Each cut...is a message.
But most can't Decipher
They don't understand the constant panic
The fear of life and death
The pain of smiling when you want to cry
The feeling of self Hatred and being unworthy.
Useless. A waste of space. Not belonging
They only see what you show them
Never trying to get a better look at the picture painted Before their eyes
Eve. If they knew they'd just ignore it.
Like everyone else do.
Each cut is a symbol
Every scratch is a mark
All my bruises are reminders
I hate to see them.
Clear on my skin
Hidden like the emotions
Deep with in
I drown in my own regrets
Tasting every bit of sorrow
Talking with doubt everyday
Feeling numb
But caged in by A burning fire of rage
I can't explain it
I don't want to say
To communicate this...with someone other than me
I'd rather die
But I don't think you understand yet...
The hidden picture
All behind the scenes
Maybe look harder....
For the real me
Jul 1, 2021
Jul 1, 2021 at 8:59 AM UTC
You say I'm wrong
but you know I'm right
which is why we always fight.
I try to be the best I can
but you just want the attention of a man
not the love or care I give
threatening to take my life
when its already yours
I want to make you happy
you just want the money
you don't care
I don't understand...
I want to love you
but I just can't
No matter what I do
it's never enough
I'll do want you to want
just please accept my love
I'll do anything for you
as long as your mine
Jul 1, 2021
Jul 1, 2021 at 8:53 AM UTC
You can pretend to be an angel
But I can see your horns in the shadow you cast
You can say you love me by day
And scream you hate at night
Act dumb all you want
But I know your a cunning snake
Look as sweet as a butterfly
While deep down your venomous spider
I can see what you try to hide
And yet....
I still let you into my life.
I gave you my heart
And you gave me a knife
To prove my love
You want me to die
now I bleed
Whilst you watch me weep
Jun 4, 2021
Jun 4, 2021 at 7:30 PM UTC
On your bed
you lay on your back
wrapped up in your favorite cover
Your lamp is on
bringing light to your room
Not too dark but not too bright
a book in hand
One you seem to enjoy
You carefully read over most of the words
sometimes going too fast and restarting the page
You may laugh at what they say
Or cry from the loss of a character
maybe even believe you're in the story yourself
With the peace and quiet of the world around you
It's easy to get lost in your book
Page after page
You get eager to know what happens next
not getting tried of the action, adventure, or romance
All of it keeping you on edge
You read until your eyes wake
and the sun begins to rise
not realizing how you lost time
But all is well
it was worth it
in the end
You finish the book
and the story ends
Now you seek out another
just for the adrenaline
of a new world
What will you read next...
Apr 15, 2021
Apr 15, 2021 at 8:08 AM UTC
We seek out a new world
explore what we can
Find to creatures in the land
whether you be a woman or man
You dive headfirst into the challenge
Not prepared for what might happen
To find what was lost
and bring back home
just to study the unknown
Suppiles is limited so use it wisely
Time is percious
but don't rush
Be aware of what lurks in the dark
animals like we've never seen before
hidden deep with the ground
Some may hide out of fear
of what could be there
But in your mind
you say
"You never know until you get there"
living by your words
Even if it means
travelling to the darkess city
or a lost forest
even a cave no one has ever seen.
You do it for the fun
and for the rush
It's like a new adventure every day
"What's next?"
is what you'd say
Apr 9, 2021
Apr 9, 2021 at 4:33 PM UTC
Day into night
The moon always in the sky
at anytime Day or Night
As the Sunsets
it's hidden behind the moon
giving it a dim glow
star shows for miles and miles
does it ever end?
most people are sleep
while some stay awake
Day into Night
it's all the same
it's not complete darkness
the moon is just not there
Day into Night
but nothing is here
Day into night
The moon always in the sky
at anytime Day or Night
As the Sunsets
it's hidden behind the moon
giving it a dim glow
star shows for miles and miles
does it ever end?
most people are sleep
while some stay awake
Day into Night
it's all the same
it's not complete darkness
the moon is just not there
Day into Night
but nothing is here
Apr 5, 2021
Apr 5, 2021 at 7:14 PM UTC
Father is my death,
life is my mother.
