Every day I hope for rain
Just to match my pain
6 years in a daze
Go to work in a haze
Get drunk every night
Sometimes I don't even put up a fight
Feel like I'm in over my head
Wonder if I'm better off dead
Trying to convince myself there's a tomorrow
While my eyes are telling me I'm feeling nothing but sorrow
Don't know much, but I know I'm alive though
I hope that's enough when I wake up tomorrow
Every day I hope for rain
To match my daily strain
Fickle memories lecture me
"open your eyes and finally see"
And though I hear their lesson true
I can't stop thinking about me and you
Trying to convince myself there's a tomorrow
Though I'm feeling nothing but sorrow
Feel like I'm in over my head
Wonder if I'm better off dead
Every day I hope for rain
But I hope so in vain
Bright sunny skies, temperate degees
Make me want to go inside and flee
Live vicariously through my Playstation
So I don't have to feel that pain again.
Aug 12, 2022
Aug 12, 2022 at 11:20 PM UTC
Wake up late and sleep early
Everything's the same
Same salty taste
Same boring place
Same frustrating video game
Wake up early and sleep late
Everything's the same
Same Netflix show
Same footsteps below
Same flickering of the flame
Wake up and sleep
Everything's the same
Same **** routine
Same depressing scene
Same struggling to reclaim
Wake up and
Everything's the same.
Apr 6, 2017
Apr 6, 2017 at 5:55 AM UTC
The Journey winds down the lonely Road
Flanked on the sides by Spirits
Recognizing the faces nearest
They stuff my backpack, add to my Load
In their countenance is where their fear is
Starting out, weak dumb and small
With no mind for allegory
See the winding Road before me
In this beginning, I have to crawl
In this humble beginning, I begin to see
Standing now on my own two feet
Toddling down the road
Now I'm in exploring mode
Hoping for someone nice to meet
Hoping for a special Someone nice to know
Getting stronger, day-by-day
Trying to conceive the end of it all
Hoping my missteps don't make me fall
Wondering what Price I'll pay
Lost deep in introspective thought; my mind's enthralled
Now I pause along my path
Knowing I'd have to find some meat
Seeking this one special treat
Sneak away to divert His wrath
I look eagerly for a baker to entreat
The glowing Angels guard the sacred Ground
Forcing me to cut short my break
Showing, not telling, my mind to stay
A breathless whisper without a sound
That breathless whisper said all they needed to say
Now strong and tall and unperturbed
I wonder what lies beneath
The Road spans o'er what's underneath
I let my mind wander, undisturbed
And wonder about the secret hidden heath
Wiser now but youthful still
Talk and research of subjects profound
None of which fail to confound
Waiting patiently, I walk with Time to ****
While words of thoughts buzz lazily around
No longer Young but I am not old
My appetite for destruction, curbed
My longing now for just a Word
The One that can be forever untold
But only Once does It need to be heard
I am old now and growing weary
I see now the end of the Road before me
Winding up to those Benevolent Three
As I draw closer, my eyes with old age, bleary
I heard them say 'I love you dearly'
And slipped into Their Grace.
Nov 17, 2016
Nov 17, 2016 at 4:50 PM UTC
One White, pretty and clean
One Black, shady and mean
Their Puppy perceived as crazy, nice, even humdrum
The Truth is none, maybe just a conundrum
Picture a big Dog, a ******* risen from Hell
None understood, to many, just a mere shell
He loved many ******* therefore fathering many puppies
His intentions were redeeming, his soul would be condemned
Picture a small Angel, genius incarnate
She walks a lonely road, always menial, not subordinate
Angel carries a curse, and that of a strong will
For it was the choice of life that brought her thrill
Two Dogs from opposite litters and homes
Harboring different triggers from opposite roams
Meeting in a place of retribution and salvation
Trying to end the Common Search for Reconciliation
Two dogs, one Black, one White
Seeing them together, a very odd sight
Only one Puppy would leave their nest
Always in turmoil, never knowing which Dog barks Next.
