Overwhelmed,
My desires,
Unfulfilled,
Incomplete, lost
Somewhere,
My thoughts....
They have me tired.
Happiness,
It never lasts,
Running with life
But Im not fast-
Enough to scream
Why do I cry
I don't miss
You think your
Tough
I can be
Weak
Uncontrollable
You make me
Bleed
Don't look at me and not speak.
Sep 30, 2017
Sep 30, 2017 at 4:56 AM UTC
I get tired of it's confusion,
tired of the pain.
I'm tired of the emptiness from hearts I've parted from.
Tired of wishing for more, but not knowing which way to turn...
And sometimes too scared to look back.
To let go completely of yesterday,
and grasp a hold on the hope of tomorrow.
A hope that if tomorrow gets here, it won't be like yesterday.
Yesterday's holding on to the hope of a lost love
Yesterday's disappointments of the same ol' routine
Yesterday's wishing bills didn't exist, so there wouldn't be any living from check to check.
Yesterday's empty dreams of a fairy tail ending,
Wanting an end to all my struggling.
Holding onto the hope of tomorrow....
A tomorrow filled with pure happiness, knowing that this direction on the path is the one and only way...
Success.
A tomorrow filled with the reassurance that your headed for better days.
A tomorrow with a love that was sent to you from the heaven above, that will only grow deeper and deeper as time goes by to last forever.
A tomorrow that will complete and fulfill yesterdays wants and dreams.
A tomorrow that will conquer all my hardships and troubles.
I grasp the thought of what wonderfulness tomorrow could bring.
(How can you let go of yesterday?
Sep 30, 2017
Sep 30, 2017 at 4:53 AM UTC
One look, I was captured by your eyes
Left staring into your deepest parts
Where your passion and your love lies
The place where I see our hearts
One touch, I was brought down to my knees
So warm, so gentle and feelings so strong
They entered every part of me with such ease
Gave me a taste of love, I saw where I belong
One kiss, I was ready to take to the skies
Flying by your side, forever soaring so free
Under your wings, seeing the world through your eyes
And letting the moon and stars shine on you and me
One word, I felt you opening my soul
I felt your presence deep inside burning
You filled every empty space, every hole
You gave me all I needed.
You gave me everything.
Sep 30, 2017
Sep 30, 2017 at 4:44 AM UTC
My mind pours out in misty blue.
A mental state unheard to you.
My lips, my tongue, they fight about.
While words are screaming, "Let me out!"
They fight and argue all the time
This bout between my lips, tongue, and mind.
Bounded by a mental state.
My words are destined to know their fate.
As gullible as my mind, tongue, and lips felt.
They got down on their knees and knelt.
With exclamation my words screamed and shout..
"I just wanted you to let me out!!!"
Sep 30, 2017
Sep 30, 2017 at 4:24 AM UTC
When it comes,
I feel the need
for needles
stabbing through my skin,
piercing bone,
a healing pain
fighting darkness,
the false light
flees
as if it never was
or ever has been.
Black is nature,
weighed by blood,
burned by cutting
no scent of smoke
sweet delicious pain.
Sep 30, 2017
Sep 30, 2017 at 4:20 AM UTC
I am always a mess. I can never keep my own secrets. I laugh too hard at stupid things. I live in the past, in the memories. I love the people I have. I am heartsick for all the things I can't get back. It's hard for me to define myself. I guess I'm just a cliche, the person who loved too hard and didn't get anything in return. I just want the one person who has never given me a second thought.
Sep 30, 2017
Sep 30, 2017 at 4:17 AM UTC
Knock Knock. Who's there? Anyone I know
behind that stare?
Knock knock. Well then? Still the same as it's ever been.
Knock Knock. Go away. Rather be by myself today.
Knock Knock. Still here. Get so lonesome if you're not near.
Knock Knock. Don't crowd. You've no reason to act so proud.
Knock Knock. You're nuts. You don't love me, and I hate your guts.
Knock Knock. Poor child. Get like this every once in awhile.
Knock Knock. **** it let me in! Any idea how long it's been?
Knock Knock. Not true. You know I love every bit of you.
Knock Knock. Don't say. Where were you all those other days?
Knock Knock. Chill out. You don't know what you're talking about.
Knock Knock. Me chill? I can't even understand you, you're yelling so loud!
Knock Knock. You're blind. Why, because I let you do this every time?
Knock Knock. Time out! I'm not doing this again! Do you even know what were fighting about?
Knock Knock. Why does everything always gotta be about you?
......................
Ding **** It's too late, I found somebody new...
Sep 30, 2017
Sep 30, 2017 at 4:14 AM UTC
You want to feel better?
A little better, a lot better, better than... who?
Better than what?
For how long? A moment, forever, in between?
When? Now, tomorrow, soon, later, just once, always?
Is it out there, that better feeling....
You think?
Where is it? in the wrap of someone's arms or legs, in the folds of a wallet?
In drugs, in music, in ***** in sharp blades, in a hangman's knot?
In the voice of a child, in the pews of a place? Pills?
In sticking your finger down your throat after you eat?
In a needle transporting a dream into your head via a vein?
In the words of a friend, in the scribbles of a poet?
In LA or NYC or Tibet- In possible or in impossible?
In wanting to be somebody else you can't be, or in wanting to be not you, the you who you must be?
In an office, on a couch for an hour, once a week, for a fortune, for a decade, or for forever?
Will the world change for you; Just for you; Just to make you feel better?
And....
Is it that "feel better" is not outside? Outside your door, outside your mind?
Could it be; And can you visualize that feel better feeling is right where it always was, is, will be....
Available, hiding, waiting, engine running, bright lights on, horn honking, screaming, "here I am!" but still stuck un-found and your yet to be discovered, beautiful, unsought, unseen, untasted, un-reached, unconquered, never climbed, never pursued pots of rainbow gold waiting impatiently amongst the treasure laden mountain tops existing inside the barricaded barren self made obstacles hiding along the paths you have chosen that bypass the paths which would lead you to your untapped, untouched, untried courage that dwells, abandoned somewhere in your current over rated mind....
Sep 30, 2017
Sep 30, 2017 at 4:04 AM UTC
(If only you could) step into my heart for just a moment or two, you might be overwhelmed by what I feel for you.
Love, pure and simple. Love that has no end, and longs to hold you near. Now and forever.;
For as long as we are both here.
I want to hold you close
I want to hold your hand
I never want to let you go;
You're the best I've ever had.
I want to protect you
I want to keep you safe
I never want to see you cry;
or feel an ounce of pain.
I want to see you smile
I want to make you laugh
I never want you to wish for something, other than what you have.
I want to give you everything
I want to give you my all
I never want to give you less than anything you want.
Because it's simple
My love for you is pure;
And you are the one
I've waited my whole life for....
Sep 30, 2017
Sep 30, 2017 at 3:49 AM UTC
Sometimes in relationships,
our love defeats our lust;
But sometimes not.
Sometimes in relationships,
our peace is kept by trust;
But sometimes not.
Sometimes in relationships,
we each to each, are hurt and held and healed.
Sometimes in relationships,
we share our heart and mind;
But sometimes not.
Sometimes we are lost lovers, our lives blaze with brigher burst of passion; Sometimes we are best friends, we balance with compassion;
But sometimes not.
Sometimes we are up-in-arms night and day, our battles are fought and won;
Sometimes we are at-loose-ends, and struggle to be one;
But sometimes not.
Sometimes we are with others, together we entertain family;
Sometimes we are you and me;
Two is good company;
But sometimes not.
Sep 30, 2017
Sep 30, 2017 at 3:43 AM UTC