xoandre

American

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@xoandre

American

Joined 2012

My poetry is my form of a Journal. It is my diary in which I keep many hidden gems of personality and disorder. At least a third of the poems are very dark in mood and tragic to read. However, I hope that by revealing these thoughts and emotions and desires and frustrations and opinions – and even parts of my life story – I may help those who are in similar circumstances and emotional traps. Living in the cage of fear and depression is an all-too common state of being in the world. The fact that I survived so many doubts and near-suicidal thoughts to become a whole and confident individual should be proof that – despite how objectionable, offensive, or outright terrifying my poems may be – those individuals who fear to open up can do so with written words. I have recently begun recording my poetry and have over 100 spoken performances on SoundCloud: http://soundcloud.com/xoandremoats/sets/poetry-1989-1996