Pain is my sister
fear is my brother.
Anger is my earth
while depression is my ocean
Anxiety is my air
My broken heart is the ground
And my lost soul is the sky
and when it rains i cry
Forrest fires of rage
Thunder storms of hate
The shadow covering more the half of the ground
Evil intentions for me....
Thought of suicide
Cuts on my wrist
Harming each tree in my mind
Hurting the plant every time i bled
Like a poison to my head
Blocking out the light
letting all plant life die
refusing to replace each seed
Soon letting the rivers run dry
Leaving me thirsty
killing the happiness that once flowed through me
Like striking down animal with a gun.
But it's just me........
Killing my own f**ked up world
Apr 5, 2021
Apr 5, 2021 at 7:14 PM UTC
A body bigger than anything we've seen before
Wings longer than a bus and wider than a house
Teeth sharp and point like looking in a alligators mouth!
Scales shining like a ruby in the light
A tail swaying so hard it hit most rocks
Leg's that crushes the ground beneath it's feet
Claws to ripped fresh meat
A roar so loud
It pierced the clouds
Elements of all sorts
Fire, Earth, Air Wind, Metal
So much more
A beast with such power
Sure to make you cowered
Only the bravest dare go against it
Sleeping in caves
Protecting the treasure
So will guide you and some will ****
It's all up to their will
Facing a creature so intelligent
It's would cause fear and worry
But also worship and love
We all know the beast i speak of
The dragon! It goes by many names
The thing we all grew to love
A dragon, More like a god from above
A blessing and A Curse
That's the best way to put it
A Dragon i bet you can't wait to see it
To see it in the sky
Flying high over the town
Hearing roars the sound so close yet so far
Wishing to be blessed
We all know what a dragon is capable of
But see we will risk everything just to get near
A dragon
Something we both love and Fear
Apr 5, 2021
Apr 5, 2021 at 7:13 PM UTC
Addicted to the pills
Taking 'em several times a day
I'm faded on the couch
Staring at ceiling
Trying to figure out why I'm even living
Giving up on life
Suicidal thoughts flowing through my mind
Smoking every day losing the time
Popping another pill or two
Trying to escape reality
Always in love
But people keep hurting me
I tried to survive and fight
But I let the **** and drugs take over my life
now laying on the floor
Foaming out the mouth
Eyes rolled back
All because everything is going south
Depression got the better of me so I turn to the drugs
Writing music and poems
But that wasn't enough
People wouldn't listen
Now look what happened
I'm dying all because no helped heal my sadness
No one bothers to care
always saying "I'm fine"
When really it's all a lie
You look at the cuts on my wrist
Seeing the lines and words curved in
Tears in your eyes
Your now upset because you didn't realize
I was calling out for help
But I got ignored instead
Now my body on the floor
I'm already dead
9-1-1 on the phone
You trying to get me to wake up
eyes all white
My body twitching
I'm getting lost in the darkness
I feel numb, without feelings
I can't feel the sadness
Is this what death is like?
It feels so cold and empty
I don't see a light
Trapped in a void
But I can hear voices from afar
"CLEAR," said the voice
But there was no respond
getting colder by the second
My heart stops beating
And my body stops moving
The last thing I hear is
"I sorry I couldn't help you-"
Tears of a girl falling down her face
I'm sorry baby
I just couldn't take it anymore
I let the pills take me away
Overdosing on the floor
is what was happening anyways
(But at least all the pain will go away)
.................
Apr 5, 2021
Apr 5, 2021 at 7:12 PM UTC
It sounds strange
But the Ocean is a soup
You have your water
and the salt
Fish for the meat
And seaweed and other plants
You can cook it all up
then boom you have a soup
All your ingredients
in one huge bowl
mixing it to together
adding more spices everyday
So like i said
THE OCEAN IS A SOUP
Apr 5, 2021
Apr 5, 2021 at 7:11 PM UTC