i'm holding my breath
maybe this time you'll say it
who am i kidding?
May 5, 2017
May 5, 2017 at 1:56 AM UTC
I can still hear you laughing in my passenger seat
like you did all last summer in the blazing heat
now my car is but a frowzy mess
no one I ride here I need to impress
everyone used to tell me to just let you go
now they say nothing, its like they all know
its like a song that's stuck on repeat
I know every line and I know every beat
they think its done because your name no longer troubles my writing
the battle of letting go is one i'm still fighting
truth is I disguise your eyes with metaphors of emeralds and diamonds
or the way you breathe with pacifying silence
lemonade cake mix and cream cheese frosting
all these good memories are now just exhausting
trying to move on but i'm stuck in the past
like the ending summer, we weren't meant to last
so i'll end this reign of poems about you
and maybe i'll finally write something new
this ending is dumb, bittersweet and tough
but i think its time, I've put you through enough
i'll end this poem with a goodbye and an apology
if it hurts it still matters its basic psychology
i'm sorry for all the hurtful words and all the fights
for all the lost time and sleepless nights
you didn't deserve it
so its time i quit
you were one in a million and for a second you were mine
i'd be lying if i said it was okay, or I'm fine
its time i let you be happy and new
you don't need to take all our memories, just keep a few
go forward in life with your head high and a smile
i know we cant be friends now but maybe in a while
Jul 29, 2015
Jul 29, 2015 at 4:07 AM UTC
I wish you would leave and never return
I got rid of your letters i just let them burn
i returned your sweater that i borrowed last year
i did it without shedding even one tear
i packed the rest of your things away in a box
i threw it in the river and sank it with rocks
i deleted your number and all the messages you left
i may hurt now but i know its for the best
one day i'll look back and not remember your name
or any of the things you did to drive me insane
it wont hurt forever maybe just for a while
maybe in the future i'll think back and smile
what you taught me was tough but it had to me done
it ****** that it changed us, that wasn't much fun
i am better now then i was before
one day you'll wish you could've loved me more
Apr 15, 2015
Apr 15, 2015 at 2:39 AM UTC
he confesses he loves me
but only when i'm leaving.
he claims he can't breathe without me
so i stay
he cries and drinks until he falls asleep,
arms tight around my chest
i tell myself my actions are sober
and here another day
Apr 13, 2015
Apr 13, 2015 at 2:30 AM UTC
love me whole or not at all
love my soul or don't let me fall
my hands they burn your skin is fire
I don't want to learn you're my every desire
I need you here don't let me go
this world I fear without you it's so-so
detached I'm in pieces, keep me together
take out the creases and undo the weather
bandaid the burns and hold me close
you say we are friends then up the dose
my head is spinning my love you're crying
our friendship is thinning its slowly dying
Apr 5, 2015
Apr 5, 2015 at 4:53 AM UTC