The sun has been shining a little brighter and the flowers are starting to regain their glow, the rivers are de freezing and the snow is slowly melting
Your favourite lilies in my hand smell heavenly, how ironic
The mud beneath my knees is cold and I can feel your smile on it
I can't help but wonder
How are you? Are you happy?
Is it true what they tell me?
Are you truly in a better place?
Are you dancing with an angle and drinking elixir up there?
I hope you are
Down here though,
I still feel frozen in that cold December of last year
I still hear your mellifluous laugh in the cold midnight breeze
I still feel your presence on the vacant side of the bed
But, as the sun gets warmer and the flowers regain their colour
I think I will be fine;
Maybe,
I will even convince myself that you are indeed in a better place
And,
That maybe you miss me a little too.
Sep 21, 2021
Sep 21, 2021 at 7:42 AM UTC
The letters you used to send me initially, were naughty and young
Thrown at my window or slid under my door
But somehow , someday,
They started being delivered by a man in a uniform
I remember
There was a blue roofed house on the postcard you sent me, it was filled with promises you couldn't keep
The letters, they told me stories
They talked about how you would like to live in a blue roofed house with me
Once, they told me how, when you get the chance to come back you'd hold me in your arms, love me the way I deserved and how you would show me the world
Another time, the letters reminded me of my past with you,
About the time when we used to walk hand in hand on the cobbled bridge at night where you told me your dreams
Then they reminded me of the time you kissed me on the roof of my house
But,
The unfulfilled promises, the sweet kisses and the memories are only ink and paper now, which sit inside a box on top of my cupboard
And,
The blue roofed house is a mere fantasy that rests on a paper beneath my pillow.
Sep 16, 2021
Sep 16, 2021 at 1:42 AM UTC
The iridescent ocean glimmered under the moon's soft glow
Our laughs laced with love and humor, mixed with the wet winds of the night as we raced the waves
Sand on our bodies , salt in our hair
And stars in our eyes
We looked at each other with enough love to make even the moon shy
Salty kisses and sandy touches were the only things on our minds
We were in a lavender haze under the midnight sky
We wished that the evil clock of time could stop in this very moment
Where,
It felt like maybe, just maybe, heaven was real.
Jul 26, 2021
Jul 26, 2021 at 2:21 PM UTC
Felt the ghost of your kisses on my neck
As I danced with your silhouette
To cigarettes after ***
It was late
But we were drunk on love' and wine
And
I laughed as your soft breath tickled my ear as you whispered sweet nothings
As the night sky got darker
You held onto me like you never wanted to let go
But when I tried to hold onto you
Your form combusted in a millon tiny fragments and dissipated into thin air
And I was left clutching onto emptiness
Eyes glazed over with dreams
I cried tears of remembrance
With a wine glass in my hand
I danced with your silhouette.
Mar 7, 2021
Mar 7, 2021 at 3:02 PM UTC
All I did was gaze at you
But you looked at me worried
And then you touched my face
And gently wiped the tears that had somehow managed to betray my eyes and run down my cheeks
' don't cry for me...everything is over I am in a better place' you said
And I believed you
Then you leaned down and looked at my lips
As if asking for my permission
I met you in the middle
and as if the stars colliding I felt every emotion
I felt like I was swimming in the excelsior of life and youth
We parted
And you gazed at me
And I knew right then and there
That
This was where I want to be forever.
Dec 29, 2020
Dec 29, 2020 at 2:20 AM UTC
You told me how you went through so much pain in your small life of 18 years
You told me what your tiny 10 year old eyes witnessed
Something that no one should ever go through
You told me how your dad got in the claws of one of the worst sins
Alcoholism
And how that was the start of so many more sins
You told me how you saw your mom suffer with those tiny eyes
How you tried to protect your mom
At such a young age and succeeded
You told me how karma got your dad
You told me how you saw your mom fight thru the pain for 8 years and became the strongest person you knew
That night
You told me everything
Everything that was good and bad
Dec 29, 2020
Dec 29, 2020 at 2:17 AM UTC
You took my hand and lead me to your car
The drive felt like forever and too short at the same time
We stopped near a beach and you got down and took me to a cliff near the beach overlooking a million and one stars
The view was breathtaking but I was too enticed by you to notice it
We sat down and gazed at the stars
And I asked you the one thing that was eating me since the time I layed my eyes on you
'What is the story behind the pain in your eyes?'
Dec 29, 2020
Dec 29, 2020 at 2:16 AM UTC
I took your hand and and made my way towards the dance floor
The whole while
We exchanged a thousand and one smiles
And our names
As if we didn't already know them
You told me how enchanting I looked in my peach dress
And made me feel like the most beautiful girl
The dance was nearing an end but I didn't wanna let go off of you yet
Somehow you read my thoughts
And you leaned down and whispered
'Am I allowed to take you some place special?'
I smiled and whispered back a yes
Dec 29, 2020
Dec 29, 2020 at 2:13 AM UTC
You didn't see me at first
But as I got closer you saw me,
With a look of familiarity in your eyes
As if we'd know each other forever
I walked closer and smiled
You still looked shocked
As if I hadnt already caught you staring at me throughout the whole night
I stood in front of you
And whispered a small hey
And you looked down as if shy
And whispered a small hey back
I didn't know what else to say
So I asked you to dance with me
You looked up
And the light bounced off of your sharp features making your beautiful face glow
And then something happened
Something that made my heart skip a beat
You smiled
A smile so beautiful that even made the enchanting northern lights timorous
A smile that touched your eyes
Made them glow
And you said yes
Dec 29, 2020
Dec 29, 2020 at 12:26 AM UTC
One night
With the retro colours illuminating the walls of our school stadium
Everyone dazed under the mysteriously spiked fruit punch and
High on the music of our last school prom
I saw you,
Standing alone in a corner
Looking like a fallen angel
Lost among the humans
I decided to take faith in my hands and made my way towards you
Dec 28, 2020
Dec 28, 2020 at 11:02 PM UTC