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Feb 2022 Jean

my medal

Feb 2022 Jean

Eliza

my medal

Words,
Seemingly so positive,
Yet so harmful.

“You’re so small!”
They say,
Like handing me a medal.

Words that will bounce around in my brain,
Words that will shape my mind forever,
Words that I will never let go of.

I have to keep this medal.

#ed #eatingdisorder #mentalillness #sad #depression #metaphore

Dec 2019 Jean

tears and tissues

Dec 2019 Jean

Audra

tears and tissues

how do you get through
the days that are
all tears and tissues?
—the days
of running mascara
and stuffy noses

song of the day: “all we do” by oh wonder

#tears #tissues #sad #upset

Jun 2019 Jean

you exist most of the time

Jun 2019 Jean

Bogdan Dragos

you exist most of the time

you don't exist when
my eyes are open
you don't exist when
my blood's not poisoned
when my soul's at peace
when my gut is full
and when I'm in company

So you exist most of the time
dear muse

Jun 2019 Jean

I Failed You.

Jun 2019 Jean

Jellyfish

I Failed You.

I'm sorry,
I've done it again.
I'm sorry,
It still hurts deep within.
I'm sorry,
I only do it to know that I'm alive.
I'm sorry,
I know how you feel inside.
I'm sorry,
I have a scar to hide.
I'm sorry,
I failed you that night.

#self #harm #broken #hurt #scars #scar