We knew each other in a past life
I could feel the pull to her,
On the first night I asked if she was okay
And that was that
The universe took our fates and crossed them
Our souls forever connected
Wondering in what time we loved as well
A time less complicated
Who were we?
Lovers? Enemies?
What brought us together on that fateful night?
It feels like we met at the perfect time
A time when we needed a friend
Why then?
Why us?
What's the plan?
She doesn't believe in falling in love
But I wonder if she believes in soulmates?
Dec 22, 2019
Dec 22, 2019 at 5:13 PM UTC
There is something to be said about pain
How the simplest things can make your heart sink
That pit in your stomach
And the tingling in your jaw
There are times when I think I should have kept my mouth shut
And my heart pure
It makes me wonder if when I die,
Will my family build me a tomb
Or throw me away like trash
This is why pain hurts
It makes you think
And with all the thoughts I have
I can't help but wonder
How I could ever deserve her
How with all the pain I've endured
And the thoughts I have
She always decides to stay
I don't offer much but take all she gives
So why do I feel pain when she does?
Why can't I live without her?
My heart aches for her
And that leads me to wonder why she hurts
What her thoughts are
And why she needs me
If my heart is a wick, then she is the flame
A warmth that melts away my walls
And burns my fears to ash
So why do I hurt when I think of her?
Is the fear of losing or pushing her away?
What if I never said "hello"?
Would we be alive?
Would we have felt this pain?
She holds my hear in her hands
A light squeeze to let me know
She'll never let go
There's something to be said about love
How it always hurts
And is somehow more painful than death
Dec 22, 2019
Dec 22, 2019 at 5:08 PM UTC
Shaky
The world spins
My ears ring
My vision blurs
My heart thumps
My hands shake
What a weird feeling
The feeling of not letting go
Like a crocodile and a zebra
Or a bee and a flower
It almost feels like losing
The water splashes
My wishes twist
My soul jumps
My mind screams
My fingers ache
What a weird taste
The taste of falling down
Like a chain with a weight
Or a moth with a flame
It almost feels like caring
May 2, 2019
May 2, 2019 at 10:11 PM UTC
Don’t think about it
Or it won’t come true
Don’t dream about it
Or it will never end
Don’t tell anyone about it
Or it will never happen
They will sell you diet pills
And you’ll be the first to buy it
They will tell you to **** yourself
And you’ll be the first one to try it
Don’t think
Don’t dream
Don’t tell
The three rules
Of the dying human
You will never be sorry
But you will always regret
That you took those poison tablets
It’s easy though
Because you feel bad for yourself
And everything’s fine
Just as long as you don’t act sad
May 2, 2019
May 2, 2019 at 10:11 PM UTC
Throw yourself into your worries
And you’ll come back a madman
Get devoured by a demon
And you’ll under what a dark creature sadness is
***** up all your organs
And you’ll know what the dying feel
Drink an animal’s blood
And you’ll become the most poisonous spider
Eat the flesh of a human
And you’ll become the cannibal you’ve always been
May 2, 2019
May 2, 2019 at 10:10 PM UTC
I lost myself that night
Wandering and wondering about everything
Hoping to see the light of day once again
That did not happen
I was stripped of everything I called my own
My thoughts consisted of a single line
“I can’t believe this is happening to me again.”
Nightmares
Flashed before my eyes
I tried to fight against the world
But in the end I lost
But in the end I died
My thoughts became a black puddle on the sidewalk
“Hmm...” I wonder now, “Maybe I’m not dead.”
I’m happy with my end
Happy that it happened
Although, I do wonder what it would be like to live again
May 2, 2019
May 2, 2019 at 10:09 PM UTC
Your ghost haunts my dreams
It won’t let me sleep
Its face is always a blurry photograph
I repeat the lines you said to me
“Don’t leave me, don’t let me fade away.
Stay with me, don’t leave me be.”
I watch you fade as the darkness encloses
I see you cry as my sorrow passes through
You hear me scream as the smoke hides all
Life is nothing now, because we are gone
The feeling of falling is finally free,
But the feeling of breathing is so far
Help won’t come for us, even if we cry
Snow suffocates our minds into twisted children
Always remembering, but also forgetting
Never living out our dyings
Skidding to a halt at our final light
Don’t let me die on my own
Please let me live all alone
May 2, 2019
May 2, 2019 at 10:08 PM UTC
My head hurts all day
I want to burn my pain away
To **** off my own mind
But I can’t
Not when people are happy
All I do is think in my head
All alone and hidden by my ashen lies
I wish to see my cold corpse on the ground
To sink in the earth and never return
It’s too late to save me now
I’m lost in myself
I cannot come back to you
Even if you grab through my mirror
Stretching to touch my hand
I listen to notes of screams
And cry myself to sleep
Am I nothing but doomed to live?
Am I nothing but ****** to be forever?
I’ll claw own eyes out if I hear one more happy song
Help will never come
So burry me now
Leave me forever to rot sour
I’ll do it myself if I have to
Nobody did ever cry for me
May 2, 2019
May 2, 2019 at 10:07 PM UTC
Caffeine is the only drug
I don't need
Because your love
is the only pick me up I crave
Apr 15, 2019
Apr 15, 2019 at 6:54 PM UTC
I was about to shrink back into the door, but Apollo caught my shoulder, obviously knowing what I was thinking. I leaned into his body. Apollo was a peculiar god; he loved his immortality but adored humans even more. After being ****** out of Olympus, I found him throttled in human addicted; rage in his heart, lust in his eyes, and poison in his soul. It was at that time when I came to him, open arms and a wider imagination. I believed that he would make a good companion, somebody I could rely my duties on when the universe got too hectic. This choice had proved challenges along history, but I didn’t regret it. I would never be able to replace his compassion.
“Try not to think about it,” he whispered into my hair. His mortal form was warm and comforting, like laying on a sunny day. “I know she’s hard on you, but-” he sighed, deep in thought as well, “just think of that day, okay, and how it made everything better.” I nodded, finally slipping away from him and into the house.
Dec 27, 2018
Dec 27, 2018 at 3:55 AM UTC