what can a person do when they feel like falling
when their feet no longer touch the ground
when their bodies fall down like leaves
with no sound, no tears, no fear
focusing only on yesterday
because there’s no tomorrow
Apr 16, 2019
Apr 16, 2019 at 9:43 AM UTC
they always told me to reach for the stars
to fly high
never look down
they never once told me how much it hurts to fall
I used to enjoy life and its
little enchanted things that made it a good one
now I only see misery
I don’t appreciate flowers
I crush them with my feet
until they disappear
I dig holes in the ground and imagine what it would be like to sleep in them
buried deep underneath the soil
I would switch the weight of life to the weight of dirt
the things that suffocate me
to the small amount of air in my coffin
I don’t want to die
yet, I’m craving it like oxygen
catch me
because
I am falling
Jun 3, 2018
Jun 3, 2018 at 12:21 AM UTC
you never kissed me
even though i'd kissed your lips a thousand times and more
but only in my dreams
sweet lips of yours
pressed to mine
swollen from the passion between us
the lust that filled our hearts
spread like a poison
like a forbidden fruit
filling the inside of my body with warmth
the fire
burning out every possible doubt
erasing every memory i had
until i was blank
like a canvas
ready for the painter's first brushstroke
Nov 3, 2017
Nov 3, 2017 at 4:57 PM UTC
Every time I see you
My heart aches
Because you are not mine
Every time I feel you
My head spins
Because you are not mine
Every time I imagine being with you
My hands sweat
Because you will never be mine
And I will never be yours
It is hard
Not to imagine everywhere we could have been
Everything we could have felt
Everything we could have experienced together
I am not a stalker
I am not a follower
I like being alone
I also like being surrounded by those who love me
But you are never there for me
Because you do not love me
As much as I love you
You do not even know how many nights I dreamed about you
Your body pressed to mine
Sweat curling on our foreheads
Bodies moist from the acts
Hands joined in a loving embrace
I wish you knew
I wish you at least suspected something
By the looks I gave you
By the small touches
By the shy smiles we exchanged
I guess it was all me
An innocent crush
One-sided love
Never to be returned
Nov 3, 2017
Nov 3, 2017 at 4:49 PM UTC
I craved it
every time I saw you
I imagined your body pressed to mine
but it was all just an illusion
a piece of art
created by my vivid imagination
then I remembered you did not care
you were just a statue
standing in the mud
and the rain
pale face with an odd smirk
I could not help it
I fell hard for that Cheshire cat's smile
but underneath it
there was sadness
constant despair
melancholy of words
said to the wind
that did not listen
and there was this coldness
in your limbs
no heat or passion
when next to the loved one
no feelings
no emotions
nothing
like a stone
cold to the core
Oct 30, 2017
Oct 30, 2017 at 10:55 AM UTC
coming back home
to those empty walls;
craving food
which could also be love;
hearing the emptiness of my heart
growing bigger and bigger until it stops.
closing my eyes and seeing my death --
the causes of nightmares and insomnia;
cleaning the kitchen that is never used;
breathing for you,
even though you do not exist.
looking at the quiet room -- imagining it full;
the bed remains made
because nobody cared to mess it
Oct 24, 2017
Oct 24, 2017 at 8:34 AM UTC
love is blind
you left me
and I never saw it coming
I am naïve
trust people who are not real
the people who are only bodies
no souls and minds
no reasons to stay patient and constant
like robots lacking emotions
you were my eyes
my heart
my everything
now I am lying on the ground
overwhelmed with the pain of existence
and I am blind
without you, I cannot see
but I choose to stay sightless
at least love will not fool me again
Oct 21, 2017
Oct 21, 2017 at 7:05 PM UTC
Closing my eyes now is the thing I cannot do; dark pictures appearing under my eyelids and haunting me like ghosts from my past who wanted to say goodnight
Oct 21, 2017
Oct 21, 2017 at 6:32 PM UTC
I never told you that silence scared me
no movement
no sounds
the eternal stillness
we could linger in the calmness
stay close
hear each other's deep breaths
you barely heard me do it
I always stalled the inhales
to feel still for a moment
to suffocate
I just wanted to feel weightless
make the world stop for a minute
relax and be brought to life
for the last time
fresh and clean
silent
Oct 21, 2017
Oct 21, 2017 at 6:26 PM UTC
how many years had past
until you realized
the right one for you
stood by your side your whole life
helped you
made you smile
lightened up your darkest days with just their presence
they just needed your attention
and you were busy
not giving them even the smallest part of it
because they weren't your type
even when you did not have a type
but you had this small evil-ish voice in your head
whispering to you
at the deepest moment of the night
that they were not worthy
they just wanted to hurt you
make you fall hard for them
break you precious and oh so fragile little heart
filled with regrets
flaws
and pain
then leave you
alone yet again
in the dark
doomed to die lonely
and broken
Oct 21, 2017
Oct 21, 2017 at 4:03 AM UTC