You once asked me why I never left.
"Familiarity" was my answer.
I often answered my phone without looking who was calling me but once I heard your voice, i already knew it was you.
You had the habit of sneaking up on me, but even a couple meters away I already know that you're around. Your scent that smells like coffee and cigarettes with a pinch of lavander lingers through the air and I already knew that you were there.
We used to stay all night on our rooftop just to see the stars I loved. I counted every plane that would pass by and you would count the hours of sleep you get from then on. For a moment there was silence and I knew you fell asleep, even breaths and slighty snoring, but i dont mind. I loved the way your face's calms when you sleep, your lips curve at one side and your eyebrows not scrunched up like always. From then on, i knew i would love to wake up everyday to your view.
After a couple of months you asked me why I was leaving you.
"Familiarity" was my answer.
Days would pass and you seldomly call or text me. The only time i could hear your voice was when I look through our old videos.
Time was never on our side, we suddenly had no time for each other. There were no more time for making out, no more time for some warm hugs, no more time to share how was our day. No more time to say and let the other feel loved.
It rained and there were no stars in the sky that night. I fell asleep on the window seat, watching every raindrop fall on the glass. The next morning when I woke up, it was like you were never there.
Jul 28, 2015
Jul 28, 2015 at 6:24 AM UTC
Meeting you was one of the greastest moments in my life
Another one was falling for you.
Reality is,
You are all I wanted, still want.
Feb 22, 2015
Feb 22, 2015 at 3:33 PM UTC
1AM
"Hello?"
2AM
"I miss you"
"Why did you let go"
"Was I not enough?"
*"Do you have someone else to let you see all skin and bones?
Someone who could see through all those muscles and enlighten your soul?
Someone who would hold you until the morning light?
Someone who could love you even with all your flaws?
Someone who could love you more because of them and think that you're beautiful?*
"I loved you."
"I still do."
*"You know what? **** YOU**, **** you because you made me fall. Made me think that you would catch me but in the end I realized that you never to do so. **** you, for wasting my time, making me think that you were worth my while. Lastly, **** you, I am still inlove with you*
7AM
What have I done.
1AM
"Hello?"
Dec 21, 2014
Dec 21, 2014 at 3:43 PM UTC
I wrote this for you
A mere note that you may read from time to time
May be thought as of trash or possibly something that can make you feel
Here is a letter for you to know
Everything will turn out better in the end
Rather than letting everything bottled up; Speak to me
Enlighten me for I am here.
Dec 21, 2014
Dec 21, 2014 at 3:25 PM UTC
I wrote my name on a paper
Folded it and kept it for later.
Everyone around me seamed happy;
Everything looked in place.
Lost in this world full of madness,
"A penny for your thoughts? are you glad or filled with sadness"
Lost in my thoughts filled with sadness,
Opened the paper with spilled ink
Now staring at it and letting everything sink that;
Even I who always smiles can have the most lonely mind.
Dec 21, 2014
Dec 21, 2014 at 3:43 AM UTC
Caring for you was all I did
Even though I risked something that I should not have
Rare is what you are
A person who I never thought I could fall inlove with
Lost the time and made me forget sadness
Didn't make me feel unwanted
Even so, you still left me with scars that will never heal
Kisses that will never be forgotten
Everything is different
Now strangers that were once coherent
Dec 20, 2014
Dec 20, 2014 at 2:29 PM UTC