Heartbreak Motel

Heartbreak Motel Jan 2016

Let me hurt myself, leave me alone.
Don't watch me while i'm doing this.
If it's not physically, it will be mentally.
I don't know which one is worse but,
My body seems to heal faster than my heart.
Don't watch my wrist, it's pointless, i don't cut them.
I'm smart enough to not look this desperate.
I wont show you were i open myself, but trust me, i hide it very well.

O.P

#love #sad #lonely #hate #pain #disorder #alone #hurt #selfharm #cut

Heartbreak Motel Jan 2016

Letter n° 18 |Painful temptation

I think that I should have done it, just once.
I should have given way and let everything go.
I complicated things too much by thinking.
I should have called you.

Just for a night, or even a day, just one moment, only the two of us.
Even if our intentions were different, we shared the same desire for each other.

Skins against skins, eyes in eyes.
There is nothing more intimate.
I wanted to kiss each part of your body,
Savoring the contact of your hands on me,
Feeling your hot breath on my neck.

I wanted to please you,
I wanted to show you how you made me feel.
The painful temptation, the desire.
The need of a physical contact with you.
I'm still burning for you.

O.P

#love #broken #sad #hate #desire #alone #lust #*** #temptation #painfull

Heartbreak Motel Jan 2016

What He Did

I changed.
I change since he is not in my life anymore.
And i realised all the things i was making just to look good for him.

I was wearing less makeup because he told me one day he didn't like it,
But the truth is that i love makeup and wearing a tone of things in my face makes me happy.

I was being calm like a good little girl because he liked his girls like that,
But normally i'm really loud and i do at least 5 stupid things per day.

I even started working out because he like when girls are in shape,
But i love my little potato body.

He made me feel like i wasn't good enough to be with him,
Like i had to change things to look good for him.

He made me feel insecure about myself again after so many years trying to
love myself as i am.

O.P

#love #broken #hate #pain #insecure

Heartbreak Motel Jan 2016

Letter n°17 | Goodbye (again)

I forgot your face and the sound of your voice.
I forgot your smell of your perfume and even the color of your eyes.

I think less of you, you know.
I'm almost cured but,
You leave this mark in me, a scar inside of me.

Your words, the way you used to look at me,
the interest you had for me.

I fell too easily and now I understand my error.
I treated you like a man but you are still a little boy.

O.P

#love #broken #sad #hate #pain #alone #boy #him #you #*******

Dec 2015

Emma Mariko Rahalski

10w

I write poems about you
Hoping you'll never read them

#10w #10wordpoem #10word

Heartbreak Motel Dec 2015

Letter n°16 | *******!!!!

"You're a nice girl and i like you a lot but..."
*******, *******, FUUUCK YOUUU.

I don't want to be the nice girl,
I wanted to be the girl that haunt your nights,
The one that gives you insomnia.

But go on, try to find a girl like me,
Someone who wait 9 month in the hope that something could happen.
Someone who take news of you everytime,
Someone who is sincerely interested by you, who want to know you,
Someone who don't want to just *******.

I hope that now, when you'll hear my name,
You'll think of me as the girl you broke,
The one that loved you but you rejected.

So come on, go find better than me,
And go burn in hell with her.

O.P

#love #broken #sad #anger #hate #alone #hurt #**** #insomnia #heartache

Heartbreak Motel Dec 2015

Waiting or fighting

I never get what i want,
I'm not the lucky type.
Maybe i don't fight hard enough.

I'm not one of those pretty girls with the world in their hands.
I'm the one on the corner of the room, waiting patiently.

I don't want to wait anymore,
But i'm tired of trying everytime.

O.P

#love #broken #sad #life #pain #time #hurt #fight #try #wait