But I could not accept that reality - the one that took the man who loved me out of his skin and zapped him into thin air; a cold hard truth that he would not be loving me tonight. He would not hold me again, kiss me again, or gently smooth his hands over my messy hair, my forehead perspiring from the humidity and your eyes glistening while you look up from me, as you kiss me. As you love me - and I can not lose you; neither can I live in such a denial as this
Sep 12, 2013
Sep 12, 2013 at 1:20 PM UTC
Take another breath
You are alone here
But only is your body
Your mind is connected
To all of those you love
Even after they are gone
Take another breath
The sky is still a beauty
And you are too
The way you've stayed alive
Kept yourself breathing
Standing, Driving, Reading
Take another breath and
Let him go
He couldn't love you
I'm sure he would have
If he could have
You can't blame yourself
You can't blame the world
& You can't blame him
Take another breath..
& Let him go.
May 16, 2013
May 16, 2013 at 10:44 AM UTC
Entwined duvet covers sleep atop the mattress-
Just as she awoke.
The first hours pass as the last hours passed-
She wishes he had spoke.
There are no available hands open to hold her tears-
Instead she turns to the smoke.
I've seen her laugh before and I have heard her smile-
Now she hides underneath a hazy cloak.
With a heave and a shove she gets the window to crack-
To let in air before the heat gives her a stroke.
The smoke rushes out, the cold rushes in and chills run down her spine-
A wallet and a heart are broke.
She slips away to sleep again to pass the time-
But soon the nightmares replay and her memories invoke.
Entwined duvet covers sleep atop the mattress-
Just the same as last night-
Just as she awoke.
May 14, 2013
May 14, 2013 at 8:34 PM UTC
Sometimes I gain a consciousness
Towards what I've known was right all along.
And it has taken me a series of events,
To see that I am enriched with the wisdom that someone lacking may be wrong.
May God grant me a humble heart to strike a position that prevents
Another one from taking the color from out of my world; the story inside my song,
And I will hold on to myself as long as I remember my own flesh is where I belong.
Apr 28, 2013
Apr 28, 2013 at 11:40 PM UTC
Before I sat on the inside,
With a broken heart I rest my head.
Now I lay on the outside,
With a screaming mind I leave my bed.
Into the night I find you there,
With too much demise and exceeding pride,
You never knew how to care.
Give me, me.
I want myself returned.
I cannot watch my heart a blaze,
It continues on it's burn.
Apr 25, 2013
Apr 25, 2013 at 9:47 PM UTC
I thought my sail was straight enough
for you to get the perfect amount
of wind to share the sea
But you instead jumped off
The boat to swim to the dock
Which was not far off
And I sail alone now
With no one to share with the sea
That's how it will be,
Alone with the sea
Apr 11, 2013
Apr 11, 2013 at 10:51 PM UTC
Tonight the earth blows a riveter of wind between my ears,
From cheek to cheek the cold has stolen ice sculptures from tears,
I'm wondering what mighty god could save us from the glory years,
Saddened by the reflection at the end of those days in the mirrors.
Apr 11, 2013
Apr 11, 2013 at 10:49 PM UTC
Your heart is spun of white and gold threads,
And you wear your feelings on your sleeves,
Tonight you lay down your feelings beneath the beds,
As I travel to the forest to run through out the trees.
Apr 11, 2013
Apr 11, 2013 at 12:57 AM UTC
In the summer we stayed at a glance,
A passing glance was all that had a splinter
to succeed in it’s ability to have a chance,
In the summer I often turned back in the winter
Dreaming of someone to rid me of my saddened dance,
You were but a man in a world I wasn’t yet delivered.
Summer faded to fall and the world fell on it’s side,
I felt things from an inner light working deep within,
Laying beneath the feathers of your wings saved what was inside
Of me and the demons that lay beneath my skin,
Disappeared to far off dimensions which boosted your pride.
Fall brought sweet kisses and letters dotted hearts for eyes,
Discovering the world which brought my mind to infinity,
I let you come inside my home, my heart, my skin, my soul, to my demise.
I gave in to the heaven’s and believed in the human divinity,
A love to keep me sheltered from the red and blackened skies,
As long as I could creep back under the shell of your vicinity.
Music and waves of laughter spread across the days we spent,
As fall turned to winter the covers and you kept me warm,
Through the winter the world began to fade, our love did dent.
Through the days and through the nights, a blooming flame scorn.
As the spring began to bring the rain, off the man of God went.
As she wept underneath the rocks of the buildings with her heart torn.
The darkness that she fears rests solely in the hands she holds,
Her own hands she takes not for granted for they have kept her sane.
Praying down on her knees that there will be a path to soon unfold,
Until then there is pain and pain and pain.
Winter took with it the echoes of the memories which now go untold,
Here comes the rain.
Apr 9, 2013
Apr 9, 2013 at 11:23 PM UTC
Tonight my silent words escape off my tongue,
Trying not to believe you have really gone,
Walking through tunnels of darkness and death,
Bones never shatter to rejuvenate the dawn.
Apr 8, 2013
Apr 8, 2013 at 11:18 PM UTC