wake up everyday,
speak to people kindly everyday,
keep up with your life everyday,
work everyday,
look nice everyday,
but why? what is the end result?
people to like you?
to feel happiness inside?
everything feels pointless,
yet i still do it.
but why?
Mar 30
Mar 30, 2026 at 9:13 PM UTC
if i had a flower
for every time i thought of you,
i'd have a dying garden
Feb 16, 2024
Feb 16, 2024 at 5:31 AM UTC
is giving you my all not enough?
is paying attention to you and only you not enough?
is doing everything i can to please you not enough?
is breaking myself for you not enough?
are my genuine and pure feelings not enough?
why do i need to give up my body to feel loved?
why do i need to be disgusted with myself in order to feel wanted?
why do i need to be sexualized to be seen?
is touching me the only way to get to know me?
is using me the only way i'm useful?
is it the only thing i'm needed for?
the only thing i'm good for?
am i undeserving of true love?
Feb 16, 2024
Feb 16, 2024 at 5:23 AM UTC
my love for you will be the death of me
it fills me up, fills up every millimeter of empty space in my body
it moves my organs around to make room
it engulfs me, and swallows me whole
every moment i'm awake feels like i'm drowning in it
it travels up my body, up to my throat
every moment i'm awake feels like i'm suffocating on it
at night i wake up thrashing, grasping at my throat, begging to be allowed room for air
it travels up my body, up to my head
every moment i'm awake feels like i spend it thinking about you
you take control of my thoughts, my feelings
you're like a parasite i can't get rid of
my love for you will be the death of me.
Feb 16, 2024
Feb 16, 2024 at 4:51 AM UTC
i talk to the moon and stars every night
pretending it's you.
i wonder if you can hear me,
even if its a tiny whisper of the wind
i wonder if you know when im thinking of you,
even if its just a small suspicion in the back of your mind
i wonder if you still think of me, and all the fun we had,
even if it's just for a second.
Jun 13, 2022
Jun 13, 2022 at 1:37 AM UTC
they bullied you and called you names? poor little thing, i know you were only trying to play with them. im sorry dear, how about we take you a bath and braid your hair? you and me can play together after that, it’ll be much better than playing with them. it’ll be alright, darling, dont worry. i’ll make all your little cuts and scrapes better in a moment. please dont cry im sorry, i didnt mean to press down on your bruise.
wait here, let me get band aids.
Jan 7, 2022
Jan 7, 2022 at 6:48 AM UTC
go rot in your room, child.
mommy doesnt love you.
go on, lock the door and never come back out.
play with your crayons little girl, draw that monster in your closet.
oh? whats this? the monster's beginning to look a lot like you.
go to bed, its starting to get late.
dont sleep with the lights on, mommy'll get mad.
but if you turn them off, the he'll get you.
he'll come into your room at night, like he always does.
the real monster. the one that touches you in weird ways.
you're living a nightmare.
you cant get away from him, he says he'll hurt you.
mommy doesnt care, she never has.
go play on the roof and fall off, little girl.
maybe then you'll be able to sleep without worrying about monsters.
maybe then mommy'll care about you.
just one more step, little girl.
now jump.
goodnight.
Jul 22, 2021
Jul 22, 2021 at 6:31 AM UTC
dont stop hurting me, darling
i dont care
as long as youre still there
Jul 22, 2021
Jul 22, 2021 at 5:58 AM UTC
you're a useless, useless child.
you cant do anything right.
go isolate yourself little girl,
maybe that'll make you feel better.
but oh look at that,
she's sliding the blade across her wrists,
and starts feeling light headed.
but what's this? shes smiling?
no, no, no!! she cant be happy!! she doesnt deserve it!!
but its too late, shes dying.
shes a useless, useless dead little girl
laying in a pool of her blood.
a useless, useless corpse,
that doesnt know how to do anything right.
now what about funeral expenses?
shes a burden even after shes passed.
she'll always be a useless, useless child
Jun 19, 2021
Jun 19, 2021 at 10:32 PM UTC
its never-ending torture.
you're in my dreams at night,
you've taken over my thoughts during the day,
i cant get a break.
but, maybe i dont want to
maybe, secretly, i like it.
maybe, just maybe,
im looking forward to it,
this never-ending torture.
it might not be so bad.
Jun 17, 2021
Jun 17, 2021 at 2:25 AM UTC