Unfortunately, I have not wrote poetry
Fortunately, I have danced poetry
Spit poetry
**** poetry
broke poetry
smoked poetry
misguided poetry
sang poetry
and asked poetry for spare change
I took poetry on a date and didn’t call back
Spun poetry on my ring finger
to put it back in my mouth and continue to chew
I’ve crumpled poetry into a ball
and shown it to the stars of my waste bin
Fortunately, poetry hasn’t called me back
or asked, “how was your day?”
Fortunately, I’ve culled poetry without a quill
and selected poetry to see the tracks
of an un-poetic railway
like a jail, poetry can’t see the bars
I brought poetry down, down, down
and smothered poetry onto myself
got caught in the rain
the snow
the sun
and sand
I repeat poetry
I repeat poetry as the way
the way
to nowhere poetry
I never ended it with poetry
I’ve never ended poetry.
Did I do it right?
May 16, 2013
May 16, 2013 at 1:19 PM UTC
There’s a tiny turquoise sequin that lies
on my black and white bathroom tile
a tiny piece of you, Sea Queen
poised only for me
Sea Queen, it’s by that towel you last used
the same one I used
Sea Queen, I’ll try to explain
my chronicles in nautical miles
before I’m forced to die
with my sequin shoes on
but, I hallucinate land and I sail to drown
in your gown of now intangible sequins
I wouldn’t mind, Sea Queen,
if my eye’s palette could handle the paillettes’
reflection through a sea of sequins
but instead it’s holograms I chase
they’re a part of me and I guard them carefully
like your sequin that lies
on my white bathroom tile
next to the pink towel you used
before your heart resembled a crumpled piece of paper
and I got distracted by the sequins, Sea Queen.
Apr 16, 2013
Apr 16, 2013 at 9:23 PM UTC
I climbed to search my attic yesterday
my brother my father came to humbly help
I told myself I would never fall in
insulation if I tread lightly enough
I climbed to find fruit once
in an apple tree we found
I told myself there was just one
I want and I only need it
There was a man who asked me for change
on the streets of New Orleans
he once told me
about his mom, Melody
She climbed each day
to put 37 years of storms
that looked like sunsets
behind her
Maybe we dodge change
to brighten up
our own attics and caskets
he said
Well I told myself
I want my eulogy to mean
more than the sound
of day to day traffic
the flicker of train lights
or the cleaning
of attics
Feb 25, 2013
Feb 25, 2013 at 3:10 PM UTC
Searching the attic
boxes unfold
as homes parish
An addict thrives
in times of content
As she poses
light captures through
one glass eye
a dark cell
an over exposed memory
a broken man’s watch
predicts turns fine
a fixation on the destination
defines troubled times
once left behind
Jan 29, 2013
Jan 29, 2013 at 8:55 PM UTC
The doctors came right in
they smile to say I most likely
won’t live
but my money is good here
Georgie, the orderly, cut me wide open
like a barber with a Parkinson’s disorder
a scalpel with Stockholm Syndrome
a race for euthanasia’s abduction
A table of speed, a speed table
and a stop sign of
bad decisions after supper
so stay awake
T-bone steaks for dinner that night
smashed potatoes and
a mother’s kiss goodbye
followed by the Jaws of Life
It was wrong wasn’t it, Eliot
to be left pinned
and wriggling against a wall
because there will be time
for the mermaids to come and go
for my pants to remain rolled
and for steel to strengthen my bones
or so I’m told
but, I cant get that sound you make
out of my head, it’s connected to my body
which is connected to the problem
large enough for me
still—no one seems to be noticing
the bad bone in my body, the flat line of this fly
with a fading smile
God has nice tile.
