I am like a piece of dirt down by the site of the river
who refused to be blown by the wind
I looking down at myself for being so filthy
Useless to myself and my environment
what can I do?
I'd looked at you for the very first time and couldn't tell our difference
it felt like we've been together in the life that passed
the life we can't remember
who we was or what we were
Deep down you wet soul i can feel the emptiness deep down
i know you're in love with someone else like i was before you
but by now
i think you should have know for yourself
we're both rejects
May 23, 2023
May 23, 2023 at 7:22 PM UTC
I met her today.
Slow breathing, sweaty palms.
I feel so wet like it was rainy,
No it wasn't.
Am I scared?
Oh no but don't want to make a fool of myself.
That dark made it easier!.
Try to calm yourself...
she smelled like a bush of red roses,
her smile was like a star dashing through the sky.
She is soft like silk.
She had me thinking my whole future in a blink.
I want to spend my life with this beauty,
Her face, I still scramble for the right words to discribe her.
She is a goddest.
My eyes have behold a pinnacle of beauty.
Selecting my words
I hope I said nothing wrong
I HOPE I IMPRESSED HER
because I may look calm outside
But I was shaking in my mind
May 23, 2023
May 23, 2023 at 7:20 PM UTC
The earth will unit and break again
Time will pass and things shall change
But breaking us will be hard to do.
Cause ...
We're soul stuck
May 5, 2019
May 5, 2019 at 2:02 PM UTC
Loving you is addictive,
I try to stop but I only find myself loving you the more,
worst of all if I get mad at you.
I stick strongly with fear of ever losing you.
If time is all we need then I give my life's time...
I am crazy about you.
And every letter of the words the spells your name.
I might avoid talking to you.
But I always repeat conversation of us in my head.
Modified with each word snitch I love you and I need you.
If I could I will...
love you till the end of time.
And as time has no end,
I'll love you till my last breathe...
If you are my prison cell, don't ever release me.
Feb 9, 2019
Feb 9, 2019 at 12:29 PM UTC
In my dream you are mine.
But in my life you are a beautiful dream,
You are my soul
My very Existence
My beautiful soul
that could give me an eternal life.
Maybe worst
I am scared of you, My weakness : endless breathing
But the things I think I can not say.
I wanna tell you!
Yes, I am a good writer
at least that helps me sleep
I've made the most important discovery of my life,
Only if I'm right
It's only in the mysterious equation of love,
and some incredible feelings I can't for myself understand
that inspired the multiple universes around me and changed my being,
You are my virtual world, I swear I only think of you
Days and Nights
hours and minutes
most of my lost seconds
I found them with you
In as much as I know my worth,
My worth, Even when I'm worth Nothing to you
I get scared when it comes to this.
one of my latest heart unfulfillable discovery
It was hard to find it, and now harder to solve,
what's worst?
It was like a dream to me as well as a great strive,
it still is that dream
But I said it earlier, You are mine only in my dreams
and that is the great power and the magic of love,
I keep saying love like I think it is real.
(What do I know)
Yes one thing i know is to write out what I feel
And What I feel I truly know
And I know that...
I love you although I've never met you,
with you I can stand up for anything,
even things I do not believe in
And if anything rings the bell.
Then I'll say it again;
with you I will stand up for everything
I love you though I've never met you,
Like two ends of a line
the difference is, this can not be defined
you changed my life and so my sky to blue.
i guess it was dark before
Or maybe it has always been blue but I now I see it Brighter
I love you though I never met you,
Why do I keep repeating: I love you like it's weighing on my brains
but in my dreams I really meet you.
Those dreams that i cannot stop smiling from when I wake
Every night : Everyday
Every time my eyes close be it day or night
I...(Don't want to repeat the line ) but I hardly know you
the few I know has mesmerized me
I... I can't help it
But I don't wanna get hurt.
That's right, I Love You But I'm Scared
Jul 31, 2018
Jul 31, 2018 at 2:59 PM UTC
It doesn't matter if i stay the rest of my life tell you I love you
It doesn't matter if I never stop trying to make a change in my life to please your loveliness
I sometimes believe that I am in need of a miracle
But wait
You are my miracle
I love you so much that I forget myself
I lose myself because you are desirable
To me
To my blind heart
Jul 8, 2018
Jul 8, 2018 at 9:21 AM UTC
Each time you hurt me I feel stronger to fall in love with you even harder
I think maybe you will love me someday but that's a queue
your heart has being programmed
this may never happen, you loving is that dream that Joseph had which will never come through...
But I hoped
Didn't stop hoping
ahahahahah
You told me yourself but I refused to listen
now it's the alcohol which is taking me to bed
I held the bottle of wine all night in the rain and well
I emptied the bottle
yes I did
throughout that night I had my heart fooled me
that you will be mine
if not now
later in the future
but that's just how he planned it
he will tell me that all the time
all because it is that blind
I need to do a surgery to save myself from
My Blind heart
Jun 8, 2018
Jun 8, 2018 at 2:58 PM UTC
At the end of the day I am always the one in pains
The one crying
I am that lady who would prefer your lies than to get hurt by your truth
then when I find out about the truth I get mad at you for hiding it from me : I get hurt ... Yet I know I deserve better
I know the is a guy out there who know too much but not as much as he can hurt me
I think I have been pouring my affection on the wrong tree
and he has grown to always make me cry
I feel like am coursed... Cause though I know how much I am worth
Though you treat me ill
hurtful and cruel
My heart changes its destiny
I always cling back to you
I still follow my blind heart to your path
**** me to stop loving you cause
My blind heart will pull me towards you
forever!
May 18, 2018
May 18, 2018 at 3:12 PM UTC
What a fool am I to think a girl like you would ever love a guy like me?
I have nothing to attract your flawlessness.
All i can do is write out my feelings...
Telling them makes me feel jobless
Though no amount of words can tell how much I love you,
No amount of words can make you love me ;
Even a quarter of how much love I have for you
I want your love so bad...
Such that
I'll work for it
But does that count?
Does that even matter to you?
It really hurts...
But wait : are you even listening?
I am willing to learn another language...
I am willing to walk miles...
I am willing...
To speak in the tongue of love
I'll do it -
If at all there is a thing like "the tongue of love"
I will give my all to make you love me
Cry on my midnight candle...
Make wishes on all the stars by night ...
Even on the moon if it could grant them and I'll do same to the sun by day
I'll do anything
Cause
I am a "sucker for your love"
And I know it...
@#NaxThanda
Mar 21, 2018
Mar 21, 2018 at 9:06 PM UTC
"I wanna take this day out for you".
Once I made that decision I ran out of ideas.
Should I just tell you I love you very much?
Should I write my heart out?
No I should work harder?
I should catch your heart without chasing it
I should wait for you
But how long?
How much more time?
What do I do now? that I am lost!
Confused!
Almost frustrated,
I should think about you?
I should think more about you...
Perhaps thinking about you have become my solution to many other problems
But will thinking bout you solve this issue?
This particular issue of me and you
This issue of you and I
I mean the issue of loving you beyond the number that represents the total stars in the sky
Nor that which represent the waters of the ocean
The issue or "troublem" of not being able to know if you have feelings for me
I mean the trouble of not understanding if you can love someone with such small heart as I have
Maybe its not big a problem after all.
Maybe
Just maybe I should be patient?
Oh okay maybes I should wait
Wait a little longer
Just a little
Little yet longer
Maybe I should wait
But
How Long
_Just How Long_
~NaxThandaXxD~
Mar 6, 2018
Mar 6, 2018 at 6:46 PM UTC