Take me under the waters and deep into the mountains
Leave me to wander this life I could’ve never imagined
The night sky glittering with stars and campfires lit so bright
Fresh cold air mixed with relief like the 4th of July.

Unshackled souls let free into the night
Walking farther away, the moon our only source of light.
With tingling lips and shaking hands that explore
the warmth of that you desperately adore

Safe and guarded in your arms I lay
But the sinister smile is something i could not face
As I lay in the pool of my own omission
realization dawn. My own poor decisions

Never to trust and never to follow
I lay in white walls and beds so shallow
I am but an epiphany of your dreams
Someone unspoken someone unseen

Insecurities bottled up and buried within
Rises like bile on a sick Saturday evening.
Realization creeps  fast and thoughts
embeds itself into your brain.
A helpless cry for help

Untitled is what you are
No name, no face just a feeling
Just a dot in my head
Yet you get bigger and darker by the day
getting bigger until I'm untitled as well.

Lay me down, without the tears
and I’ll tell you all about the sweet vinyls
the playing music coursing through the air
The warmth of your embrace enveloping well

Like Peter, to never age
Like Wendy, to never change
I’ll lay my soul, as restless it may be
in this very cabin, where you loved me.

Reminiscing my youth has garnered regrets
And you were the light that took me from my deathbed.
You breathed me life and just like that I smiled
And then you left and I felt like an abandoned child.

I pushed until you fell of the edge
Until I couldn’t reach your hand
Until I was left alone and scared
Fear into anger and anger into bitterness.

I wish you had visiting hours
,a phone to call
Or even an address to write
So this time, I won't forget to say I love you
I'll say it twice.

I lay awake at night, staring into the dark
I rest my eyes yet still cannot rest my heart
The thumping reaches my ears and my anxiety reigns
I check the watch and see I’ve stayed up again

If I sleep I dream of dread
But what I feel is all in my head
I sweat from the rush adrenaline
My veins littered with epinephrine

I pray to the heavenly bodies, the gods above
To end the nightmares I’ve been dreaming of
Not all dreams were meant to be chased
Some meant to be buried, burned and never faced.

I run to worlds and planets to seek asylum
Going insane from the pain until i finally turn numb
In Mars I felt the greatest joy
In Jupiter I fell and I, myself almost destroyed

The rings of Saturn turned out to be my solace
I skip Uranus to swim in the oceans of Neptune
And in all the planets I’ve been to
When I close my eyes, i dream of nightmares, i dream of you.

The reminiscent mind that can't let go of the past,
still hangs and lingers to the memories of
half smiles and melancholic laughter.

A knife embedded to the back
red liquid seeping through
the pristine white shirt
Now stained with betrayal

Words hanging in the air
awkward stares
A relationship that can't be repaired