If you're havin' a smoke
Take a gentle ****
So you're not left breathless
By what life will evoke
If you get too high
And time will pass you by
Faster than you know
Faster than you know
So you sit and wonder why
You can't go slow
The cherry burns brighter
As you try to gain control
Apr 15, 2015
Apr 15, 2015 at 6:13 PM UTC
I stay awake
Staring at the darkness
Long into the hours of the night
Dreams are fleeting
To the restless mind
Intangible goals
Can't be unreached
No point to being rested
When the bottom is the peak
And I'm headed there
The end is the beginning
I will cry a sea of tears
And jump in
Not knowing if I will sink or swim
Because I'm not a sailor
Only in my imagination
And not my memory
Do I know the sea
Jan 9, 2015
Jan 9, 2015 at 4:56 AM UTC
Somewhere buried, the secret garden moans
helpless and homely, it grows, it knows
that we are searching, relentless and slow
lost together but also alone
she sits by the fences, an outsider now
different from others, not exactly sure how
seeing more widely like a curse of understanding
getting to the end of a life but not dying
help, someone says, reaching out, take my hand
show me the secret you have in your brain
open so wide that no secrets remain
they will dissect you in the end anyway
forgotten in time is a place to go hide
I try to find it and can't but instead I go blind
piecing together the remnants of plight
nothing to eat that won't hurt precious life
Dec 12, 2014
Dec 12, 2014 at 1:42 AM UTC
There's something about the simple truth,
that it's not love anymore,
that shakes me to the core.
You will never know this suffering,
that I hide behind sparse words of false joy.
Im no more better than the day I wanted to die,
on the sea side.
Im seeing an image of you in my mind and I cry.
I try to be ok but why fight,
when time,
they say,
is the only thing that can win the battle of my broken heart.
But how much,
that part’s unknown.
And in the meanwhile,
no where feels like home,
I’ll be shattered and alone,
to cry tears that go unseen and hear the echo of words that made me
dream
Oct 24, 2014
Oct 24, 2014 at 11:04 AM UTC
I don't know if you can see right now,
your energy is all encompassing to me, you are in tune with everyone and everything even when you don't realise.
Your soul calls out,
I hear it, is it calling me?
An idea, a probability?
I love you so very much. I can only hope you understand what that means. Soul mate yes, is a once In a lifetime thing, but so is love, real love.
The meaning just got diluted along with our culture, and tossed around frivolously until it could be applied to all intimate situations.
Not so, not for me.
You are for me, if you want to be
Oct 20, 2014
Oct 20, 2014 at 10:39 PM UTC
I'm looking Down
imagining falling off the balcony.
Hands first
Silent because once falling,
I can't scream.
My arms outstreached to brace my face
as it nears the stone.
That Moment the ground is there
I Close my eyes,
Arms break but Skull is smashed a second later
so I don't process any of it.
Then what.
I don't know.
But she does.
She just Jumped
Aug 27, 2014
Aug 27, 2014 at 9:48 AM UTC
The Sun shines above the clouds
While it's raining below
The storm always passes
Though someday a new one will take its place
That one will also pass
So don't put worry into it
It's the storms that make the flowers grow
Jul 22, 2014
Jul 22, 2014 at 2:35 PM UTC
the greatest things in life, are the greatest challenges we overcome
Jul 22, 2014
Jul 22, 2014 at 2:27 PM UTC
This is the beginning, life has been setting the stage and creating lessons for me to overcome and they have led me to this point, this harmonious balance of fun and change, of inspiration and strength. I’ve fallen down, and those who pushed me there were the hands to pull me up. I’ve lost, and in that misery found a certain peace in knowing nothing more could be taken away.
Like a phoenix rising from the ashes, I’m just now dusting myself off. The sunlight is coming back into my eyes. Burning that hole of darkness, but I don’t want to look away, not this time. Not to fall into the societal trap of striving for mediocrity. I want more for the world I’m living in. I want all of us to reach for the wildest possibilities that our minds can imagine, not just me, not just you. There’s a place I’ve seen in a trance of waking dream state that could be this place. We just have to stop letting the distractions get in the way.
Our egos feed on extrinsic desires but stuff is stuff and people are souls. They are connected to us through the energy of consciousness that is invisibly surrounding us all the time. As out minds get fat from satisfactions of the worlds obsessions, it gets harder to feel this energy of connection. But I guarantee, it is there, and when others feel it, or see it, there’s no way they can forget it; and do everything in their power to spread the awareness of it.
We are not above nature we are nature. Ahisma: for all living creatures. Redefine need from want; convenience from importance; innovation from destruction; oil from energy; and love from obsession. Replace ignorance for understanding, and not just that but a desire to know. Replace trickery with clarity, when you lie to others you’re only lying to yourself. Only then, can we have unity, and unity, is the only thing that will work to change anything. Once there is unity, there is Love; the most powerful force in the universe.
I have mentioned before, that a person doesn’t have to ‘stand for’ the same thing that I stand for, I appreciate uniqueness and difference. Just so long as you see A FLAW in the world around us and YOU ARE personally trying to change it. I see many flaws, but I can’t change them all, I can only do what is in the realm of my possibilities. That sounds like a limiting statement, but in fact, I have not yet found what the limit of my possibility is. It is only when you push the boundaries of reality that you discover how malleable they really are.
“If you can dream it…” what is the dream? Equality, harmony, free energy? It is everything that will allow us to flourish in peace. It is more of a feeling than a word. Minds get conditioned not to think big, the future mother earth needs is so far from where we are that it feels overwhelming. Like looking at the stars, and trying to grasp the universe with our mental capacities. Use your heart instead. When you look into the windows of each other’s souls, do you feel you want War? **** Pain? Death Through Suffering? Toxic Chemicals injected into the Atmosphere, the Water, the Ground? Why keep doing this. Focus not on where it comes from, but on what we together can do to fix it. What does your paradise look like? How can we get there.
Jul 8, 2014
Jul 8, 2014 at 10:57 AM UTC
It fills me with apathy.
for a love that cannot be.
A reality we must force ourselves to see.
And a choice we must make to live happily.
Despite this strife that plagues our life.
Its time to sit down and lose this fight.
Cause we’re out of ways to make that plight.
I will forever feel that love when I look onto your eyes but must know that its not right.
So this is what I will do,
pick up the pieces of my heart that were broken and smashed a million times by you.
Let the pieces take their time to fall into place,
so once again I have a base,
from which to stand from which to dive,
so I can feel alive and re learn to thrive.
I don’t wanna know what it feels like that final time you go.
Casue I imagine it being the lowest of low.
I guess that’s why im still holding on,
to that little part of you that makes me feel strong.
And gives me some reason to carry on,
for the hope that we might one day be together.
In a realm beyond forever,
I cant settle right now for ‘never’ and yet the latter is too far away,
it scares me to know the opposite has to be the way
I will be creating my experience in this day to day,
meanial existence.
Jun 13, 2014
Jun 13, 2014 at 9:00 AM UTC