Drowning in a lake, perhaps to be found or left behind
Feeding what remains with body and mind

Drowning in a pool, a body of chlorination and polution
For even in death the rich are fools and cannot recieve absolution

Drowning in the ocean, returning flesh to old kin
Returning body to the waters to feed whats within

Daydreams alluring
A fun past time to be sure
But with too much they are a cause to be concerning
Living in that world can be amazing
But stay there too long
And you'll never belong
In the world around you
That is moving without end
The world that may
Forget you've ever been

Daydreams are fun
A nice home away from home
Dont dive down too far tho
Please
Or you will never see
The world that is outside your mind again
You may leave your mind
But stay too long and itll never go
The world outside will be warped
Distorted
Absolutely demolished
You'll fight to come up
And yet you never want to leave
That little old home inside your own head.
It may be a home
But its not somewhere to be found dead.

So please take care and remind yourself
Have some daydreams now and then
But put them back on the shelf when
Your mind is about to make sure the other world ends.

I feel scared
I feel afraid
My sadness and sorrow
Wont go away

Ive had these episodes before
But now...
Im having them more and more.

Its like chronic fear
Chronic paranoia it seems
Its just getting worse and worse
But no one cares.

They leave me to rot
Fear of every single little thing
Stirring around in the ***
Of my head that exist
But Im afraid of that too.

Im just scared
I want a friend
Maybe someone whose scared too.

Im not in the safety
Not in the care
Of someone who was
Supposed to be there
For me they were
Supposed to be there
But Im different from them
So they left me here
All wilted and wounded
Now Im sad
But I am also
Shaking mad

I gave them all my love
All my attention
But because of one different imperfection
In myself
They chose to leave me behind
Forget who I am
And go off and find
A new person they would trick again

They never truely were my friend

They decided to
Bring the trickery of theirs
Tricking me into being their friend
To an end

The biggest smile
Is the biggest wall
Built to hide
That is all
Darkness swirling
Deep in their skull
Monster whirling
Threwout that dull
Space where there used to be
A genuine smile
That made people happy to see
But now that space is all black
That smile is a mask
One that makes the owner turn back
To see what they used to be
And be sad to think
They'll never go and return
To that old happy smile
That could burn
A spark of happiness in everyone's face

But now they need that happiness
To help them chase
The monster thats creeping
Out of their house
To help get it out
To help round it about
To remove it from their old happy place
Where now they feel scared
Threatened,and wasted

Pay attention to those
Whose attention is drawn
To the big happy smile
That may be a mask thrown on

The scars that I hide
Hide deep behind my eyes
The claws creep
They gouge my head deep
Far below whats seen
Chained down to where my acumen
Used to be but now its gone
All thats left is the shell seen
Pretending to be
Stuck In between
the fight never ever foreseen.
It already knows it had at least
lost its ability to **** the beast

Fear is an odd
Little old thing

Supposed to protect
To help us in processing
Our world around us
While we go about prospecting

Yet all it does is alert
For no reason
As though we should
be scared of dirt

Or is it just me?
Is everyone like me?
Random episodes of fear
Just fear that is there
Scared of random things
Scared of everything
Unable to stop it
Not wanting to fight it

Why fight a battle you've never won?
I already know,my fight is now done