I fell in love with a boy at a coffee shop
who always ordered vanilla chai.
I knew it was love because I could
never get up the courage to speak to him.

I fell in love with a bony fingered,
anorexic boy in my math class.
I think it was the way he did the problems in his head,
so he could use the paper for listing
everything he wanted to eat that day, but wouldn’t.

I fell in love with a girl who had dreadlocks
and burn marks on her neck.
I always fantasized about touching them,
asking if they still warmed up her skin.

I fell in love with the older man at the tutoring center.
I failed Spanish so that I could spend the next semester
eye ******* him from across the study table.
I've always had a thing for married men.

I fell in love with girl who pushed up her
*****, and pouted for football players.
It may have been unrequited,
but at least I didn’t catch anything.

I fell in love with the person
who left death threats in my locker.
I’d never known someone who felt
the same way about me as I did.

I **** **** up
It's what I do
My heads on sideways
What's it to you?!

Your feelings got hurt?
***** to be you
******* *****
***** you too

I did not kiss anybody last night,
yet my body-
from the lips down-
thinks I did.

Clad in a cotton armour,
like a pitch again tent
in a miserable northern monsoon;
the chest is protected from the disappointment,
the ribs are protected from the disappointment,
as for the heart, that’s the one that gets drenched
in drops of distress-
for it is the one ***** that gets played
by the hand of the female chess player;
knowing and knowledgeable, out to get
your king for only profitable stings
and club-night-pictures-check-the-website-for-more-details,
kisses.

Emptiness swarms me,
Taunts me in my sleep.
Reminding that I’m alone.
Listing off the reasons.
Telling me there’s something
About me that nobody wants.
I try to decide what it is...
Maybe it’s my sarcasm.
Or the fact that I’m too short.
I’m “cute” but never “beautiful.”
Or my standards are just too high,
But are they, really?
All I want is someone who I can talk to.
Really talk to.
Have a deep conversation about everything.
Someone to trust.
Is it too much to ask?
Emptiness.
It takes me over
When my mind tricks itself
Into thinking I’m happy just how I am.
Taunting me
Until I just can’t sleep anymore.

Be my always friend

Not my sometimes, come and go, convenience, lonely day, bad week, or lost touch friend

Text me to say "good morning", or just to say hi
Look into my eyes
not just a glance
really look to see if I'm good like I say I am
Hug me at random times
not to show possession or cure any wrongs
just so I know you care
Invite me on adventures
we can travel the world
or walk down the street
I just want to be by your side
Make fun of me
not maliciously or all the time
point out my flaws in a loving way
Watch my favorite movies when you're alone
they'll give you a better understanding of how I see the world
Be a kid with me
we'll eat ice cream for breakfast and watch cartoons
But I know you'll do all of these things

Don't buy me things all the time
admiration can't be bought
Jealousy isn't nice, either
our bond is stronger than keeping an eye on who I spend time with
Don't pressure me to do anything
ever. period.
Don't compliment me
if it isn't true
I don't want false praise and I can feel the truth
Don't ask me to be anything I'm not
if you don't like me, leave
But I know you won't do any of these things

You're my always friend