I honestly think I hate everyone around me.
It is also possible I hate myself.
Jul 14, 2013
Jul 14, 2013 at 4:04 PM UTC
Tick, tick, tick
Goes the bomb that is my mind-my soul.
It seems no matter what I do, that noise follows.
Tick, tick, tick
And with that noise come
the thoughts-the feelings.
The feelings that I can never quite shake
The thoughts that I can never quite silence.
Tick, tick, tick
If one more person attacks me for my beliefs
If one more person fails to respect me as another human being,
I think I will explode.
Jul 14, 2013
Jul 14, 2013 at 3:38 PM UTC
My heart aches, from time to time,
When I think of all that's been left behind.
How I wish I could go back,
To retrieve the things that I now lack.
Is it just me who feels this way?
I feel there's so much left to say.
At least I have memories, with those I'll never part,
Holding them deeply, deeply within my heart.
May 23, 2013
May 23, 2013 at 1:39 AM UTC
i wonder why i do this to myself,
make it seem like it could be.
i find myself falling for every man i see.
what makes me think you'd want me,
the way that i want you.
i always overanalyze every little thing you do.
maybe one day it will happen,
my desire will be retuned.
until that day however,
i'll continue to feel burned.
Apr 4, 2013
Apr 4, 2013 at 6:50 PM UTC
Once again I enter the ever familiar room of loneliness
Once again I am consumed with utter unhappiness.
This place is like a jail.
Hours pass without seeing sunlight,
without venturing outside.
People so consumed with gossip,
one never knows who is the adversary,
and who is the confidant.
This is not what I anticipated,
not what I thought this chapter would bring.
I wish I could find comfort here,
find friendship,
find love.
And yet,
all I have found,
is loneliness.
Mar 8, 2013
Mar 8, 2013 at 11:31 PM UTC
who would willingly choose me?
who would willingly ever want me and my baggage?
i'm the girl you're warned about.
the sweet and innocent,
yet dark and ******* crazy.
who will love me as i am?
who could ever want to?
Feb 27, 2013
Feb 27, 2013 at 4:58 PM UTC
Head heavy,
Heart sinking,
Eyes brimming with unwelcome tears;
So many emotions I can't seem to feel.
How long will it last this time,
This emptiness?
Nothing changes,
Nothing helps.
When will I be free?
Feb 27, 2013
Feb 27, 2013 at 4:55 PM UTC
Tonight my cheeks hurt from smiling
Tonight I let my guard down
Tonight I shared a part of myself
Tonight I felt good about myself
Tonight I actually believed him
when he said I was amazing
and wonderful
and interesting
Tonight I hope that I feel this good tomorrow
Feb 6, 2013
Feb 6, 2013 at 10:58 PM UTC
What is happiness?
Will i find it?
How? When?
Is it a matter of another 50 mg?
Is it a chemical imbalance,
or a subconscious choice i make?
Pleading for my existence to end,
It is selfish and yet...
Are we really in control of our own happiness?
I don't think i am.
Then again, i don't know what i think.
But i think i want happiness
Jan 21, 2013
Jan 21, 2013 at 10:11 PM UTC
what am i doing?
how does it always get this far?
why am i here waiting for you?
jumping at the chance to have you
even if only for a moment
before you get up and walk out
like all of the times before
and all of the times to come
how can i expect you to respect me
when
i
can't
even
respect
myself
Jan 15, 2013
Jan 15, 2013 at 12:18 AM UTC