IT SEEMS WITH YOU I AM ALWAYS SAD
I WRITE MI POEMS IN A HARDENED STATE
I FIGHT FOR SOMETHING YOU CLAIM REAL
BUT IS FAKE
I FIGHT FOR SOMETHING SO REAL TO MI
BUT ON YOUR PART IS FAKE
IT SEEMS LIKE WITH YOU ITS ALWAYS SOMETHING
I FIND MI SELF NO LONGER ATTRACTED
I FIND MI SELF SADENED BY YOUR BOGUS ACTIONS
AND WELL YOU DONT CARE
SO WHY SHOULD I ?
A CHEATER WILL ALWAYS BE A CHEATER
AND WELL YOU WANT MI TO BE CONVINCED OTHERWISE
YOU COULD HAVE FOOLED MI ONCE YES
BUT NO I AM NO LONGER BLIND
I NO LONGER SEEK TRUTH THROUGH YOUR EYES
I NO LONGER FEEL HURT FROM YOUR LIES
ITS TIME FOR MI TO GRAB MI HAPPINESS BACK
ITS TIME FOR MI TO BE THE PERSON I AM ACUSTOMED TO
AND I CANT CLEARLY BE THAT
TRYING TO WORK THIS OUT AND BEING WITH YOU
SO HERE'S MY FAIRWELL HERE'S MY PARDON
Sep 27, 2021
Sep 27, 2021 at 7:43 PM UTC
I sat there and gazed into your eyes
I fell for you
I sat there and and seen mi self with you forever
I sat there and analyzed your every movement your every gesture
I know when you lie
I know when you're not being entirely truthful
And i know when you have things to hide
It was a point in time ,
I couldn't look at you
It was a point where i could no longer see you in mi life
A point where i didn't wanna fight anymore
A point where i gave up on you
Of course i still felt you we did have good times
But then the bad out weighed and well that was mi que
You pulled mi back with the same charm that was familiar to mi
You pulled mi back being you
With the love you claimed you had
But never grew the love that was non existent
But i never knew
It was all a game
I was just a pawn
Fighting for a position im supposed to be secure in
I am not , I refuse to
If i don't have it find another to fill that spot
I'm over it
Sep 26, 2021
Sep 26, 2021 at 1:23 PM UTC
All the time non stop its just me
nonstop all the time its just me
Why must i beg for your time
i just want a little of your time
Sleepless nights i toss and turn
i toss and turn
You make promises , they crash and burn
they crash and burn
So many times i try just to taste a little of your time
a little of your affection, just a little
but nothing always nothing
but we argue about space
How could we argue about space
when they're no one there you're never here
Who is she ? Who is she?
Or who are they?
What are we doing here?
Why do i stay in a loveless empty relationship?
You tell mi you love mi but you show mi otherwise
No more time to cry
No more empty bed no more sleepless nights
No more being alone
Maybe its time to move on from this torture
And for mi to worry about mi future
Im done feeling like this
Im done trying to explain
Im done with this loneliness game
Sep 26, 2021
Sep 26, 2021 at 1:24 AM UTC
THE REASONS FOR US BEING IN THIS PLACE WE ARE
THE MISCOMMUNICATION THE DIFFERENT SWAYS
THE MIXTURE OF WATER AND OIL
THE EMBALANCE OF TRUST THE MISUSE OF LOVE
THE REASONS FOR US NOT SEEING EYE TO EYE
THE CLOSED EARS AND THE POINTING OF FINGERS
THE CLOSENESS OF THE THE MINDS THE SELFISHNESS
OF WANTING THINGS OUR OWN WAY WITH NO COMPROMISE
THIS SEEMS AS THOUGH IT IS COMING TO AN END
TO A BEAUTIFUL DEMISE
THE RESONS FOR US BEING SO TOXIC AND THE LIST GOES ON
THE PAST NOT BEING FORGIVEN AND FORGOTTEN
THE REOCCURING EVENTS OF WHAT WE DO THAT KEEP OPEN WOUNDS JUST THAT WITH AN ATTITUDE OF **** HOW YOU FEEL WHAT ABOUT MI AND THE LIST GOES ON
THE LOVE MAYBE STRONG BUT THE HATE MAYBE THAT STRONGER
A RELATIONSHIP THAT YOU FEEL STUCK WITH NO ESCAPE
AND WHEN YOU DO MAKE THE ATTEMPT YOUR OWN REALITY HITS THAT THIS IS YOUR REALITY THAT THIS IS YOUR REALITY THAT THIS IS YOUR REALITY IT IS BUT A FRAGMENT OF YOUR HISTORY AT THE MOMENT AND THE LIST GOES ON
THE REASONS FOR US BEING HERE IN THIS STUPPER IS OUR OWN FAULTS THE MANY DRINKS WE FELT WE HAD TO TAKE THE MANY PUFFS OF A COOL CIG TO EASE THE PAIN THAT WE INFLICT ON ONE ANOTHER AND ALLOW EACH TO DEAL ALONE AND THE LIST GOES ON
SO WHY ARE WE HERE? WHAT ARE WE DOING?
