Alone, not really At home, not really Dead, not really Is my time worth their love... not really Why did I move aside When all I wanted was to see the inside I lost all self pride I love myself but I lost a stride I like to hide Might as well risk a cry A single tear I just never said "hi" So did I expect a reply... not really
I don't feel I don't heal It's never real Why am I not able to get a deal? I never feel Pain is an impulse Love is a false alarm Anger is inside Is it a feeling? It's a weakness I miss happiness I'm Dead on the inside I see hate, in everyone From the baby to granny, Hate, raw, pure, hatred Why? Delusion, Allusion, Confusion, Save me, from me I can't handle me Me...me...Me
hey Open up Let me in Don't hold up It's the pain within hey Why not open? It's me you want Not him I'm the **** within hey Open the door I want you I need you I adore you I'm the love within hey, hey, hey, Open It's me The devil within
Hey Hey Hey Am I here? Or am I gone? What is gone? Validation, is my armor Peace, is my first love Pain is my wife Hey Hey Hey Do you hear me Or am I not mainstream enough Dancing, alone. Swimming, alone. The world is my natatorium As I swim, deeper, Deeper, Deeper, into the abyss Hey Hey Hey Look at me I know better You feel otherwise Or do you feel? Do you feel?
A single breath Back to reality Where was I I don't know Ask Mrs. Anxiety Can't focus I see fear I try to escape deeper into the belly of the beast Can't sleep Ask Mr. Anxiety I see things never existed Never will Personified in me the cure? Ask Dr. Ī
don't cry don't speak no emotion rock hard, salt of the earth never tried never will stay brave don't be a woman Softie little boy likes literature little boy turning *** little boy can't give a **** little boy is a man just a man
How happy is the quality quietness! Now superior is just the thing, To get me wondering if the quietness is prize.
Pay attention to the sob, the sob is the most desperate unpleasant person of all. Are you upset by how fearless it is? Does it tear you apart to see the sob so despairing?
I saw the the yellow uncommunicativeness of my generation destroyed, How I mourned the muteness. Are you upset by how lily-livered it is? Does it tear you apart to see the muteness so sensationalistic?
A vigil, however hard it tries, Will always be serene. Does the vigil make you shiver? does it?
How happy is the breathless gasps! Do the gasps make you shiver? does it?
A weaning, however hard it tries, Will always be heartbroken. Does the booing make you shiver? does it?
Where are you? Where am I? Why are you? I question you I adore you Who are you? Who am I to question you? Why do I have to be scared? Why is a dance Why is a dance with the devil Why do you hate Why? Am I you? Am I my own God? Show me Why do you need to show me? Why, why, why Oh my, oh my, Oh my
I want you I need you I have you my ego my ego needs you the contours of your green edges feed me I love you The way you dance with me The way you wrap around me The way you satisfy me I'm the protagonist Yet you're the hero You look You look... Into my exchequer If you danced away What will I say I'm **** I fall, no green hedges to hide behind No walls No hurt Just me I fall