The most beautiful lie I ever heard in my entire life
Can I keep hearing again and again?
Inside mind
Waiting in the very back
Teasing all day
Forgot place it originated from
Patiently rested there so long
Where am I with no trace of these words?
Now I am forcefully facing the truth
Calling friend in my time of need
Just crying out to deaf ears
No one listens
They take advantage of what I am missing
Pretty flowers have wilted and died
Butterflies in tummy flew off
Ripping the band-aid off as fast as I could
You strode into life without my permission
So I wonder why it hurts this much to watch you walk out of it
I've never felt whole as I did the moment you murmured those three perfect words
So scary thinking back how many emotions I experienced
You shared none of them
Me
And myself alone felt gravity pulling towards you faster than a magnet springs toward metal
Keeping tears as trophies to put up for show in your mental display case
Waiting for me to topple so you could catch me in your net
A specimen shown off
To use
Everything ruined with the shattering realization that when you said
"I love you"
Were merely lying
It all was a lie
Spilled water on paper so deciphering my smudged handwriting felt like putting together clues to a mystery