DO IT GET BETTER OR WORSE?
Sep 25, 2021
Sep 25, 2021 at 10:01 PM UTC
I didn't realize that I loved you
But I figured that I couldn't love you
I tried not to love you
But look at mi now
Oh how I love to love you
Sitting here fighting it
Wanting to be a player forever
But at the same time wanting mi happily ever after
How indecisive of mi
But I gave in
To a love so true
A love so real
A love so genuine
And leave? you ? are you crazy?
No I never will
I just didn't realize that I loved you
I figured that i couldn't love you
Yea I tried not to love you
But here we are babes
oh mii how I love you
Dec 26, 2020
Dec 26, 2020 at 8:09 PM UTC
I know you have been through alot
I know you have patiently waited with countless areas of disappointments
I know that you dont think you are appreciated
But lift your head mi sweet i am here for you
And everything will be alright
I know that you have the heart of gold
And in return people treat you cold but i wont
never in a million years
And if we were to ever break i would break down into a million tears
I know you have gon threw alot my love
But everything is going to be alright
I know that you feel like no one has your back
how about that
I feel like we are one hence we are attached
My king that was the frog that i kissed
You turned into that handsome prince
then throughout the years we upgraded yes
things may happen but just know daddyo
through it all everything is going to be alright
Dec 26, 2020
Dec 26, 2020 at 3:11 PM UTC
I am tired
I am tired of people wanting mi to be who they want mi to be
I am tired of people lying to mi
I am tired of being treated differently
When I have broken mi neck for so many others to deny mi
or not come threw for mi
I am tired
I am tired of the broken promises
of the disappointments of the fake luv
I'm just doo tired i just wanna be me
i just want to be accepted for who I am
I just want the same treatment that i give to others
Im just so **** tired
Dec 26, 2020
Dec 26, 2020 at 3:01 PM UTC
The glitter and glamor
Is it all worth it
The shimmer and shine
Putting the work in
The living up to other peoples expectations
The grind to get to the top , patiently waiting
Is it worth it ?
The grass is greener they say
A home is a home with a family that prays
Thats what they say
But is this all worth it
The life i so deserve ready so fast
Putting all those feelings of future in past
Is it all worth it
The ruby's the diamonds
The the shoes clothes all designers
I would rather love what I have
And that is you
Why look for something that is so visible
in mi face I can see you .... crystal
clearly made for each other
Soul mates some might say
The missing piece to this here puzzle
So no it wouldn't be worth it
Not all the glitters neither the gold
Not all the all the richest in the world
Nothing would ever break mi away from you
forever your girl
Dec 9, 2020
Dec 9, 2020 at 10:42 PM UTC
Is it possible to love 2 men at the same time?
For the similarity and the differences
Could they both be mine?
Am I able to bake the cake?
And maybe eat it too?
Can i lay with you one night ?
And the next lay with you ?
It is possible to feel so deeply?
For 2 complete strangers?
Who bring these emotions out of mi?
Can we make plans to conceive a child?
mi and you and you and mi?
Can we live this way forever peacefully?
I really don't want to let one go
Please don't make mi
Do I really have to?
Or can I hold on tighter?
And never let go
Of you or you
for ever be mi husband and forever be mi boo
Is this really possible?
To love these 2 unconditionally?
wanting this thing to last
For eternity
What do I do?
Someone please help mi ... and fast
Dec 5, 2020
Dec 5, 2020 at 10:21 PM UTC
Born into this world
So corrupt
A world of popularity
Phat pockets and big butts
Born into this world
Of no more traditional traits
No more outing
No more dates
Born into this world
Where love no longer exists
A world filled of envy
Of jealousy and of hate
Born into a world
Of selfishness
Of greed
And self entitlement
A world where
Toxic energy is praised
Where
Peace is a mere thing of the past
I'm born into this world
Where nothing makes sense any more
Where being classy is frowned upon
And you're only noticed if you're a *****
Where bad is now good
And material things well they're far more important than god
A world of killing ... oh god this world
It's killing mi
A world of destruction ... yes this world if self destructing
Yes I am born into this world fortunately and unfortunately
Dec 5, 2020
Dec 5, 2020 at 10:06 PM UTC