I'm in need.
My self doubt like a snowball
and it's picking up speed.
I'm in need.
I look like a flower
but I grow like a ****
I'm in need.
My head trapped in a cage
and it must be freed.
I let the feeling in of loss spread in my chest like a devious seed.
Why do I do these things when they cause me to bleed?
If I just keep pushing
I will never succeed
I will reach too far down this road
Where it is too late to recede
Down into my throat
These false fixes i force feed
reassurance
support
love
honesty
What do I need?
May 21, 2019
May 21, 2019 at 8:58 PM UTC
i really thought that you would notice
but you didn't know this
how could you
i guess i thought i didn't show it
maybe just a little bit
but i was wrong
i never thought that i would let you go
but i just had to let you know
that i could
but now
it seems i've lost my anchor
it seems i've lost my boat
i cannot see my future
and i cannot stay afloat
it seems i've lost my anchor
it seems i've lost my boat
i cannot find a shelter
and i cannot stay afloat
Oct 11, 2018
Oct 11, 2018 at 10:55 AM UTC
i miss the way
you used to look at me
i miss the way
you would talk to me
i wonder if
you wish like i do
i wonder who
i was to you.
Oct 11, 2018
Oct 11, 2018 at 10:42 AM UTC
an empty gaze
locked on a nonexistent space
an expressionless face
showing absolutely nothing
my body feels the same way
nothing.
nothing.
nothing.
i am watching her
live her life
on a screen
and i am numb.
Mar 3, 2018
Mar 3, 2018 at 4:54 PM UTC
I'm lost and I need to be found
I'm getting ran into the ground
I just need life's kiss
I'm better than this
So it's time to stop shunning
The
madness.
Mar 3, 2018
Mar 3, 2018 at 4:51 PM UTC
a dagger in my head
pins behind my eyes
They Can All See You
So Put On Your Disguise
the air escapes my lungs
and my shoulders heave
i squeeze my eyes shut
and beg them to leave
my eyes begin to open
my hands begin to shake
i turn the other cheek
and pray i won't break
a pain in my temple
a rash on my chest
Just Take A Step Outside
After All, i know best
Mar 3, 2018
Mar 3, 2018 at 4:50 PM UTC
try to control it
don't let it go
take a deep breath
because it's starting to show
take a few steps
with your body stiff and tight
ignore the eyes that follow
or try, with all your might
don't shatter, don't show
let your lips begin to part
but no sound comes out
just a thud in my heart
so i bite my tongue
don't let the tears fall
i harden my gaze
and stare at the wall
Mar 3, 2018
Mar 3, 2018 at 4:46 PM UTC
i still feel the weight
of that ball and chain
even though you're gone
i still feel that pain
because you never listened
no, you never let go
you didn't listen to my pleas
because to you, it was just a show
Mar 3, 2018
Mar 3, 2018 at 4:41 PM UTC
When I feel like I'm losing hope
I feel my chest rise and fall
I feel the heat of my skin
If I feel anything at all
Because hope is not created
It can't be, when you're alone
But I know you can give it to me
I can feel it in my bones
I look at you, and I can see it
My stomach gets feather light
That gleam in your eyes
You could give it to me
And you just might
You've already done it
More than you know
It's temporary, but I'm grateful
And its starting to show
Mar 2, 2018
Mar 2, 2018 at 4:50 PM UTC
some people say that life is a blessing,
but i'm not feeling quite the same way
they constantly thank and pray to their lord,
but i'm just pushing through every day
their lives are a dream, a blessing, a gift
while mine feels like i'm dragged by a noose
"My life was hard too, just try harder" they say
"i'll try...
to cut myself loose."
Mar 2, 2018
Mar 2, 2018 at 2:02 PM UTC