my mind is soft and malleable,
my heart is exactly the same.
i resent myself for it and get
angry again and again.
i crave the same as others do
when no one's in the room.
i want lasting companionship,
really and truly, i do.
i shed tears to God and ask
to fix what is wrong. i know
it's a test, but for how long?
my mind is a never ending maze.
every nook and cranny,
and whichever corner i go to
there is more to see.
dear God, fix what's wrong with
me.
my anger gets the best of me,
my mother has always said.
i use harsh words at the ones
i love and then i'm hit with regret.
words don't go back, they destroy
whatever good you had.
so i cry time and time again.
Afiifa Jeylani ©️
it really does get loud in here.