb up high where they will thrive
Such is the great plan, the great heist
Curated by the great mastermind
The one who did not fall, but leapt
For showing the truth
To mankind.

One, two, three
A one-eyed man
Hangs from a tree
Four, Five, Six
He was silenced  
By his biggest critics
Seven, Eight, Nine
His suicide note
Isn't genuine

10
It will happen again.

I've got a secret
Its something you must know
I don't want my throat slit
So I'll let it go, where I'll once again
Drown in sorrow
Not just today
But tomorrow too.

Faded memories
And sleepless nights
Look in my eyes
And tell me  
Am I even alive?
Please, do not lie
I've done so much in this life
And I honestly can't tell if I'm alive

There's so much going on inside
A lot of light and dark colliding
I'm backed into a corner
And it's so frustrating

It comes and goes
Then comes back again
I wish I would overdose
So I can finally be a freeman
No more shadows
No more me
What a lovely place
It would be.

Going through the motions
Doing what I can to stop this silence
It's numbing
Just like the secrets I keep
Which are ever so deep

I do my part, they do their part
We are one
Even as we drift apart
It's a wonderful thing
A meaningful thing
And it makes me think
Are we doing the right thing?

So many questions
So little answers
It's what I must blindly accept
In order to become perfect
Because the perfect me
Is what I want to be
Especially in this world
Filled with the dead.

I don't know what to do
Got a ticket for two, but have no friends
Guess they all fade away in the end

Stuck on this lonely world of mine
It was built by design, nothing divine
But I think it's time for a redesign
Don't know when that day will come
Don't think it will ever
So I walk like a phantom
Fantasizing for something better.

I must tell you something that nobody should know;
something about the world in which you oughta know,
everything is just an illusion;
don't you know?
I know it sounds strange coming from me,
a high-school dropout with no college degree,
the hopeless child who fell from grace,
at least I don't believe whatever I see.

I feel lost in this world with no sense of direction
Where am I to go
When all I am is a mass of imperfection
Never winning, always losing
In this magical world
Filled with corruption

You stand there
And watch me cry out like a symphony
Don't you see, I'm falling
And I want you to help me
Not **** me
I hate this
I don't want to be like this
But there's no bliss in my role

I rolled the dice and sacrificed a lot In order to survive
Now I'm stuck, I just wanna escape
And head into the afterlife
Because I'm tired
I'm so, so tired
I don't think I've ever been this tired
In my ******* life

Hypnotized
Traumatized
What a way
To be alive.

Are you prepared for the coming war?
Better repent
Cuz they want more
More atrocities, more tragedies
A singular movement
For a one-world government
Don't ask why
Spiritual progress is truly complex
Down is up, up is down
Such are the ways when the sun goes down
Where the moon moves high
Way above the clouds.

I don't know where I belong;
Can't tell you what went wrong.
guess you were right all along,
I'm happy as the day is long,
so long.