Oct 13, 2016
Oct 13, 2016 at 5:39 AM UTC
Wanting to love you as a friend
But also to start this over again
For sure, my heart is on the mend
Eyes that are closed can't see the end
But that doesn't mean that I won't care
That I will never again be there
I just want to make sure we're fair
While Moving (on) to the next stair
We are in this together now
And will make it out somehow
No matter how much sweat drips from our brow
We'll steel our resolve and grab a towel
I wish that we could forever be
That would be so perfect to me
Eyes still closed, so I don't see
Trying to escape from reality
It's not your fault that I'm this way
I wish so bad that you could stay
Eventually, I will be okay
But eventually is not today
Please don't let this make you sad
I hope this doesn't make you mad
Just know that in the time we had
You made me feel much more than glad
You made me love more that I could love
You became all I was thinking of
But like in a wedding, I release a dove
In peace, I have to set free my Love
Apr 1, 2016
Apr 1, 2016 at 4:17 AM UTC
Perpetually ****** peeved and put-out
Cocked my cans back to give them a clout
Surrounded by slithering serpents suffocating my shout
Asking angry ******** what their apathy is about
Longing for her luscious locks to be locked with a look
Burgeoning, bumbling, believing love's broken book
Tired of the teasing, I take what I've come to took
Nestling near, cradling only my pillow in my arm crook
********* ******* **** right you're going down
Fixing your ******* face into a freckled frown
Grouchy and greedy, I gasped seeing her gown
Hungry and ***** I can't leave the scent, like a hound
Where was 'we' written in the wedding
Roaring raucously, I rip off her ring
Zealous, jeaous, I zag away from my zig
Can't you cantankerous ***** see I want to be KING
Feb 5, 2016
Feb 5, 2016 at 1:14 PM UTC
I wish these lines in my mind would straighten out
Not really sure how they got twisted about
All I want to do is break free and shout
But no, that's not what it's all about
I wish I understood where I stand
I am, after all, only a man
I just want to reach out, and again feel your hand
But I can't, after all, I'm only a man
I'm so tired that a forever sleep is too short
I'm so confused and my thoughts must be sorted
I don't know if I want or need you Lauren
I need my thoughts to be sorted.
Nov 18, 2015
Nov 18, 2015 at 10:43 AM UTC
Hush now child, it'll all be fine
I'm right here, right by your side
Here's where I always hope I'll be
Wrapped in arms of a lover who loves me
Hush now darling, it'll be alright
I'm fighting hard with demons of the night
But all for you, and never in vain
I'll fight forever, for I've so much to gain
Hush now baby, I'm here with you
I hope that nothing gets between us two
I hope our love can go on and on
And I'll wake up next to you each and every dawn
Hush now dear, they're coming near
Stay low and wait until till it's clear
I'll signal when we can keep going
Crouch down, leave nothing showing!
Hush now, I'm through with listening
Looking at you, my eyes glistening
You were the last suspect in this crime
And now I realize we never had time
Nov 12, 2015
Nov 12, 2015 at 1:13 PM UTC
Dear God, are you there?
Or am I just praying to air?
I once believed beyond doubt in you
And now I just don't know what's true
Dear God, can you help?
Can't you hear my fearful yelp?
I don't wish to be an issue
I just want to know if I would miss you
Dear God, I'm struggling here
I'm not used to not feeling you near
To tell you the truth, I'm really scared
I miss the trust we used to share
Dear God, is Love real?
Is it really the biggest deal?
How can I know Love without my past?
How can I know Love's meant to last?
Dear God, please don't let me go
There's things I've learned I don't wish to know
Please show me God what I can do
Anything, everything, to get back close to you
Nov 6, 2015
Nov 6, 2015 at 12:45 PM UTC
Poetry shouldn't make you sad
Or bring you to your knees
It's not always about something bad
A fact few choose to see
Poetry should be pure happiness
A candle in dark night
Not that Poetry's always bliss
But not quite so dark as bright
Poetry shouldn't be your pain
The source of all your woes
It shouldn't blot your sunny days
Not send you sinking to a place below
Poetry should be your armor
What reflects away the hurt
Will the metal get dented? Sure
But Poetry's a friend that won't desert
Poetry should be your crutch
What you use to cope
Poetry can mean so much
Poetry is hope
Poetry should draw you close
Like a warm fire and blanket in cold
Comforting when you need it the most
A voice when yours isn't so bold
Poetry is a magical thing
Because it's much more than lines
It's the emotions that from those words spring
That makes a poem fine
Poetry is not just for sad;
It is for happy too
I hope this poem's made you mad
Now you can write some too!
Nov 6, 2015
Nov 6, 2015 at 12:30 PM UTC