Jan 15, 2013
Jan 15, 2013 at 9:03 PM UTC
five minutes from suicide’s stigma I was
scribbling words to describe my own demise
but not these you see about boomerang generations
of leeches who return to comfort—safety after selfish pillage and plight
At least that’s what my father cried
What stopped me that October day was a ***
a Fool, if you will, younger than I residing on 15th and 3rd
he clutched tightly to trains into cities and drank blue Mad Dog 20/20
while vomiting tales of sloppy wrists and joblessness
He said, “Don’t do this you need more stability!”
The rest of that day I defied gravity
as I could ski away from rock bottom
because a *** a traveler, taught me in Autumn
more about a chemical reaction of gold
Than middle school teachers could
Five years to the day, yesterday,
I saw him outside a bank and couldn’t help but think
about blue drink, middle finger sentiments and consequences
late for a shift his apron pressed because chemical addiction
Forced a need for paper, not communication.
Nov 16, 2012
Nov 16, 2012 at 8:04 PM UTC
I once wondered what the Devil reads before he goes to sleep in Prada sheets
I found he wears white but feeds the least hungry
Go ahead and eat he told me, it’s food for thought food for death
I can’t catch my breath or brain they brought me here
One dance with the Devil done by 12 I feel so lucky
My bet with Judas just jarred the line call the ******
He stabbed the Devil’s back too but this time for a quid
We left to ***** and loot like teens with stolen credit cards
Maxed out and blacked out murderers with no trust
**** I must be Satan’s rebellious son.
Now reigning in the fire I bring the flames higher
Than they’ve ever been but my back wont be stabbed like his.
Nov 9, 2012
Nov 9, 2012 at 11:48 PM UTC
Stuck between the Nile and acceptance
is the tree that grows in Brooklyn
caged like a lion clinging to the memory
of clean water and light
still a lone, a loner of the moon
once requested the thought
is this living just dying?
Nov 7, 2012
Nov 7, 2012 at 12:10 PM UTC
When I was 15, I wouldn’t have believed you
if you told me all of this about constant lament
in a Red painted Animal House of scapegoats
that I’ve yet to see
it’s
streets of beige
it’s
fast food bad food no food spilled milk or beer
it’s
the South no the East maybe West probably North
it’s
in the air the water the meat there’s just too much heat to breathe or hold a job
it’s
hourly wages and daily commutes of gypsy peddlers in a town I’ve never been to
it’s
the cigarettes or nicotine my useless spleen filtering things I should never inhale or drink
it’s
divorce rates leading to ***** flicks c-sections finding acquaintances on monitors after dark only able to generate laughter over years of tears
it’s
women
it’s
pain
it’s
the migraines we get when we're waiting on the rain to paint the beige streets bronze
it’s
rolling trees metal trucks frozen lakes lumber jacks and ice fishing
it's
the anxiety of right wrong bad good all grey in the sunshine without you
it’s
the words of times you said meaning more to me than it ever could to you
it’s
the colossus of Wall St. overbearing my own suit and tie un-ironed or cared for but necessary none the less
it’s
CCTV the fight for power Government foreign travelers or terrorists Project Paper clip MK Ultra Plum Island persuasion propaganda Paul Wolfowitz
it’s
who governs what you can afford when you sit tattered on a curb after earning another mans bread
it’s
what has or has not been said 7 times or none that still lingers on the grass out front of home or house
it’s
no matter how big you are you still answer a toy phone handed to you by a two year old
it’s
the tears of Alexander when he realized there were no more worlds to conquer
Oct 29, 2012
Oct 29, 2012 at 2:37 PM UTC
Run outside to find mink flowers,
unicorns and molecules
all the things you want to bring
to the party
They are all but particles
scattered across the living room floor
or maybe lines on a mirror
through a hopeless door
Entertained by the night
entranced with the stars
in their fight against the sky
ascertain caged lions
who cling to the memory
of flight and thoughts of Einstein
that define our feelings or some ****
There is reason for the gaze
but the beasts miss
used their rhyme but they're still able
to find their way back
I know because I'm always reminded
atoms are what make us matter
Oct 14, 2012
Oct 14, 2012 at 12:04 AM UTC